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who knows. bet it was a real struggle back then having to jump into things without technology letting you know if it was safe or not. you're so cute. you'll have to let me know if the book ends up being helpful because there's no way i have the attention span to sit down and read it. kind of just winging shit out here. did you end up getting any nice photos?

you either biked to the library or lived without knowing and if that isn't like being stuck between a rock and a hard place. most of what i've gotten through seems helpful but i'm not sure if i'm retaining any of the info. might need to revisit it after the baby is born. you're a natural mum, and i truly believe that. i think the photos turned out pretty well, especially the ones i took of you while you were napping. we need photos to fill out that baby book, after all. how're you feeling today, darling?

i think i can. i mean, google gives the green light for it and that's all i need so i'll go book those massages now. did you skim through the book? kind of hilarious and adorable to me that you did. real thoughtful of you, babe. i'm down for a picnic on the beach. bring your camera. i want all the memories of this babymoon.

bless google always coming through with the facts. i wonder how people did it a couple of decades ago. going to the library every time you needed to fact check something sounds exhausting. i bought the book and i've read about half of it so far. figured i'd read the rest on this trip. you know, light reading by the pool and all that. the camera is going with me everywhere, i'm not about to miss a moment of this.

sweetest, most thoughtful dad ever already. you should book one for early tomorrow morning, get those feet of yours ready for all the walking they'll be doing this week. sounds like you had fun out there so i love that for you. what's on the agenda for tomorrow then?

nothing i wouldn't do for the both of you. should we get one of those couples massages too? can you have a back massage now? i should've probably read 'what to expect when you're expecting' more carefully tbh. tomorrow, how do you feel about a picnic on the beach? we'll find a private cove to sit and sunbathe and take it all in.

your favorite man in the entire world? how you flatter me, mescal. with how sunny it is here, i reckon we'll be leaving with either a nice tan or a bright red burn. fingers crossed it ends up being the former. my flight wasn't too bad, actually. slept most of it away and then watched some mindless movies for the other half. don't worry, you'll feel much better after that ten hour nap comes crashing down on you. always down for a pint or two. first round on me to celebrate all the good reviews our movie is getting now that it's on streaming.

hopefully i was doing a good enough job with the flattery that you're now inclined to want to hang out with me for the entire trip. i barely get to see you outside of work events and now that we're here, i'm taking full advantage of it. i envy you, i sleep like crap on a plane. i'm trying to remain on my feet until tonight, so i can wake up at a regular time to enjoy the trip. let's make it three pints, anything more than that and you have me getting white girl wasted on you.

we're not even a full day into this trip and you're already making it the best one ever. that foot rub nearly had me getting down on my knee to propose to the lady. so, you know -- thank you. loved it. what did you get up to for the hour that you were away? get any exploring in? i'm feeling incredibly rundown but i know i'm going to sleep so damn good tonight after that welcome dinner. can't wait, actually.

since you're having my baby, i need to step up my dad game. can't spoil the little one yet, so have to make sure their mama gets everything she needs. that good huh? looks like i might have to book a session for me too. i just walked around, took some photos and got one of those overpriced fruity drinks to settle my jetlagged brain. you and me both. get some of that food in me and i'm passing out for real. we can save all of our adventure time for tomorrow then.

private: i am just so happy for you both. i am sure when it happens it will all click into place. i know you are going to be the most amazing father. the little one is so lucky. are you going to find out the gender? good, please let me know if you guys need anything. you stop that because i will just start crying again. i love you so much, paul. this is amazing. i am, i am filming here.

private: i didn't really think about having kids and this wasn't exactly planned but it's the best surprise i've had. you should've seen my mum when we told her, she was the happiest i've ever seen her. we are, in a few weeks time. Sophie wants to know and i've got no problem with that. i might need some help in a few weeks, got lots of baby shopping to do and i'm forcing you to come with me. i love you, dais. can't wait to see you and give you the biggest hug. it's been too long.

private: i refuse to be pessimistic about this. we'll figure shit out as we go and worry about the rest later. exactly. we can go in a week or two to find out the gender and then start a list of names. honestly, i was thinking about just dropping an instagram post and leaving it at that. hailey baldwin style. we don't have to explain our situation to anyone, you know? that's so cute. i love the idea of her being such a proud grandmum already. friday morning works perf. i'll reach out to my folks and let them know we're coming over for lunch.

private: i'm going to follow your lead here and not expect the world to come crumbling down at any moment. let's see how this positivity thing will be working for us. do you have any names you've thought about yet? that instagram post was very nicely done and i do love that it's out there now. no more hiding, not that you could hide much longer anyway. we don't owe anyone an explanation and i'm not going to start explaining, our life is ours. our baby will have two extremely proud grandmas and they're very lucky for it. how're you feeling now that we've told the world?

private: fair enough. got nothing but faith in us and navigating this whole thing together. i think i want to find out the gender beforehand. i've never really been good at staying patient. what about you? do you have a preference? also, i was thinking we should announce it before the bora bora trip since i won't be able to hide the obvious bump while we're on the trip. your mum is adorable and i just know she'll be the best grandma. alright, let's do it. how does friday sound? think you could take work off that day?

private: you've always been the optimist and i do admire that about you. whatever you need. i'm not opposed to knowing beforehand, it makes shopping easier and we can start thinking of names. it's a little scary telling the world but i absolutely want the news to come from us, so let's do it. how do we go about it? i bet she's already gone shopping for things and once we let the rest of the world in, she can start bragging about the baby to all of her friends. course, it's Halloween so i don't think lots of people will be on set anyways. i could come get you on Friday morning, bright and early?