wanderings fill my head with blue

3. If your OC could revisit their childhood, what would they want to change about it, if anything at all?

opal: i think that opal would desperately try to overturn his and onyx's dynamic with obsidian in the hopes that it changes how dependent they're forced to be upon him howeverr this would probably instead create like 5 william new problems in their relationship!

not being relied on would be very difficult for dian i think it would give him a strong feeling of inferiority.. and probably shake up his relationship w his brothers since he no longer knows where he stands with them. and i think in turn this new distance would hurt opal deeply but i don't think he'd stop trying if he could

onyx: this is so hard i dont know what goes on in this guy's head... but i think he'd have liked to be more active within his brothers' lives. i think he would regret not being able to be a support for the both of them and kinda leaving them to fend for themselves against each other.

honestly though? this in conjunction w opal's change would probably improve their overall relationship SOOO much which probably says some things about whatever dian's pulled when left to his own devices

obsidian: not a thinggg LOL he's happy with how he's masterminded everything as long as opal and onyx are well. though happy is perhaps a stretch... not much to smile about in his life. he doesn't have very many regrets but if i think about it maybe for his own peace of mind he would have tried to indulge opal and onyx more? for different reasons. i think he does regret steamrolling over opal so much when they were younger and he'd hope that by indulging onyx more onyx would be more willing to actively engage with them as a family

40. What is your OC afraid of?

wait this is hard... knocking on my brain konk konk.. i don't think either of them actively fear these things per se BUT

for dian........of course. it all comes back to all the strings hes pulled. the worst thing he can imagine is all his machinations falling apart hes afraid of all his sacrifices and all the ways he's hurt the people he loves being for nothing. i think if everything he ever did never amounted to anything in the end it would be devastating to him. MEANINGG when opal dies he feels this keenly and the only thing stopping him from letting it all go to shit is that he still has onyx to try harder for.