Mercii-chan's Thoughts

Okay, so I was looking through my work from last week to see my grades though I admit I didn’t turn one in but one of them I did post to my so called “learning team” and they didn’t post it and then that was a 0 for me which really pisses me off cause I took the time out of my day to actually do the damn paper and got nothing. That right there is why I don’t like doing things as a group when it comes to school projects. This whole class is going to suck big time since its pretty much all about team work. Maybe if these people tried including me then it’d be easier but they don’t they seem annoying to me at this time maybe as time goes on I might like them but now it’s like high school all over again. In high school I was the outside, the loner, that no one ever includes in their plans but yet if they needed something I was the one they turn to. I hated my time in high school and so far my life isn’t getting any better.

Okay, so I haven’t been on in like forever, well actually like a month? Anyways, so I got in the mood to make a website, buuuuuuut I don’t know how. The website I want to make is were the members need to register to look at the site, though the visitors can get a preview like the starting page, and for the group stuff for well the group members will need a certain password that Poet and I will give to the members. I might be making more people admins so that this and the site wont be dead a lot of the time and I know I said this tons of times before but I’m going to TRY to post more, with school and my distractions it’s a bit hard, but I’ll try posting once every or every other day. I’ll even tell poet she needs to post a bit more too since it almost looks like we died or something. Oh and I think I might have came up with a name, though I am still thinking, UCG which stands for Unique Creatures Guild (or group). What do you guys think? I’m still open to any suggestions as well, so just throw the ideas at me but not to hard cause I don’t want to get hurt, hehe. Another thing is I’ll post about the day I hung out with Poet sometime soon it’s just a lot to type so I get bored and play games and do work but it’ll get posted I promise.

P.S. I’ll be switching back and forth from Mercii to Merce not totally sure which I like more right now I’d like help on choosing that too.

Well now that I have someone else posting things on the group page it's not going to be that boring and it won't be every other day that I post. That's good right? I think it is! I'll probably just copy and paste the things that I post here since these two blogs are pretty much the same since I'll just be posting things that's on my mind. I hope everyone likes my friend! I'm still trying to think of a unique name for the group but it's still not going good. Since I've been doing my homework and stressing out about it my brain has been fried sorry. I'll try to get things done without over doing it I guess ha-ha-ha. I was just thinking a few minutes before I started typing this post that I'll probably keep posting things when I'm an old lady, I probably won't have a boyfriend/ husband or for that matter a life by then so I'll need something to keep me busy and entertain people. Well I think that's all for that so I'll end it here. I'll be posting a post about my dream in a bit so stay posted!

Well today I found myself writing in this notebook I had laying around. I usually don't write, because I just don't like it and I'm not good but instead of writing down idea's or something I was writing how I felt right now and it hit me I'm almost full on depressed! All this rain we've been getting isn't helping any either, like I feel like nothing I do will be worth anything but then I thought to myself of course it's worth something if I finish all my homework and pass this class I'm one step closer to my goal! so I'm going to buckle down and finish this stupid powerpoint and quiz! Wish me luck!

Well ever since I decided to cut my strings with everyone that used and stabbed me in the back it's a lot quieter. It's kind of boring but it does mean a lot less stress, plus it feels like I had a giant weight lifted off my shoulders. But I haven't deleted one person that I should have deleted, which is my "best friend". I don't know if I should send her a message telling her why I'm going to delete her or if I should just go ahead and delete her. I'm going to ponder this until Tuesday then I'll make my decision. I'll also have to think of a name for this blog maybe I'll just call it the misfit's club or something like that. Oh and an update a got a follower today! Thanks for following me it makes me happy, it really does!

Okay I really need to come up with a more original name for my blog it was just something that I thought would be good for the time being but now I need to find something WAY better. Any idea's? When it comes to names I just can't think of any, all I can think of are name's from anime. I've always got most of my ideas from anime, it's kind of lame yes, but it's better than nothing. right?

It's a lot harder to make friends then I thought. When I was younger I had friends but once high school came around I lost all my friends and didn't gain any. In high school I only had acquaintances, they only called me a friend when it convenience them. It really got on my nerves, but I still tried to be friends with them, I tried so hard I forgave and gave second, third, fourth and so on chances. Once I graduated I only had one nerve left and I still tried to be friends, but there's only so much backstabbing and using someone can take. So today I'm cutting those last strings with those people, sure that means I won't have anymore people to hang out with and actually look like I have a life but I'm tired of getting the shitty end of the stick. The only time I'll talk to the people again will be when I get my money back that they "borrowed". Yeah, stupid me for lending them money, but I just couldn't help but help them. So, from here on out I'm friendless until I make true friends, I don't really care if it's online or in person to me as long as I can talk to the person and trust them then why not it'd be better than not having anyone to talk to, but I'll stick with myself for now, It should be refreshing not having to stress out because of people, I've been needing to just focus on myself for awhile now maybe that'll help me actually get my homework done and do some of the thing I've been wanting to do for awhile now, like post more on here. You people probably don't really care if I post more or not, but it does help me feel a little better when I can write stuff like this. So does anyone know a good name for this page?

I passed my first class with a B- (80.5) I feel so proud of myself, even though it was one of the easiest classes ever. It was about becoming a master student. the only thing that I had trouble with was the participation and the essay, but that's only because I just didn't want to do them I forced myself to do the essay since it was like 10 points. My next class is psychology it should be a bit harder, but if I read my chapters and try I should pass no problem. That's about it with my classes, but there is more kind of it's not as great. Yesterday a friend and I went to Build-A-Bear and made a Toothless, his name is Kuro he is so cute and smells like strawberries. They have these things at Build-A-Bear now that you can buy for like $3.50 that you can put in your stuffed animal your making that smell like strawberries, vanilla, and more. After that we went to Build-A-Bear we went to Olive Garden and I took Kuro in with me, I think the people there thought I was nuts (I'll put a picture of him up later if you guys want me too). After all of that we headed to my mom's cause we had to mom a hide-a-bed couch and loveseat to her shed because she got a $500 fine for leaving it in her front yard for like a month. So I decided to ask my friend if she'd help me and she said yeah( this friend was in a car wreck about a month ago or a little less). We started moving the hide-a-bed and I ask my mom to get in the middle and help up move it because those things are HEAVY. She started yelling at me saying she can't cause she's in a lawsuit and she broke her kneecap and not supposed to be walking on it let alone move heavy stuff.I told her if she broke her kneecap then she wouldn't be able to walk and we argued about that for 5 minutes and she kept trying to tell me that the kneecap is cartilage and not bone and that got me even more mad. I yelled at her and told her if she yelled at me one more time I'd punch her, when I said that to her she said(yelled) she punch me back, then I said(yelled) bring it. Once I said that she lowered her voice and backed down and started helping. We moved it to the corner of her house(about 10 feet) and we were turning it and she's messing with her phone and I told her to pull the hide-a-bed and she scrunches her face like she's about to cry and starts to complain in a whinny voice, and I said you know that crying act doesn't work on me, and she stopped it immediately after. we finally get the hide-a-bed to the shed then we start on the loveseat and when we moved it a couple feet from her front porch so we could get a better handle on it cockroaches started coming out of it! It was SO GROSS!  then my mom decided to lean it forward a bit and drop it and lean it up again to see how many would fall out and there was over 500 of them, big and small, it was like a small country of cockroaches. We finally got the loveseat to the shed and I told her she has to get her dumbass friends to get them in the shed and if we came back by and they where still outside I'd put them in there myself and it wouldn't be pretty.

Well that's pretty much everything that's happened lately and everything that I've been doing, plus watching anime. I've been watching this anime called Hunter x Hunter, I watched it a couple years ago and it's still awesome. I'm going to try to post more, but no promises. and I'd like if more people would follow and ask stuff or just give me some topics for some posts.

~MerciiI

I was thinking of changing the name of the Arcana Familglia, but I'm not sure to what yet any suggestions?

I so need to go walking again but either I sleep all day or it rains or I convince myself not to go cause it’s too hot. I just need a good motivator then I could do everything I want to do for the day but so far I haven't found anything that helps. So lately I've been sleeping all day and watching anime or just lying in bed thinking of stories which in the end make me kind of depressed ha-ha. Oh speaking of getting depressed my dreams have been so good that when I wake up I wish I wouldn't ever have woken up. Anyone else get like that? Like I don't think my life would ever be as prefect as my dreams if it was I wouldn't mind waking up. Well that's all for now I'm feeling super lazy this month I guess so Latez.

Like my cousin sold my grandma this Iphone 4s and my grandma gave it to me but its for a different company so I'm trying to jailbreak it but the stupid thing isn't working. I'm so close to just selling the damn thing like for real if I can't use it then I don't need it. Anyone know how to jailbreak an Iphone for free or how much I should sale it for? I'm thinking of buying the Iphone 6 when it comes out anyway so either way I don't care.

Today I went to the dentist and got my braces tightened and now my mouth hurts and I just want to hit something and I'm hungry. It sucks when you can't eat cause your teeth are killing you. Well as lame as that was that's it. so until next time.

Sorry I didn't post anything yesterday I was hanging out with my friend then fell asleep. I couldn't sleep the night before, so I was just lying in bed hoping I'd fall asleep sooner or later but it didn't work. Then, at 5am, I got a text from my friend asking if I wanted to go walking, so we ended up walking for 2 hours and just talking for like an hour at the park. Then I took her over to her mom's so she could do laundry and I talked with her family that I haven't talked to in forever and I mean really talked not just like "Hi, how have you been? Got to go." kind of thing. It was a really nice day until I got home then I felt sick, tired, and hungry, so I just went to bed and slept all rest of the day away. I really want to go walking again and next time have a picnic. I'm sorry that none of my posts are anything interesting lately or ever but I do enjoy doing this even if I miss a few day's here and there. So until next time.

Just finished watching Little Busters!, I'm in love with it. It made me laugh and cry, every once in a while it made me face palm too but all and all it was totally awesome. Watching shows like that make me wish I had childhood friends or just friends like that, but my childhood friends went their own way once we got to high school. They only talk to me if they need something like money or a ride to the store or something. I'm still trying to make the friendship work, but after they get what they want they usually stop talking to me again. Sure that makes me a little sad and mad but I can't stay mad at them forever especially to the one that's in the army now, because I don't want the last words we say to each other to be mean and full of hate. If that happened I'd be so extremely sad and full of regret that I wouldn't know what I'd do. My other childhood friend just had a daughter 4 months ago; I just got to see her and her daughter around a month ago maybe a little over. I'm going to try and get her to call me auntie ha-ha, but I don't think her boyfriend would like that since I'm not really related anymore. It's a long story that I talked about before in one of my rants. One of these days I won’t get to see either of my childhood friends anymore if I get to move overseas like I want to. We'll grow so far apart that we'll probably forget. It makes me sad just thinking of it, even though I think of it almost every day. I long for the past, back then everything was simple and everyone was happy just how they were. Well that's all for now I'll post more later.