Chlebek

this is a woman who lives freely as burdensome as she possibly can, she’s callous, she’s loud, she’s bold, uncensored and selfish and true to herself. historia can’t be ymir, because historia’s existence itself is a punishment to her family, to the world. she must live a life as selflessly as possible to make up for the sin of being born. but she does yearn, she yearns for her mother’s love even if her mother suffers looking at her, she yearns for friends, she yearns for her grandparents taking to her about something else other than work, she yearns selfishly to be loved. yet she hurts people by existing and she doesn’t have a right to ask for a single thing, so she makes herself easy to like. easy to have around, she is dependable and kind and entirely good. (she likes being needed because it’s the closest she can get to being wanted.)

but why does the good girl krista have insensitive, loud, cruel, bad ymir as a best friend? why does she keep hanging around anti-krista as krista? because the one thing she can do other than dying to free the world is live by the person who demands instead of yearns, who boldly takes instead of simply wanting. that way she gets “good girl” points by correcting ymir (krista deeply values positive perception of her goodness). But more importantly she gets to live vicariously through ymir’s selfishness, the closest she can get to living for herself is being close to ymir. after all, it is through ymir that she found the courage to be unloveable, unpalatable historia again because ymir makes herself just that. she corrects anyone who calls her krista after reclaiming historia because she promised ymir that she would take back her name!

finally, ymir being selfish means she is by historia’s side purely because she wants to be by historia, it has nothing to do with being courteous or fake or good, it is just purely desire. and that sort of person, running on pure selfish desire, is never asking for krista but always asking for historia.

from my fanfic Arda Fravash

Had a couple of people asked me about how I made Sammi's face, so I wanted to show the face rig I made.