Sad Is My Normal

i wish i knew how to stay

the plan? not being here when i need one

i haven’t had IRL friends since 5 years, i’m so lonely i just need somebody who’s close

when you just want to cry wholeheartedly but nothing is really wrong so you just can’t

all i’ve been doing these last years is waiting for the world to kill me so i don’t have to do it my myself

The days pass by like a train driving 290kmh

drunk on christmas eve... that’s a new low

I now realise it’s all my fault

I wonder if you’ll even checkup on me or if you don’t notice I’m gone at all

I’m feeling dead.

I wish everything would just stop

What if it doesn’t work out? It’s all I’ve been working towards the last few months; I don’t want it to be for nothing

“I don’t know if I’m fine, Mum”