I don't know what I'm doing

Honestly?

I really tried to focus on the good part of it: the amazing writers, the illustrators, the ones who did music etc. but it doesn't matter because seems like the worst side is always so louder. You really couldn't wait just a few more days to see the thing on theaters or some weeks to watch on YouTube? And beyond that, you also had to destroy the experience of millions of people, and most important, disrespect the work of the artists behind this finale, just for the sake of "being funny"?

And it's not just the leak situation, I've been feeling like this for a while with all of the "let's doox this person because their favorite character is Jax"(yes, it has happened) "let's harass Goose because I love Zooble and they don't have the screen time I want so that's justified" and now seeing Goose herself saying she doesn't have her heart on it anymore kinda was my last straw. I'm tired.

I'm not leaving TADC, it's extremely important to me. This show made me feel happy on a really dark time when I was really thinking about doing things against myself, but I can't with this fandom anymore, I just can't.

I'll still be doing my silly sketches about it and all, will continue to follow the ones I got intruduce by it, but do not be surprised if at one point the Beach AU just disappear or Felix, Pam and the other human designs became oc's.

Me and my friends, in history class, were told to make a short skit on Exodusters during US western migration and that's when we started learning about John Brown. And, after that, whenever we heard or saw his name in class, we would repeat it in a very southern accent.

TL:DR I do not want to cancel the show, I don't want it to cancel me.

So I have been forced, basically, to make this statement as I am being asked about this character or 'introduced' to it (and the incoming new show) against my desires. I have deleted all previous posts about my encounters with this problem long ago for personal reasons that will be apparent, but people don't know about my situation and do deserve an explanation. I will keep this post short for my own mental health. This is the first time I have disclosed any of this information to the public, and it is hopefully the last. My silence has been a part of my uncomfortable situation, but it's clear the world won't let me try to just ignore it any longer, so it's full disclosure time.

1, Yes. I know about Mr Puzzles and his uncanny resemblance to RGB, my character from the on going comic The Property of Hate, who pre-exists Mr Puzzles by approximately ten years.

I did not, as a consequence, base RGB off Mr Puzzles...

2, I have received very violent and manipulative hate mail from fans of that character over the past few years due to this similarity, many threatening to slander me via cancel culture to discredit my own creations. The worst of these messages almost caused me to commit suicide which close friends can attest to (this period coincided with the death of my father which they used against me to full effect).

Since then the hatemail has been less frequent, but continues, and I am afraid it will pick up again with the advent of this new show.

3, I have contacted the smg4 management about these issues, to no avail. My first email was a request to tell their followers to cease sending me hatemail, which they did not attempt in any way. They have never responded to the large overlaps in terms of RGB's design, and when I finally sent them an email via a lawyer as a last resort (which cost me £4000) they did not respond. Please note that I did not ask for a cease and desist, I only wanted the hatemail to stop, and perhaps for them to alter Mr Puzzle's design very slightly to be a little less like RGB's. I even made this simple suggestion as an example:

Despite going out of my way (against the lawyer's wishes) to phrase the letter in a none-hostile manner, and offer them an alternative, they did not reply to this email at all.

I am a disabled indie cartoonist; I do not have the money to take further legal action, and in any case I do not want to. I hate conflict, and the emotional toll of sending that email alone was enough to make me miserable and exhausted for months. All I want is to be left alone, and for people to know that RGB was invented first. I cannot afford to do anything to protect myself or make anyone listen legally; this post is the most I can do, and it is the only post I intend to make about it.

that's it. that's the whole situation. please do not message me about the show, or the character, as both are very distressing to me: if you do I will either delete the message, or block you, depending on the angle. I have blocked all related tags, and I will unfollow if I see posts, so I am doing everything I can to take care of myself in a non-aggressive fashion. I have only made this statement so that people understand.

a small example of some of the hatemail (which was preserved only to be sent to the makers as evidence which, again, they did not respond to) below the readmore. read at your own discretion, it is unpleasant.

thank you for taking the time to read this.