Positive Outcomes Only

It's funny- I always thought if I get to this size I will be happier, If I look this way things will work out, if I read these books I will find happiness. I still feel like I'm doing everything wrong. I feel like my workouts could be harder, my hair could be prettier, face clearer, waist smaller, and these books and things I'm trying to train myself to think I can't seem to grasp. I don't know what's going on in my life right now but I don't feel like I'm enough. I feel like I'm always going to be hard to like and impossible to love. I always thought that by reading and thinking certain things they would manifest. I have done the self help stuff, sought out the self love and worked on accepting my flaws, yet the only thing I'm left with is this feeling of emptiness. When will I be enough?