safah

post-book depression really feels like a period of mourning or grief,, like a death has just happened,,, you’ve fallen in love with all these characters and you’ll never be able to make new memories with them again,, they just linger inside of your soul and refuse to leave

If I hear “Brown girls are covered in honey and gold” or “Brown girls are sugar, spice and all things nice” once more I will literally explode. We have 500 dialects spoken in South Asia and THIS shit expression in English is what y’all came up with

Those mid 2000s Bollywood songs that just said rock and roll soniye over and over again are more poetic than this faux rupi kaur mess we’ve created tbh

When lemony snicket said “i will love you as misfortune loves orphans, as fire loves innocence and as justice loves to sit and watch while everything goes wrong. i will love you until all the codes and hearts have been broken and until every anagram and egg has been unscrambled. i will love you as we grow older, which has just happened, and has happened again, and happened several days ago, continuously, and then several years before that, and will continue to happen as the spinning hands of every clock and the flipping pages of every calendar mark the passage of time. i will love you as we find ourselves farther and farther from one another, where once we were so close that we could slip the curved straw, and the long, slender spoon, between our lips and fingers respectively. i will love you if you don’t marry me. i will love you if you marry someone else, and i will love you if you have a child, and i will love you if you have two children, or three children, or even more, although I personally think three is plenty, and i will love you if you never marry at all, and never have children, and spend your years wishing you had married me after all, and I must say that on late, cold nights i prefer this scenario out of all the scenarios i have mentioned. that, beatrice, is how i will love you even as the world goes on its wicked way”

i feel like this is gonna upset some people but i have to say it. i struggled very severely with mental heath issues for most of my life and im not obliged to anyone to give more details than that but do you know what finally helped me into recovery after years of toxic cycles? i had a therapist who, every time i started going on a rant that seemed to be victimising myself or looking for sympathy, she’d stop me and say “what are you looking for from me? what do you want me to say?” she’d call out my own desperate seeking for validation and sympathy and she cut those coping mechanisms right out of me eventually. and i hated her. i really did. i thought why are you trying to stop me from looking for sympathy?im struggling? but what i’ve realised in hindsight is that in that mindset of self victimisation you can never recover because youre holding yourself down and wallowing in your pain because you think you need it to appeal to others.youre missing something and youre substituting it by being able to make people pity you. and im not saying dont share your pain with others because thats a vital part of recovery too but think what your motives are.dont go into a victim mindset at the first sign of trouble because that puts you in a position without power over yourself and your situation! i thought id never be able to recover whilst still being in a toxic household and yet i did because i stopped making myself the victim. yes allow your pain, yes acknowledge your feelings and say that theyre warranted and deserved, but stop seeing your position as a place thats impossible to get out of. posting all these self deprecating memes and deeply personal posts to share to the masses… question your motives. is this harming me? is this normalising my own suffering?is this integrating my illness INTO my personality in a way which makes me think i cant live without it? are my posts harming others? question your oversharing, find the validation youre seeking in yourself not in others.

when hozier said “with my mid youth crisis all said and done, I need to be youthfully felt cuz god I never felt young”