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This garlic is genuinely the most disgusting thing i’ve seen like ever. Idk why? Is it because it’s overlapping?? It’s like trypophobia and looking at holes i get the same exact uncomfortable feeling i can feel my skin crawl.

The minute i looked at this garlic i genuinely felt so disgusted it’s like I had to peel everything off of it. WHILST I WAS PEELING IT I JUST FELT SO HORRIBLE.

Hey guys it’s been basic a month single my last update and since i’ve last spoken to him. He cut off all contact with me and at first i felt literally so broken like I couldn’t be without this man. Like i couldn’t survive.

But then i began living.

12th house synastry made it so i literally could not see how bummy, controlling and evil this man was.

He had a huge victim mentality!!!

He once got annoyed at me for wanting me to take multivitamins. He blamed his laziness on me IM LITERALLY QUOTING HE SAID IT WAS MY FAULT FOR HOW LAZY HE WAS BRO. How he had a non zero percent chance of having a brain tumour (that’s literally everyone).

He legit took the parts of me he liked and made me feel like shit about the parts he didn’t like.

I asked him for clarity and he ended it LMAO.

Not even in a respectable way he just blamed every little thing on me.

I mean i’ve tried to save it but I cannot lie after that one, if he’s still set on the no, I will focus on myself.

I said i would do an u opiate in the first but it’s the 7th. Updates may come later as my mind is like trying to free myself from this prison of confusion and misery.

All jokes aside I do feel a lot better.

My main issue now is just confusion in regard to my own feelings. Like i think i still love him but life has just showed me that there’s so much out there for me.

The relationship was good at times. I just feel like, not trying to sound egotistical, i’m this ball of sunshine and he’s the earth. Which is silly because i’m the house person.

I lit up the relationship and he was there.

I don’t know i feel confused.

THERES DEFINITELY STILL ATTACHMENT THERE.

I just don’t know guys I DONT KNOW.

Hello! As promised i’m making an update. I think the biggest update is my own personal growth. He’s being quite inconsistent and doesn’t know exactly what he wants. Something snapped in me and I just see things differently now.

I have a very different approach i want him but i don’t need him. Upon reflection he has ego issues and also was a large part of why our relationship had to stop.

We had a phone call which I think went well? Overall, I still have moments of sadness but focusing on myself has been lovely.

HOW HAS IS BEEN 4 DAYS SINCE MY LAST UPDATE. I don’t know what to do i wanna focus so bad on myself but how can i do that when I’m clawing for an ex. Why does time feel so terrible when you want an ex back why bro. God i’ll try and update in like a week to two weeks cause damn bruh this shit is not fire. I’ll journal and make poems post them here why not. He keeps talking about how he’s lost empathy and compassion, i’m trying to help BUT THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO i can’t undo the hurt ive cause. In the moment the breakup felt like the most right thing to do but my goofy silly little self now doesn’t know what do. GODDDD I HAVE NEVER FELT MORE LOST.

I HAVE BEEN IN A FLIPPING CAR CRASH????? like genuinely a fuck ass breakup and now a car crash. Guys i don’t know how i will survive this I will genuinely come out the strongest woman ever.

Also someone is spreading lies about how they got with me 3 years ago, when i wasn’t sober?

My life is genuinely terror right now.

GET ME OUT OF MAYYYY.

Also one of his friends might be texting me, wtf is genuinely going on rn.

Next update to commence 21st of May 2026.

Thank you for reading teehee!

Hello, I decided it would be be a good idea to update for anyone that wants to come along on the journey of me trying to my 12th house man back. Erm so we’re gonna be apart for like 2-3 months still occasionally texting and things like that. This will very much be a BLOG about me trying to get this man back.

I love him very dearly and if we do get back together I will give updates about our relationship changing/if it’s becoming healthier.

I feel like I am being manipulated by him like he knows everything single piece of my brain and I don’t know my name. I don’t know who I am without him. I don’t know who I am with him. All I know is that I have to see his stupid face and it’s like all my worries melt away and I feel whole.

I broke up with him and now i feel stupid and we are trying again. I can feel myself actively losing myself but I just can’t let go. We aren’t together properly he says he’s too hurt.

He says i’m the bad guy but I don’t even know anymore. I have in a way found and lost myself at the same time.