the laughing smiler

First story: I had to put my og down,but it was Covid, so they made me wait outside while they took him in to prep him. I was trying not to sob too loudly, when a man asked if I as ok. I apologised and told him what was going on. He then sat on the curb 5 feet away and said, I'm just going to wait right here with you. He said, you don't have to talk or say anything, I'm just going to wait here. And he sat with me while I cried. I'll never forget him.

Second story: When I was 17 I was crying because my dad just died and ent into the woods to sit in shock. My dog broke out of the back Yard and somehow found me and hour later and just sat there with me.

Third story: I saw the nurse watch my heart rate after they told me I'd have to be put under. I asked if there could be a woman in the room the whole time, and after talking to my psych, they ended up making my whole team women instead. I'll never forget that, ever.

Fourth story: I'd never lost anyone in my life. Not a person, not a pet. My birthday is Setember 11th. My childhood cat passed away on September 12th. I knew she was sick, and I begged her for weeks to just make it to my 16th birthday. I know she held on for me. I know it.

Fifth story: My best friend of over 15 years passed away. He made me the beneficiary of his life insurance because he wanted to make sure he could still take care of me, even after he was gone.