thinker

I have always been the one that loves more, but i have never felt the way i am feeling right now, i have never loved the way i love this person right now, and i’m scared that i’ll lose them because i care too much, or i love them too much, or i fix that strand of hair way often than i should. i don’t want to be too much, i want to be just “enough” for them, just what they need. We talk everyday through the phone, we text each other everyday, but i’m scared they’ll lose interest in me because i’m a routine, not something exciting. I’m scared that each time we’ll be on a phone call, their eyes won’t tingle because i’m saying something, their smile won’t appear when i’ll crack a joke. I’m just scared to lose them when i know that i can’t have that, that i can’t live without them, that they’ve become something that i need.