* 𝕙𝕖𝕒𝕧𝕖𝕟 / 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒷𝒶𝒸𝓀

That's not a problem. We both know when commitment shows it's ugly face, I run the other way so I'm certain neither of us will have to worry about that. Oh, I see how it is. You're afraid if you tell me your secret, I'm going to have better hair than you. It's entirely possible. Next time I stay at yours, maybe I'll just snoop through your bathroom products and test our your little theory. Of course you have a thing for Beckham. Even I have a thing for him. What a handsome man and the fact he still looks that good? Unfair to the rest of the word really. "Good boy" is that one of those other things you want to try out on me? I've never used it before but there's a first time for everything. As for the dating rumours, I have to admit, it's rather fun to see everyone speculating. When there's someone as gorgeous as you on the stakes, I'll take all the affirmation I can. It's always amusing to hear their little theories while I'm sneaking off with you to hear you scream out for me. They'll never know what we have because they'll never understand us. The commitment doesn't matter, we don't need that. I get to have your most intimate moments, just before you fall apart and watching that pleasure taking over, knowing people are whispering about us from the next room is pretty hot. I can't deny it. Believe me, when you enter a room, my eyes are always following. Oh wow, you're just not playing fair, are you? Well, if this is the last time we might as well go out with a bang. I'd hate to leave you unsatisfied.

thank god we're both fucked up. it's obviously been the key for us not turning into a cliché rom-com. damn, you're smart. now i wonder if you can come up with the second reason while i'll be busy, hiding all my hair care products from you. think i prefer him now compared to young beckham. you're still more daddy than he is though. which is why the whole good boy thing hasn't really been on my list of things i wanna try out with you. it left my lips with no thoughts behind it really. you are a good man though. in a non-sexual way. well fuck. you're making it really hard for me not wanting to continue fueling those dating rumors and sneaking around with you at events, knowing i'm having you all worked up over my outfit and sheer presence and then getting blessed in a hidden corner. trust me babe, you didn't leave me unsatisfied once. actually, you've always had me craving more. still think it's best if we take a little break though. she's my friend and clearly uncomfortable with the whole thing, i don't wanna hurt her.

i mean, not to brag or anything, but i told the universe that i was missing your face and then here we end up in a freaking castle together. feeling pretty powerful right now. i don't care what you have going on, i need to steal you away so i can hear all about what is going on with you, thanks. @mdisons

manifesting a reunion ? god, i'm so in awe of your power. please teach me your ways. sorry i got so caught up in my own mess. how about you come over for a nice glass of wine and all the tea to make it up to you after we've caught up on some much needed sleep ?

yeah, don't think he loved that but it fuelled a lot of the album, or anything before that really. all the early songs for sure. I always regretted the way it ended but I always thought I did what was best for us. you know the story of being linked to a famous person, it becomes the story. I had my dad to handle, the nepo baby label stuck, I wasn't willing to be known as someones girlfriend at the time and let's be real, his career probably benefitted from not being tied to me either. it did,I am sure it did, but it wasn't an easy choice, but it felt like the right one back then. do you? relate I mean, it's a weird feeling, right? heartbreak you brought upon yourself? I guess that's what makes it the best songs, isn't it? Mads that's not...if you like him that's, I broke up with him years ago, I just..hate the idea a bit?

people who don't do what we do will never understand how putting your deepest feelings and thoughts into writing songs is like therapy for us. we feel things more deeply. and when you put a personal note on it, it makes for the greatest love or heartbreak songs. so, it doesn't feel like the right choice now ? i mean, did you ever fully get over him or were you hoping to re-connect when you reached out to him ? i do. kind of left someone without a word too, for entirely different reasons, but still. it's an ever lingering feeling of guilt. don't think even if i'd get the chance to apologize and explain myself, the feeling would disappear. i don't like him that way. like i've said, he's a good guy and i enjoyed hanging out with him, but that's it. hoes before bro's, right ?

Sick idea. Are we the hottest duo, or is it you and someone else? 'Cause, I'd still be accepting of that if you still make this happen. I'm sure if all else fails, we'd throw an even better party.

duh, we're the hottest duo of course. who's someone else ? don't know them. you said party and i'm in. lets get together soon to plan something huge everyone will still talk about weeks later.

Then say less, I'll be handing you a drink and yelling "bottoms up!" - I also can't promise that your sleep won't be interrupted by those haunting this place. Ghost sort of have a mind of their own, yanno. They scare who they want and when. I really would, I just ask that you take me with you.

think you just became my new favorite person. got more interrupted by actual human beings than ghosts, but at least i didn't pee my pants because i got scared shitless, so that's a win. how'd you like the trip ? there's always space in my rocket for you. besides, would be even more fun to start a new life up there together anyway.

really? well i'm glad i could make you feel good. honestly i love boyshit, something about that song that really gets me going. it's great and i for sure added it to my everyday playlist because i can't get enough. oh yeah that'll really make the trip fun, i love that. i think i looking forwards to the stories as well and of course trying new foods.

ah yes, a people's favorite. it's a mood honestly, because men are trash. well, not all men, but you get what i mean. feels right calling them out on their bullshit every now and then by blasting that song. did you try the black pudding ? because i chickened out and now i'm not sure if i'm gonna regret this one day or if it wasn't worth the hype.

Well that sounds like the start of a romcom where two people make a stupid bet. For both of our sakes, I'm going to spare us the embarrassment and say that we'll just swear off each other if we even get a hint of romantic attachment towards each other. That's true. Your hair and boobs have always been a huge advantage of yours. What shampoo do you use? I need to invest in something better. Childhood hero? That's a bold statement but how could I not love the man? Did you see him score from the halfway line? The man has talent and looks. Not that I didn't enjoy seeing you as Posh Spice. That little black dress did things to me. Please do send photos next time. Even if for nothing more than for me to drool over you. I promise from now on, I'll never dress up as your husband — fake or otherwise. Next time we should go and Barbie and Ken. I heard they never got married. Pretty scandalous for a couple in the 60's. You're a strong women, I must admit. Your resilience is breathtaking. Ruined my night? I had good booze and a hot girl to stare at. Nothing was going to bring my mood down. Who said I set the record straight? I just carefully rolled my eyes and sipped on my beer. Whatever they think is up to them. I'm not going to point out their blatant idiocy to their face. I was raised with better manners than that. Oh, you have a thing for being watched? I'll store that information away for a later date and I'll meet you there in five. Pity we aren't dressed up right now. Like I said that black dress... wow.

you said romcom and i say ew. let's not just swear off each other when romantic attachment creeps its way in, lets also swear off it possibly happening in such a cliché way like all romcoms do, because no thanks. your hair is nice the way it is. which gives me two reasons not to spell what shampoo i use. did i see what ? sorry, think i got distracted by other stuff when watching it. like his headband or those muscular calves or vic in the crowd. good boy. you're so easy to work with. barbie had better things to do and i can't blame her. i suddenly get the feeling you're into stirring up dating rumors with me, though. do you get a kick out of having everyone spinning their wild theories and made up gossip about us while you're sneaking around in hidden locations with me, knowing i'm not yours and you're not mine and we don't care, getting up to more fun than any of those real couples ever could ? because i do. hoping i'll have your eyes on me all night. who says i came unprepared ? we're about to head off to a banquet after this. so rest assured i'm not just wearing a sexy dress, i'm also wearing nothing underneath it. you're getting extra lucky tonight, considering our time is limited and this might be the last time.

Look, him and I were never public, this was kinda before we both...made it, I guess. I kinda broke up with him when he booked a big show, and when I say broke up I mean left without really any reason. I was terrified of the attention it'd bring and knew it wasn't what I wanted to be known for at the end of the day, I was already my dads daughter and at the time I don't think I wanted to add Jacob Elordis girlfriend to the list, not publicly at least. I knew he was going to make it big and wasn't read for any of that and I thought leaving would be the easiest for the both of us. Look, I messaged him right before I saw you in London, guess I wouldn't have if I'd known you guys were..seeing each other or something.

well shit. i was gonna say this sounds like a mixed up story out of your songs and it probably is. so, i'm guessing you've had regrets eventually ? and that's why you reached out ? you were so young back then, so i get how the thought of going public with someone who was about to have all the cameras thrown into his face, and yours, would be overwhelming when you were still trying to find yourself and weren't ready to be someone's girl publicly. still, you can't blame me for feeling a little sorry for him. it must've hurt a lot when you left without saying a word. done that before too and still suffering the consequences. told you i could relate. that tagline works so very well for us. me and jake - he's not on my hitlist of guys who ain't shit, but he's also not my prince charming. we're not seeing each other. he's a good guy and i won't deny we've had fun times, but you're my friend. that's so much more important to me than a guy i can fool around with.

no, look, it's a really long story and it's not even a story anymore, it's the past and I trudged it up again recently. but also, he's not shit, I kinda fucked it originally, so...complicated, okay?

yeah, definitely sounds a whole lot of complicated. nothing wrong with trudging it up again if you felt like there was maybe unfinished business or something. who are we talking about again ?

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