being under his gaze, winnie felt stripped bare. not like the way that she sometimes did around douchebag guys at parties- like they were undressing her, i m a g i n i n g her. but like an x-ray used to reveal bones that had been broken. like he could look at her and see all of the ways that he had hurt her. all of the fractures that should have already healed but instead splintered. and it wasnât fair. it wasnât fair because after all of that time, shouldnât it be her who could see him so clearly? she was the one who had actually cared. lithe arms wrapped across her waist as if to shield herself from his gaze, to hold herself together so that he wouldnât see. but her smile didnât falter.
his voice was music. it had always been music, but the sound was discordant and wrong. a piano out of tune. and the use of her name, her proper name, said as c o l d l y as she had always heard it growing up, nearly made her flinch. âdid i mention worrying about you, maxime? i just wanted to see if there was some rager last night that i hadnât heard about, since it looks like you got about ten minutes of sleep.â and she wasnât harsh, no, because harsh would reveal too much. instead, she spoke in the same tone that you might talk to your aunt or the grocery store clerk. friendly, in a detached way. and all of the things that she might have wanted to say stayed buried in her chest. âiâm curious,â she said with mock-earnestness, âwhat if somebody were to respond to that, âwell, i do mind, as a matter of fact.â i mean, are you stuck in conversation with them, then? trapped by social conventions until they release you?â she laughed the same easy laugh that she might have if she were talking to one of her friends. good.
  of fucking course, she wouldn't let it pass him. maxime should have known better than simply brushing her off. guinevere wilde wasn't one to just let things s l i d e --- being a real SPITFIRE, at that. max knew this and it almost made a smile twitch on his features ... almost. there was a brief pause clinging between them. it wasn't like max didn't know how to continue, it was simply the fact that he couldn't gain enough breath to do it --- only wanting out of this situation as quick as human possible. where there once was warmth lingering was now nothing but avoidance. he huffed a shortlived breath through his nostrils, blinking a couple of times. his eyes fleetingly shifted to the side almost as if checking for any way out. he would flee if needed, he wasn't above that. yet he chose to adjust his stance with his arms folded in front of him.
  maxime couldn't help but narrow his eyes at her tone --- something within him triggering at that. "I don't recall having to explain myself to you." it was false pride, he knew it the moment it left his lips. it was always just that. false pride and cynical bitterness. "but if you must know .. no, there was nothing going on last night. nothing more than the old usual, that is." absentmindedly he nodded towards the library only around the corner .. she would know what to make of it. "satisfied now?" he let his gaze roam over the woman for any sign of change in her expression. "what about you?" it was like he caved without him really w a n t i n g to. "you alright?" here was to hoping winnie would pick up on him caring without him having to actually say it outloud.