𝐬𝐚𝐦 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐚 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐚𝐲, 𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐭. but truthfully, he hadn ' t known if he was or wasn ' t— this is a big fucking deal, man! one moment he ' s doing fuckin' lines off of nikki sixx ' s toilet lid, riding the high of a highly successful and sold out tour, and the next fatherhood is looming over him like an unplanned shadow. it truly snuck up on him, though he really has no excuse; in his mind, it ' s always been the girl ' s responsibility, to, y ' know. look after themselves and take the necessary precautions to make sure that there aren ' t any side effects left over from an encounter. it ' s a twisted, old - school way of thinking that is thankfully far less prevelant in the future, but this is the eighties and sam is a man. a rockstar, used to dealing with groupies at a time before ' babytrapping ' became a viable technique to bag. no vivacious rock - loving vixen was eager to pump the brakes on their prime by becoming pregnant, so fuck yeah, he went in raw! because god forbid you force a man to slink on a rubber, obviously!
it ' s a good thing fallon left a description on his answering machine of when and where their encounter took place, and some brief details of what she looked like, because he fucks so many new faces that he honestly wouldn ' t remember. there ' s a chance that he made her feel as though she were someone special, and there ' s just as equally a chance that they were both fucked up and very few words were exchanged once they hit the sheets... or the floor... or the couch. wherever they got busy. the poor girl was obviously quaking in her boots in the recording, but she covered her bases quite nicely and when sam actually came off his initial bender and was able to press play on his landline, he was quickly brought up to speed so that the horror and impending sense of doom could respectively set in and he could crash out appropiately.
FUCK ! ! ! ! he can ' t knock someone up— not NOW! disavowed is on the rapid upswing, he ' s never in one place for long, and he cannot fathom how the shit he ' s supposed to be a present father in a child ' s life in his current state.
before going anywhere, sam spent three days on yet another egregious bender. snorting coke, smoking weed, drinking heavily, fucking anything with a pulse. y ' know, bachelor party shit! anything goes. because as far as he ' s concerned, his life as he knows it to some degree is pretty much over. nothing will ever be the same now that he has spawn somewhere in this great big world, regardless of how he elects to go about things.
but negligence was never a choice. not really. he wasn ' t raised that way, not in his melanated household. he was fortunate to have a present father who preached honor into him, and told him to always do what is right and take responsibility for his actions. this seemingly soft - spoken stranger from a one night stand and the baby she ' s carrying because of his carelessness is one such action. see, he ' s not entirely delusional!
an address was left, and on day four, fresh off his bender, sam bathes, throws on a t - shirt and some jeans, some dirty vans ( i know right? no cowboy boots? ) , gets a one way ticket to NYC with just his les paul and a backpack in hand, and tries to make himself look somewhat presentable before knocking on the door. it truly is all hair with a cigarette poking out when fallon answers; sam tends to hide in his curls when he ' s feeling awkward, shy, or stressed out, so naturally... yeah. he got high in the airport bathroom before coming here, like the bold motherfucker he is. hopefully, it helps take the edge off somewhat.
❝ uh . . . wassup. ❞ an aptly timed voice crack exposes his true state of mind. he quickly clears his throat before shaking his head a bit, one eye peeking through the mass of curls to look at fallon.