Chand kisi ka ho nahi sakta faraz......Chand kisi ka hota hai bhala? Chand ke khatir zidd nahi karte ayy mere ache insha chand.
A/N: Okay so this is not a series! I know the plot might feel like it could stretch into one, but this is a oneshot. A long oneshot, maybe two to three chapters, but a oneshot nonetheless. Now, I think we all share this thought that Rehman fell first and harder and I have been wanting to write it for a while. So this piece is entirely dedicated to his yearning phase. I hope you feel it the way I intended it. Happy reading!
Rehman could not sleep. He had not been able to, not properly, not since the day his eyes had found hers across a room full of people and the rest of the world had simply ceased to matter. It had happened without warning, without permission, the way things that ruin you always do. One moment he was standing there, existing the way he always had, and the next he was undone completely by a pair of eyes he had no business looking at.
That olive green eyes. Like something between the earth and the sea, like a color the world had invented for the sole purpose of destroying him. They held a depth in them that he could not explain, something vast and quiet and unreachable, like an ocean that stretched far beyond what the eye could follow. He had looked into them for barely a second and had understood, with a certainty that settled into his bones, that he could drown there.
God help him, he was more than willing. He wanted to sink into that depth and never find his way back. He wanted to forget every dark and bloodied thing he had ever been and simply disappear into the vastness of her eyes.
He wanted to wake up every morning to that same gaze looking back at him, quiet and deep and so full of all the mystery he would spend a lifetime trying to understand. Just that. Just her eyes in the morning light, looking at him like he was someone worth looking at.
He pressed his arm harder over his eyes.
What a thing to want. What a foolish, impossible, devastating thing to want.
And wanting meant nothing. Wanting had never meant anything for a man like him, the truth press down on him the way it always did when the night grew too quiet to ignore. She was never going to be his. Never. He would never get her.
She was everything. Ethereal in the way rare things are, beautiful without effort, elegant in a way that had nothing to do with trying. She carried herself like someone who had grown up being worth something, like someone whose father had given her a name that meant something in every room she walked into. She was the kind of woman that men wrote about when they were trying to describe something they could not reach.
And he...? He was nothing. Worse than nothing. He was a bastard carved out of blood and violence, shaped by things decent people looked away from. A monster in a man's skin. A butcher with clean hands that were never really clean. He had built himself out of darkness and told himself it was enough and for a long time he had almost believed it.
Then she had looked at him and he had seen, in the space of a single second, everything he was not and everything he would never be.
She was the moon. That was what she was. He kept returning to it because nothing else fit as well. Distant and luminous, hanging in a sky that everyone could see her in, beautiful in a way that was available to every eye and possessed by none. She gave her light freely and it reached everywhere and meant nothing personal in any direction. She simply existed, high and untouchable, adorned in something that was entirely her own.
And he was only an admirer standing somewhere far below, on ground level, looking up. With no right to look and no ability to stop. He could worship from a distance. That was all the world was going to give him and he knew it, had known it from the moment he understood what was happening to him, had known it even as he stood across that room and felt himself unraveling.
Why would she love a man like him?
The question arrived quietly and sat down inside him like it intended to stay. He did not try to argue with it. There was no argument to be made. When she could have anything. Why would she love him when the world would open itself for her simply because of who she was and whose daughter she was and what she carried in the way she walked into a room. When there were men who could offer her things he could not even approach, men with clean histories and steady names and futures that did not have blood running through them. When the world would arrange itself at her feet simply because of who she was.
Then why would she turn from all of that and choose him?
Can the moon love the eclipse? Can something that gives light choose something that swallows it whole? Can brightness look at darkness and decide that is where it belongs?
She would not. She would never.
And one day, sooner than he was ready for, someone else would have what he was not allowed to even want. Someone worthy. Someone whose name meant something, whose hands were clean, whose past was not something to be ashamed of in the dark. One day there would be mehendi on her hands that spelled out another man's name in its winding careful lines and the world would celebrate and he would stand somewhere on the edges of it all and feel this, exactly this, multiplied into something he did not have words for yet.
He understood all of it. He understood it clearly, completely, the way a man understands something he has turned over in his mind until every edge of it is familiar. He knew the truth of his situation the way he knew the lines of his own hands. She was not for him. She would never be for him. The distance between who she was and what he was could not be crossed, not by wanting, not by anything.
He understood but his heart did not. His heart was still sitting somewhere in that room, across that crowded space, looking at a pair of olive green eyes and refusing to accept a single word of what his mind had spent days carefully explaining to it. It was not ready. It had dug itself in somewhere deep and stubborn and it would not move, would not be reasoned with, would not be told.
In the quiet understanding of his mind, something else rose in him. Something that was not soft or poetic or willing to stand at a respectful distance and admire from afar.
It was something that wanted.
It rose slowly, from somewhere underneath all the resignation and the logic and the careful acceptance he had built around himself, and it was not gentle. It was hungry in a way that frightened him slightly, that he did not entirely recognize, that felt older and rawer than anything he usually allowed himself. For one moment, just one, he let himself feel it without pulling back from it.
Not gently. Not with permission from a world that would never grant it. He wanted to reach across every boundary that stood between them and take her the way a man takes the one thing the world has decided he cannot have. He wanted to pull her away from all of it, from every future that had been arranged without him in it, from every other man whose name the world considered more suitable, from every careful plan that had no space for someone like him.
He wanted to keep her. Only for him. Only ever for him.
He wanted to stand between her and everything else and let nothing through. He wanted to be the one who adored her, who saw her, who looked at her the way she deserved to be looked at, every single day, without exception, without end. He wanted to love her until his last breath left him, until the final drop of blood had finished moving through him, until there was nothing left of him that had not already been given over to her completely.
He wanted to love her the way he believed only he could. The way he felt it already, even now, even from this impossible distance, a love so particular and so total that it felt less like a feeling and more like a fact. Like something that had always been true and had only just been discovered.
She was a temple, sacred and still, full of a quiet that demanded something from the people who entered it. And he wanted to be the only worshiper. The only one who ever crossed that threshold, who ever bowed his head in that particular light, who ever knew what it felt like to be inside the shelter of her presence.
He wanted to be the only one she ever let that close.
He stumbled toward his takht and dropped himself onto it heavily. He did not arrange himself. He simply fell and stayed where he landed, one arm thrown across his eyes, the ceiling somewhere above him that he could not bring himself to look at.
The bottle was already in his hand. He did not remember picking it up. It did not matter. He brought it to his lips and drank the way a man drinks when he is not drinking for pleasure, when the taste is entirely beside the point.
The liquor was bitter and sharp, it burned its way down his throat and he welcomed that, the burn, the physical sensation of something that was at least real, at least something he could actually feel in his body instead of only in the hollow places inside it. His throat moved as he swallowed, his adam's apple rising and falling with each long gulp, his eyes closed, his grip on the bottle tighter than it needed to be.
He had known it would not. He had known it before he started and he was doing it anyway because sometimes a man does the thing that will not help simply because he needs to do something. Simply because sitting still with it is worse.
He lowered the bottle. For a long moment he only lay there, his chest rising and falling, the bitterness of the alcohol still sitting in his throat. The room was quiet around him. The dark was complete. And inside all of that quiet and all of that dark he could still see her eyes if he closed his own, still feel the shape of that particular grief that had taken up residence in his chest and showed no signs of leaving.
His free hand moved to his pocket slowly. Without thinking at first, the way a hand moves toward something it has already memorized, something it has found there before and knows the shape of. His fingers reached in and closed around it and he pulled it out carefully, more carefully than he had handled anything in a long time.
A jhanjhar. Ulfat's jhanjhar.
He held it above him, letting it catch what little light existed in the room, watching it hang from his fingers in the dark. Small and delicate and made of something that had no business being in hands like his. He could feel the weight of it, slight and precise, and the metal was cool against his skin.
She did not know he had it. It had happened without intention. She had been leaving and it had come unclasped somehow, slipping free without her noticing, falling to the floor of the room without a sound. He had seen it lying there after she was gone. He had stood over it for a long moment, knowing what the right thing was, knowing exactly what a man with any sense of his own limitations would do.
He had picked it up anyway. He had told himself it was temporary. He had told himself he would find a way to return it quietly, without explanation, without making it into something it was not. He had told himself many things.
Aashiq apni mohabbat ki ek nishani toh apne paas rakh sakta hai na.
He brought it closer. He held it carefully against his palm and closed his fingers around it and he let it move. His fingers shifted beneath it and the jhanjhar stirred and the sound came, small and delicate and filling the quiet room in a way that made him go completely still.
The ghungroo sang. That was the only word for it. Not rang, not jingled, not made noise the way objects make noise. It sang. Each small bell finding the next, one sound bleeding into another, layering into something that seemed too full and too alive for such a small and weightless thing. It moved through the silence of the room and touched every corner of it and then settled.
The sound came again. So soft and melodious, so achingly familiar that his chest tightened around it immediately, the way a fist closes around something it is afraid to lose. He had heard it before. He had heard it that day, in that room, before he had ever seen her face clearly, the soft rhythmic announcement of her presence, each step she took carrying that small music with it.
Each ghungroo called out to him. That was what it felt like. As if the sound had his name inside it somewhere, woven into its small bright notes, speaking directly to something in him that had no defense against it. He could not explain it. He was not going to try.
He just lay there and listened.
And then the thought came.
He was not ready for it. He never was, and that was the thing about these thoughts, they did not announce themselves, they did not give him time to brace. They simply arrived like something that knew exactly where to land to cause the most damage.
This one hit him straight in the chest.
He closed his eyes and it was already there, already fully formed, vivid in a way that felt cruel given that it was never going to be real. He could see it so clearly that it almost felt like a memory rather than something his desperate, foolish mind had constructed entirely on its own.
Her moving through his house wearing this jhanjhar.
Barefoot. The floors cool beneath her feet, her steps unhurried, the soft rhythmic sound of the jhanjhar filling the quiet the way it filled every room she walked into, announcing her gently before she fully arrived. That sound. That particular sound that he had heard only briefly, only in passing, and that had somehow embedded itself into him so thoroughly that he heard it now in the silence of his own room, in the dark, with no one there.
He could see her moving through the space like she had always belonged in it. Not like a guest. Not like someone who had been permitted entry and was being careful not to overstep. Like someone who owned it. Like someone whose presence the walls had been waiting for without knowing what they were waiting for.
Like a queen who had finally arrived in the place that was always hers.
He pressed the jhanjhar harder against his palm.
He could see her pausing near a window, looking out at something, the morning light falling across her the way light falls across things it favors. He could see her moving through the corridors without hesitation, without asking, because why would she ask when she belonged there completely. He could see her bare feet against the floor, unhurried and certain, carrying her from one room to the next like each room was hers to inhabit, like the house itself had exhaled when she walked in and had not needed to breathe since.
Like it had always been her home and she had simply been away for a while and had now returned to the place that held the shape of her even in her absence.
The image settled into him completely, filling every empty space inside him with something that was equal parts unbearable and beautiful, and he lay there and let it. He let himself see it. Her moving through rooms he had never once thought of as anything worth moving through. The jhanjhar singing softly with each step, that small bright sound echoing through corridors that had only ever known silence. Her bare feet on the floor he walked on. Her presence in the walls that surrounded him.
He closed his hand around the jhanjhar slowly, the metal pressing into his palm, the sound dying as his fingers tightened around it. His eyes burned. He did not blink.
It was not going to happen.
He knew that. He knew it the same way he knew everything else, completely and without mercy, with the particular clarity that comes from being the kind of man the world does not make exceptions for.
God! he wanted it. He wanted it so fully and so helplessly that there was no part of him left that was not aching with the shape of it.
He pressed the jhanjhar harder into his palm, his grip tightening slowly and incrementally, the way pressure builds when a person has nowhere left to put what they are feeling. He pressed until he could feel every small detail of it against his skin, every fine curve and delicate link of it, until the metal had stopped being cool and had taken on the warmth of his hand, until it felt less like something he was holding and more like something that had always been there.
He pressed until it was the only real thing in the room. Everything else had gone soft and distant, the walls, the ceiling, the bottle beside him, the dark that surrounded all of it.
He pressed harder. He felt it before he saw it. A sharpness, where the metal had begun to dig into the skin of his palm. He did not pull back. He did not flinch. He only lay there, breathing slowly, and looked down at his hand with the detached quiet of a man observing something happening at a slight distance from himself.
The blood came slowly at first. A thin line of it, tracing the shape the jhanjhar had pressed into his skin, finding the path of least resistance the way blood always does. Then more. Welling up from the broken skin and spreading outward in small unhurried rivulets, moving across the lines of his palm, filling the spaces between, pooling in the hollow near his fingers.
He watched it happen without expression. The red spreading over the metal, following its curves, settling into its details, painting it in his color that had no business being there and yet looked, in some terrible way, like it belonged. Like the two things had found each other. His blood and her jhanjhar, occupying the same small space in the dark.
He did not close his fist or turn his hand or do any of the things a person does when they are trying to stop something. He only looked at it, his face still, his breathing unchanged, his eyes moving slowly over the sight of it with an expression that was not quite pain and not quite peace but something that existed in the space between the two.
He was aware of that distantly, the way you are aware of something that is true but that has not yet fully arrived. It hurt and he did not mind. He found, if he was being honest with himself in the way the dark sometimes permitted, that there was something almost relieving about it. Something that made sense about this particular pain, about its clarity and its location, about the fact that it had a source he could see and a shape he could hold in his hand.
Unlike the other one. That one had no location. That one spread through everything, formless and total, with no edges he could press against, no specific place he could look at and say there, that is where it is coming from. That one simply existed inside him the way weather exists, filling every available space, impossible to separate from the air itself.
At least this one he could feel precisely.
At least this one was real in a way he could point to.
He closed his fingers slowly around the jhanjhar, carefully, the blood warm and wet against his palm, and he held it there against his chest. Above his heart. Where the other pain lived, the one without edges, the one that had her name written all through it in lines he could not see but could not stop feeling.
But she did not know. She would never know.
She would never know that somewhere in this city, in this room, a man was staring at a ceiling he could not see and coming apart at the edges over the mere memory of her eyes.
She would never know that those eyes, olive green and vast and carrying that particular depth that had undone him in the space of a single moment, had cost him his sleep entirely. Not just one night. Not just this night. Every night since that day. Every night he had lain exactly like this, in exactly this kind of dark, with exactly this kind of ache sitting in the center of him, and she had been sleeping somewhere peaceful and completely unaware that she had taken something from him simply by existing in the same room as him for a few unguarded minutes.
She would never know that.
She would wake up tomorrow the same way she had woken up every day before this, unhurried and whole, and move through her day and think her thoughts and live inside her life and not once, not for a single passing moment, would the thought of him enter any of it. Why would it. He was nothing to her. He was barely even a presence at the edges of her world, a figure she had perhaps noticed and perhaps not, someone whose name she may or may not have registered before moving on to things that actually mattered to her.
She did not know his name the way he knew hers.
She did not carry him the way he carried her.
She would never know that a man had drunk himself into the floor over the sight of her. That he had reached for bottle after bottle not out of habit or pleasure but out of a desperate and entirely unsuccessful attempt to drown something that refused to drown. That the bitterness of the liquor was the only sensation he had found that was sharp enough to cut through the other thing, the formless aching thing, even slightly, even briefly. That he had been drinking like a man who had been told this was his last night on earth and had decided to spend it thinking of her anyway.
She would never know that her jhanjhar was here.
That it was pressed against a bleeding palm in the dark. That a man who had no right to it and no right to her had held it like it was sacred, had held it like it was the only thing keeping him tethered to something real, had let it cut into his skin and had not flinched because the pain of it was easier to bear than the pain of everything else.
She would never know how much he loved her.
That was the one that settled deepest. The one that had the most weight to it, that pressed hardest against his ribs when he let himself feel it fully. She would never know the size of it. She would never know that what he felt for her was not something that had built gradually, not something that had grown from familiarity or closeness or shared time, but something that had arrived all at once, fully formed and enormous, like it had always existed somewhere and had only been waiting for her eyes to give it a direction.
She would never know that he had looked at her and understood, without any space between the looking and the understanding, that he would love her until there was nothing left of him to love with. That it was not a choice. That it had never been a choice. That a man does not choose to love the way he chooses other things, weighing the costs against the returns. It simply happens. It simply is.
She would never know that he will spend the rest of his night lying in the dark, bleeding into her jhanjhar, drinking bitter things that do not help, staring at a ceiling that offers nothing back.
She would never know any of it.
Rehman hissed at that. Not at the pain in his hand but at the thing in his chest that had no name and no cure and no intention of leaving.
He had never believed in God. That was simply the truth of him, one of the earliest and most fundamental things he knew about himself. He had grown up in a world that had given him very little reason to believe in anything merciful or watching or willing to intervene. He had seen too much. He had done too much. He had stood in places where God, if there was one, had clearly decided not to be, and he had drawn his conclusions accordingly and moved on.
He had never prayed. Not once. Not in desperation, not in gratitude, not in the performative way people pray when others are watching. He had never bowed his head before anything. Had never knelt. Had never stood at any shrine with anything in his hands except contempt for the idea that something above all of this was listening.
He had never asked for anything from anyone.
The word arrived in him before the prayer did, quiet and unfamiliar, like a door opening in a wall he had been certain contained no doors.
He closed his eyes and lips parted in the dark, barely moving, the sound that came out of them barely above the level of breath, so quiet that the room itself almost did not hear it.
"Ya Allah, ab toh woh mile ya yeh jaan nikle." He pressed the jhanjhar against his chest as he said it. Against his heart.
The words felt strange in his mouth. Foreign and unpracticed, like a language he had never learned and was attempting anyway out of sheer desperation. He had no right to them. He knew that. A man like him had no business addressing anything sacred, had no standing, had nothing to offer in return for being heard. He was not even sure he believed there was anything listening. But his chest was full of something that had run out of places to go.
Arz-o-samaa kahaan teri vusat ko paa sake Mera dil hee hai woh jahaan tu sama sake.
The hall was dressed for the occasion in a way that made it feel like a different world entirely.
Lights had been strung along every arch and doorway, warm and deliberate, casting everything beneath them in a glow that softened edges and made ordinary things look like they had been arranged by someone with an eye for beauty. The decorations had been done with care, with the kind of attention that spoke of money and taste and a host who understood the difference between the two. Flowers climbed the pillars in careful arrangements. Fabric draped the walls in deep rich colors. Every surface had been considered.
The gaadis were lined up outside with equal precision, one after another, each one a quiet announcement of the kind of people who had been invited here tonight.
Inside, the arrangements for the mushayra had been laid out with reverence. Cushions and daris arranged in careful rows, a space at the front for the poets, lamps placed where their light would fall the right way. There was an anticipation in the air, a particular stillness that gathers before something cultural begins, before words start being offered into a room and the room decides what to do with them.
Rehman stood at the edge of all of it.
He did not belong here. That was not insecurity speaking, it was simply accurate, a plain statement of fact the way he preferred his facts. These were not his rooms. These were not his people. This was not a world that had ever made space for someone like him, and he had long since stopped expecting it to. He existed in different rooms, darker ones, where different kinds of transactions took place and a different kind of man was useful.
He told himself it was because of the ally, because there were relationships that required maintenance and invitations that could not be declined without consequence, because showing up to these things was occasionally the cost of keeping certain arrangements intact. He told himself that. He had been telling himself that since he decided to come, since he dressed with more care than the occasion strictly required, since he arrived earlier than he usually arrived anywhere.
He was not entirely convincing himself.
Because underneath all of that, underneath the practical reasoning and the sensible explanations, something else had brought him here. Something that had nothing to do with alliances or obligations or the careful mathematics of keeping powerful people satisfied.
Foolish, unreasonable, entirely undisciplined hope.
The hope that somewhere in this gathering of cushions and lamplight and carefully dressed people who belonged here in ways he did not, there would be a pair of olive green eyes. That she would be here tonight. That the same occasion which had pulled him across a city he had no real reason to cross would have pulled her too, and that he would look up at some point in the evening and find her there, existing in the same space as him, breathing the same lamp warmed air.
He was aware that there was a high chance she would be here tonight.
She was not simply Aabid Jahan's daughter. That was how the world referred to her, as if being someone's daughter was the most significant thing about her, as if it was the beginning and the end of what she was. But Rehman knew better. He had made it his business to know better, had gathered every piece of information about her that the world was willing to offer, had turned each piece over carefully and arrived at a understanding of her that went far beyond what most people bothered to see.
She was Aabid's right hand.
Not a decoration. Not just a name attached to a family. Not a daughter kept comfortable and sheltered and brought out for occasions. There was not a single significant decision that Aabid Jahan made without her counsel. Not one. The man who made rooms fall quiet when he entered them, who had spent decades building something that commanded respect , that man did not move without first sitting with his daughter and hearing what she thought.
He listened. He weighed what she said. He changed course when she told him to. He had told people, on more than one occasion, that he trusted her judgment more than he trusted his own, and the people who knew Aabid Jahan understood exactly how much that meant coming from him.
Because she was right. That was the thing. Her instincts were not decorative. They were precise and they were consistent and they did not fail. She could read a situation the way certain people read the weather, feeling shifts before they arrived, understanding the direction of things before the direction had made itself obvious to anyone else. She had a mind that moved differently from most, that saw angles others missed, that arrived at conclusions through paths no one else had thought to take.
She was a political genius.
Beauty with a brain that could be genuinely dangerous if pointed in the wrong direction. And Aabid, to his considerable credit, had understood what he had in her and had refused to waste it.
In a world where women were not expected to complete their education, where they were handed from one set of walls to another and told that was the whole of what life had to offer them, Ulfat Jahan could walk into a room full of men, men with years and experience and the particular arrogance that comes from never having been told no, and she could hold that room. Not by accident or the borrowed authority of her father's name, though that was there too. But by her own presence, her own mind, her own absolute refusal to occupy any space as anything less than exactly what she was.
The room was alive with the kind of energy that gathers when important people are put in the same space and all of them are aware of their own importance. Conversations layered over each other, laughter arrived and departed, the soft clink of glasses punctuated the air at irregular intervals. Everywhere he looked there was movement, the particular restless movement of people who had come to be seen as much as to see.
Rehman stood at the far corner near the drink section and watched all of it from a distance.
He was calm in the way he was always calm in rooms like this, a stillness that had nothing to do with comfort and everything to do with years of practice, years of learning how to stand somewhere and give nothing away while taking everything in. His glass was in his hand and he brought it to his lips occasionally, unhurried, his eyes moving across the room in slow deliberate sweeps that looked casual and were anything but.
He knew this room. The architecture of it, the way it functioned, the currents running beneath all the pleasantries and the poetry and the carefully arranged lamplight. He could read it the way he read every room he walked into, out of habit, out of necessity, out of the simple fact that a man in his position could not afford to stop reading.
They came to him at intervals. Politicians mostly. Men in clean white kurtas with careful smiles and eyes that were doing calculations behind them. They approached with the practiced ease of people who had spent their lives approaching powerful men, who had learned exactly how much warmth to project and exactly how long to linger and exactly when to withdraw. They greeted him, said the right things, laughed at the appropriate moments, touched his arm briefly in that way people do when they want to suggest intimacy they do not actually feel.
He received all of it with equal stillness.
He was not unaware of what it was. He had never been under any illusions about the nature of the attention paid to him in rooms like this. It was not affection. It was not even genuine respect, not most of it, not the kind that comes from actually thinking well of a person. It was something more practical than that, something that had more to do with self interest than with him specifically.
They were afraid of him. That was the beginning and the end of it. Fear was a currency he had accumulated over many years. People wanted to be in his good books not because they valued his company but because they had made a quiet calculation about the cost of being in his bad ones.
He did not mind. Genuine warmth was not something he had ever expected from these circles and he had arranged his expectations accordingly. He accepted what came, offered back the minimum required to keep things functional, and kept his glass in his hand and his eyes on the room.
The room changed, he felt it before he saw it. That particular shift that moves through a gathered crowd when something significant has arrived, a subtle recalibration, like a current changing direction beneath still water. The conversations did not stop but they slowed, losing their momentum, voices dropping by a fraction without their owners quite realizing it. Heads turned toward the entrance with the instinctive unanimity of people who have sensed something worth looking at.
The host moved immediately, crossing the room with a purpose that announced itself clearly, the particular speed of a man who understands where the most important person in the room is standing at any given moment. Greetings were exchanged, hands clasped, the performance of welcome done with the kind of warmth that is also, underneath, a kind of submission.
Rehman watched all of it from his corner.
And then his breath stopped.
She was standing just beside her father.
"Mashallah" a whisper left him.
The saree was the color of something quiet and ancient, ivory , not stark but warm, carrying depth. Scattered across its body were small gold zari bootis, delicate floral motifs woven directly into the fabric, spaced with a restraint that understood exactly what it was doing. They caught the lamplight as she moved, briefly and without effort, like something that did not need to announce itself to be noticed.
The pallu fell across her with the ease . The border carried heavier gold zari work, the patterns dense and ornate against the delicate ivory, creating a contrast that pulled the eye without demanding it. The pleats were perfect.
The deep burgundy velvet blouse was something else entirely. The velvet surface was covered in embroidery, scrolling paisley and floral motifs worked in tonal dark thread and black zari that disappeared into the burgundy beneath it and yet somehow remained entirely visible. A tone on tone effect that rewarded looking closely. That required it.
On her left shoulder, draped with the casualness of something priceless worn by someone accustomed to priceless things, was a Kashmiri shawl.
She looked like a empress, like something that did not entirely belong to this world, like a goddess who had decided, for reasons of her own, to spend an evening among ordinary people.
Ethereal was not enough. Beautiful was not enough. Neither word had the necessary weight. She moved through the room that had slowed itself down for her arrival and she carried herself with a calm authority that had nothing performative about it, nothing that needed the room's acknowledgment to exist. It existed entirely on its own. It lived in the way she held her shoulders, in the unhurried quality of her steps, in the expression on her face which was composed and present and quietly, devastatingly certain.
Rehman's hand tightened around his glass.
He had told himself he was prepared for this. He had told himself that he had thought about the possibility of seeing her tonight and had made his peace with it and would handle it with the same steadiness he handled everything else.
He had not been prepared for this.
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