Val

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I am now mature enough to talk about my true side of this. I forgive Freddy, I fully forgive Freddy.

Ever since it all happened, it's been eating at me, the sadness of losing someone i cared about, but also the guilt of the truth not being out there.

I will probably add more onto this in the future, and I am very happy to discuss this, if Freddy wants to as well. Let's finally close this drama.

1. "Did Freddy force to into submission / referring to Freddy as a god?"

No. Freddy expressed the enjoyment and the wish to be highly viewed, but I was never forced into that. Yes, I was sometimes very uncomfortable, but I never made that clear to Freddy. I was too scared to confront anyone, so I gave consent and continued to. Freddy cannot read my mind, so it was never Freddy's fault for making me uncomfortable. I never explained to Freddy that I was scared of confetontation and didn't want to consent, so on Freddy's side it did look like clear consent.

Due to my lack of spine during all of this, having someone be above me felt nice and safe.

2. "Was freddy sexual towards you without clear consent?"

Sometimes, but so was i!!!!!! I will not hide the fact that I've gone through intense sexual abuse in my life, and that has lead me to sexualising myself and everything around me way too much- so me and Freddy sexualising each other was consented to by me in the beginning, and we never really rediscussed that boundary, since we both mutually did it.

3. "Does freddy sexualise fat people and or is freddy racist"

Fat people are sexy as hell idk what to tell you

Secondly, I am very, VERY white, so I can't really tell you anything about the racist allegations

4. "Did Freddy make up a disorder?"

No?? I don't even remember how this came up. I have insanely low self esteem and have always had that, I used to joke that I was the opposite of a narcissist. Eventually I thought there might be a disorder called smt like that. I found " echoist " and it sounded like me- it isn't real, I had no idea, Freddy had no idea, neither of us made it up I found it on some random Google search and neither of us ever looked past that

5. " Why this sudden change of heart?"

I was not in a good place mentally when this all happened. I was in a deeply depressive state due to all the drama in all the different servers during this. The second I expressed annoyance towards Freddy to K9, I got pressed to explain more, and the stress made me imagine mine and Freddy's relationship as worse than it should be.

I've grown, Freddy has grown, hopefully everyone involved has grown. I will not pretend like I'm some innocent sheep who was manipulated into anything, I was scared, people made me more scared, I was too scared to do anything on my own. People's option of Freddy kept getting worse and worse, with people borderline harassing me just to get more "dirt" on Freddy.

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Basically, yes, Freddy somewhat fucked up, I somewhat fucked up, we have forgiven each other, and now I ask that we all put this behind us and grow as people.

Stop referring to me as " Freddy's victim" , stop referring to Freddy as " Iggy's abuser " , the whole thing was a giant mess and the two of us have already forgiven each other now

I hope that Freddy's community can accept me as one of them again, truly, I have missed Freddy. It's good to be back.

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