Life is here.

Sure it was nice not to be working behind a bar while watching everyone else enjoying themselves but working the bar was his distraction from the world around him and the mistakes he made...now he didn’t have to do it 

He always imagined when he got full patch he would have you standing beside him...yet you weren't

Standing outside he watched as coco and some other guy fought in the ring 

Well that's one distraction

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“then he wacked him with a crowbar and we ran" Angel laughed

You sat there absolutely dumbfounded, you knew he was joking but his story started to make you second guess how many people he’s actually injured over the years and how many of his storys were actually real and not exaggerated

"Your just evil" you shrugged

"Got that right" bishop said as he walked past you both, entering the clubhouse causing you to laugh and Angel to frown

The two of you were sat on the steps once again, it became almost a ritual for the two of you to sit on the porch steps when the club parties were winding down. You had no idea why or how it came about, yet the two of you would always end up on the steps at the end of the night

Everything had practically gone back to normal over the last few weeks. You and Ez were sort of friends again, but then again you two only really spoke when you were hanging out in the group.

He was actually the one who invited you tonight but you two hadn't spoken , you saw him across the room a few times but he was either busy talking to other people or off on his own doing something

Looking around the yard you could still see a fair amount of people outside, gathered within their own groups, either sitting on benches or standing.

Scanning the crowd you spotted coco standing by the gate with Gilly

"Angel?"

"What"

"I got a question and you have to answer me seriously"

From your peripheral vision you could see Angel turn his head towards you, a concerned look upon his face

"Alright?"

Turning, you looked him dead in the eyes, straight faced and asked "Have you ever seen coco with a straight nose"

The question must've caught him off guard because he eyes immediately went wide and he started laughing hysterically

"What? I’m serious, I wanna know if he ever had a straight nose" well that definitely didn't help, it only caused him to laugh harder

By now people from around the yard had started to take notice of his laughter, throwing confused gazes to the both of you, but then again Angel’s laughter had always been contagious and eventually you started laughing too

It took a few minutes but he seemed to calm down...that was until he looked across the yard in coco's direction....that set him off again

Eventually he just stood up, shaking his head and went back into the clubhouse. Apparently your question was too much for him to handle. You sat there for a little while, not really paying attention to anyone or anything in particular, more just looking at the sky

Where the clubhouse was situated, there wasn't much of light pollution, meaning at night the stars where more visible.

Sometimes you would just look at them, make out shapes within them or just count how many there was. Counting them was your way of keeping your head on the ground after a long night of drinking, sometimes it working- other times it didn't

You could still remember the amount of times that you and Ez sat outside of his trailer in the early hours of the morning, making out shapes within the sky. Those where the times when life was easy, those were the times you missed.

"What ya doin?" Turning around you saw Ez had emerged from the clubhouse. He looked worn out, nothing new there, however what was new is the darkening of his left eye socket and a small cut on his right cheek

"Nothing" you responded, looking back at the sky. You heard the wood creek beneath his weight as he sat beside you, not too close but close enough for you to be able to smell the reek of alcohol and fire smoke emitting from him

"You stink"

"I know" he laughed, he moved closer towards you and pulled the collar of his shirt "wanna smell"

"No" you pushed him away, causing you both to laugh

One the laughter dyed now you two sat in a comfortable silence. Over the last few weeks the two of you were able to sit together without it being awkward anymore. Sure sometimes awkward topics came up but one of you would dismiss the topic pretty quickly

"Hey Ez?" You looked at him, with him being closer you could see the purple and black shadow that was slowly forming around his eye more clearly, it looked more like he had been punched, what you thought was a cut now looked more like a graze

guess he must've been fighting or something

He only hummed in response,

"Have you ever seen coco with a straight nose?"

He took a moment to think before answering "nope, not personally" he shook his head "why?"

"See I asked Angel earlier but he just laughed at me and walked away" you explained, shrugging your shoulders

"So that's what he was laughing about" he chuckled "he walked in and was laughing for a good 5 minutes, never explained why to anyone"

"That really doesn't surprise me, that man’s got the mind of a 6 year old sometimes"

"Honestly, sometimes I wonder if he lost all the brain cells and they transferred to me" he laughed again

"Probably" you nodded

Once again, silence covered you both. After a while a few of the guys who were hanging around the yard came up and shook Ez’s hand and said goodbye to the both of you before setting off for the night

You took note of the amount of people who had dispersed over the last few minutes, it went from being about 20 people in the yard to only about five people still sitting down along with coco and Gilly still by the gate. You still remembered Angel telling you that people rarely disperse till the late hours of the night

"Hey what time is it?"

Ez took his phone out of kutte "fuckin hell its half 1"

"Really?" How was it 1am already? You could have sworn it was only around 11 half hour ago

"Guess it time to go home then" you exhaled standing up "I’m gonna go say bye go the guys" ex nodded in response

You slowly made you way around the clubhouse saying your goodbyes to everyone until you got to Angel who was sitting at the bar

"Think any more about my question?"

He chuckled a little "yh, no I’ve never seen him with a straight nose and its funny as hell to think of for some reason" Standing up he pulled you into a hug "I love you dickhead”

"Shut up" you laughed

"Come on I’ll walk you out"

Once you got outside you saw Ez wasn’t on the porch anymore, you were slightly disappointed that you wouldn't be able to say bye to him

You and Angel walked over to the gate by coco, at some point while you were inside Gilly had gone off somewhere.

"Finally come company!"  Coco smiled "been here all night with bald head, fuckin killin me man"

"Mano your more boring than him" Angel replied back

Sometimes you had to remind yourself that they are being sarcastic and not serious, then again sometimes it was hard to tell the difference

The three of you stood talking for a while, keeping Coco company while he waited for either Gilly to come back or for someone else to take Gillys place.

By the time you finally got home it was already 2am. You couldn’t even be bothered to go to bed so you just took off your shoes, emptied you pockets and sat on the sofa watching whatever was on TV.

~

At some point you must've fell asleep because the next thing you remember was waking up to a banging on the front door. Looking around you grabbed your phone, checking the time you saw it was 4am

Who the hell is at the door my door on a Sunday morning?

The banging was persistent, the knocks seemed almost urgent...but then suddenly, they stopped. You sat for a few seconds waiting for them to start up again but they didn't

Getting up you went to the front door and looked through the peephole, only you couldn't see anyone. All you could see was darkness, no street lights or anything.

something was covering the glass

The fuck?

Moving to the kitchen you looked out the window, you couldn’t see much in the dark but you could make out a figure leaning against the door with their head bowed down, looking at the ground.

As you eyes adjusted a little more you could make out a white shirt and jeans, then a kutte. A few moments later you realized who it was, immediately you went to the door and opened it.

Without warning he fell face first on the floor and let out a groan

"Ez what are you doing"

"Laying on the ground apparently" he groaned again and turned over, looking up at you with bloodshot eyes

"You gonna get up or?" You asked, he shook his head in response and closed his eyes "okay? You gonna explain why your-" you started to speak again but he put his finger to his lips and shushed you

Erm rude much?

Rolling your eyes you sat down on the floor in front of him. His eyes were still closed, half of his body was still outside the door but he didn't seem to he bothered by it

"Ez"

He shushed you again

Half of you wanted to reach out to and scratch his head like you used to when he was drunk while you were dating, but the other half of you wanted to stand up and push him out of the door simply for shushing you

You sat there for a moment just watching him, waiting for him to explain why he was at your house at four in the morning

After a few minutes you stood up again "can you at least move forward a little so i can shut the door? Its cold"

He slowly nodded his head and turned onto his front and proceeded to army crawl to the couch. You couldn’t help but laugh at his antics, seeing a grown man who was clearly drunk try and army crawl was hilarious

Shutting the front door you locked it and went to grab Ez a glass of water. When you went in the living room you saw he had sprawled himself out along the couch, his one arm covered his eyes while the other was behind his head. Setting the glass down you looked at him again

The last time you saw him like this was when he got his prospect patch, you could still remember Angel and Coco having to hold him up and drag him into one of the back rooms of the club because he couldn’t walk straight on his own

"You okay?" You asked. You didn't get a verbal response, only a nod of the head "Ez look at me"

He moved his arm from his eyes and squinted at you

"Its really bright in here" his voice was low, you almost didn't hear him

You turned the lights off and put on a lamp

"Better?"

He hummed in response

"You going to tell me what your doing here or what?"

He was silent for a few moments before he sat up and looked at you. His eyes looked tired. They were probably bloodshot from the lack of sleep and the alcohol

"You know, i had this whole speech i rehearsed on the way here, was gonna tell you everything but now it just seems stupid" he explained. His voice sounded raspy, almost like he had been crying

That's it. He'd been crying. That explains the bloodshot eyes even further, why his face looked slightly puffy

"Well you're here now so why not just tell me anyway"

He shook his head "its stupid"

"More stupid then banging on my door at 4 in the morning then falling when i opened it?"

He smirked slightly "Probably not"

You were going to say something else when he started to speak again

"Remember that photo? The one we took in the yard like two weeks after i got my prospect patch? Did you know that's still taped to my dash? Probably not. Most of the time i don't even drink for fun anymore, i do it to forget you the way you used to smile at me, the way you used to believe in me, the way you used to look after me, the way you treated me. I fucked up i know that i just didn't know what to do-" he stopped for a moment and took a deep breath. You couldn’t look him in the eyes any longer, he was looking at you like you were his world again. The emotion in his eyes were prominent " i pushed you away and im sorry for that. I'm sorry i hurt you, I'm sorry i just left you with no explanation. The shit with the club was messing me up, i thought you were gonna leave me i thought-"

"Ez stop" looking up again you saw there were tears in his eyes, you couldn’t help but shake your head and sat down next to him

"I was never going to leave you, i knew what i was getting myself into before we even got together" you explained

"No you-you don't understand- i had this shit in my head and it just wouldn't leave and i couldn't do anything without thinkin you were gonna find out and leave. I know i put you through so much shit and I'm sorry, I'm so fucking sorry" by now he was crying

Fuck it

You reached out and hugged him. The two of you sat like that for a few minutes till he calmed down

"Y/n" his voice was muffed from your shirt. You only hummed in response

" i love you"

You froze. Did he really just say that-

" i really fucking love you, i never stopped loving you. I listened to Angel talking about what i did to you and it broke me heart. Im so fucking sorry"

You pulled back and held his face in your hands but he refused to meet you eyes

"Ez i know"

He looked at you "you what?"

"I know your sorry. I know you drink yourself stupid. I think sometimes you forget Angel tells me everything. He told me how guilty you looked all the time, he still tells me how you barely sleep, he dragged me to parties just for me to be able to see how you were suffering. Hell he even made me speak to your dad just so he could tell me how weird you were acting" you smiled "i know how bad you feel, i know you didn't mean for all the distance but it happened. You have to get over it. The past is the past for a reason"

He was silent

"What so you...you don't love me anymore?" He questioned

"Ez, the problem is i love you too much" you let his face go and stood up "i haven't moved on, i know you thought i did but i didn't. i was trying but everywhere i look i see our memories. When i go to your dads i look around and remember all the dumb shit we did when he made us housesit for him, when i go to the club all i remember is when we would just sit and talk with the guys and be normal. We aren't like that anymore, things have changed"

Once again he was silent

"So you love me still?"

"Oh my god you just missed the whole point"

He chuckled a little "no, no i didn't i just wanted confirmation"

"Wow that's a big word for you"

He stood up, shaking his head and laughed "shut up"

Before you could reply back to him he kissed you with raw passion

Lord how you missed that

~

Weeks past, faster than you would of liked. That night the two of you stayed up and watched movies till the sun had risen and he was sober enough to ride back without you worrying he would lose balance or not have a fast enough reaction time if something were to happen.

 After that night everything went almost back to normal, you two started dating again but this time you kept it between the two of you for a while, eventually Ez told the guy sand they all seemed to be happy about t it. Saying things like “thank fuck for that” and “Jesus thank god this shit was getting awkward”

Yesterday he had time off from the club so after he helped his dad at the shop he came over for a movie night. Not exactly like any of the movies get watched buy hey it was a good night.

The next morning you woke up to the weight of his arm wrapped tightly around you. You smiled to yourself and looked behind you, his face was peaceful, his mouth was partly open as he snored slightly

You turned to face him, trying you best not to move too much that it would awaken him, you lay there for a while, just taking in how peaceful he looked when he slept

“You’re staring” he smirked slightly and you hummed in response. Leaning forward he placed a small kiss upon your lips, when you pulled away you took your hand and begin to trace along his cheekbones

“I love you”

“I love me too” he smirked again and you could help but laugh slightly

You knew you had to get up soon but you didn’t want to. After a while you attempted to get up but Ez had other plans, his grip tightened around you, trapping you

“ten more minutes”

“No”

“Yeah” Opening his eyes he gave you one of the most irresistible puppy dog eyes ever

“No, don’t do that it’s not fair” you shook you head at him, causing him to smirk slightly

“just ten minutes, I promise” he made a pouty face

“Fine”

His smirk turned into a grin as he pulled you closer, laying his head into your chest. Rubbing his back you began to notice his breathing began to slow once again as he went back to sleep

Yep back to normal

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A/N : heyyyyyy, yes i know the first part was posted at the end of July and now its almost the end of October😭 i lost inspiration like seven times throughout writing this

Anyways hope you enjoyed, i attempted to make the ending as tied up as i could with a happy ending.