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me in my daydreams with my fav male character knowing that I will never find as hot as he is irl T0T

sometimes i just feel depressed bcz there’s absolutely no man have combination between being really masculine and being really soft and loving

(especially in the area that i live in)

The anxiety of taking action

It doesn’t depend on making big decisions

this tension appears when I enter TikTok and I should take action

make like or not make comment or not

this tension appears just to hear any sound at home/outside/anywhere

the sound of a door, the voice of a person, the sound of songs coming from sister’s room

the sounds are loud/low, I’m nervous anyway

just knowing that something is not clean

n I just realized that i've never really been in contact with anyone or even close except my older sister she's the only person in my life.

this and it's not really a real one

but i feel kind of intimacy about our relationship,

at least i experienced that kind of connection which makes you feel SEEN without being judging. when i say that to someone they immediately think that i love her and we have a really good relationship but no not really

i mean idk she just the only person who kind of gets me.

always thinking how lonely I would be if she had never been born and the opposite right

Me sitting with Kieran and Lauren in my dream after rereading the chapters countless times😃