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In those sacred, silent spaces where the flickering candles seemed a watchful eye from which there was no escape.

He walked through the narrow aisles of the church as if it were a tight cord, each step careful, each breath causing his body to tremble. Yet in the silence of the church, under the gaze of the saints and angels painted on the wals, Barty felt his heart pounding for the first time.

It was a feeling that had never visited him before.

A warmth so soft, like a blanket on a winter's evening. A warmth that made Barty's chest melt.

As Barty knelt before the altar, that warmth turned to fire, prayers became difficult for him, words slipping through his fingers like water. His thoughts were no longer pure, no longer turned solely to heaven. They were filled entirely with the boy whose gray eyes made Bartyy so weak.

Regulus. That name was a prayer in itself.

Barty knew it was wrong, that wanting to kiss his soft lips to the point of unconsciousness was wrong. He could feel the judgmental glances of the walls reminding him of the sin he was about to commit, the curse that awaited him. But even as fear clawed at his insides, there was something stronger, something more powerful that pulled him closer to Regulus like a moth to a flame.

It was love. Naive and simple, but so hateful.

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But also Regulus who is afraid of the sinner barty will turn him into, and barty afraid of the sinner he might turn Regulus into. Barty who kisses Regulus when they're alone and Regulus who doesn't push him back, so he feels his heart drop.

Barty going to church one last time, on his own terms, his own choice this time, willing. Barty who is on his knees, heavy, his hands clasped in a bruising grip, sobbing, begging God to forgive him for ruining his angel. Barty who's finding it hard to breathe apologizing to God for making Regulus sin. Barty knowing he's Hell's guest but begs God to never let Regulus see the agony of the fires.

Regulus who's hearing him behind the confessional, silently crying, whispering to God, begging him to forgive barty. Who blames himself for barty's sins. Regulus who knew this was the last time he'll ever see barty. Regulus willing the angels to watch over barty wherever he goes.

hru today? (:

kind of bad. i’m supposed to hang out with someone but they arent answering and i’m about to have a conniption fit because i hate bothering people

thats a shame ): how's it going now? have you gotten up to much today?

thank you!

hru today? (:

kind of bad. i’m supposed to hang out with someone but they arent answering and i’m about to have a conniption fit because i hate bothering people

thats a shame ): how's it going now? have you gotten up to much today?