maks :)

good news. the things that used to upset me no longer upset me. bad news. i'm creating an army of bugs to hurt innocent bystanders

found a pill on the ground snd ate it #gatherer

the online identity and gimmick-ifying of autism is so odd. I'm diagnosed with autism and yet I barely identify with any stuff I see about it anymore. It feels like autism is being rebranded as the Silly Guy Disorder that gives you smart and beautiful hyperspecific interests. it's not that I mind silly jokes or being lighthearted about being autistic- but when the entire social movement is based around marketing us this way, I just can't help but feel isolated from it. it feels like I'm not the right kind of autistic. I'm not marketable and digestible to common audiences, and therefore I am discarded by the movement in the name of progress and acceptance. it feels foul.

get in loser we’re gonna try again despite it all

In the Yharnam. straight up "finding it" and by "it". Haha well let's justr say. my worth in the waking world

(eating a pill i found on the floor of the club bathroom) hope it's a placebo. i don't need any effects right now