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@aniomarca - 001.

@vorbeiisims - 001. 002. (my turn) 003. + the blaine/poppy starter you wrote

@selfsaving - 001. + im gonna turn those michael & geoff meme replies into threads.

@cheertm - 001. (my turn)

@mrbisected - 001. (my turn)

@empathreading / @gavinsaleks / @emptykept

I am slightly late in nz time but not in aus time yet I don't think lmao you know I wasn't gonna miss your birthday even if I don't talk to you every day like I used to. Happy birthday Rachel, this ones not very long cause I gotta save some stuff for our friendiversary in December and they've been absurdly long for the last few years but!! Happy birthday, you know by now that you mean the world to me and I know that my life would be beyond different if I hadn't met you. I remember talking to you about how I was about to graduate high school which just feels like a million years ago. If you were wondering why I messaged you about an old Skype conversation and reblogged one on belle is cause I spent today looking through old stuff I wrote and trying to relive some of the ridiculousness while also reading the old letters to try not to repeat myself too much but it's gonna repeat any way. Im not doing this on a laptop so it's gonna look gross and unformatted until tomorrow probably but I don't care. You've changed my life and you've changed who I am and I'm beyond thankful for that. I wouldn't have come out when I did without you, and then maybe I still wouldn't be out to this day. I know you might not really believe that because you've struggled with the idea of coming out so much over the time I've known you but online where you can be yourself I've seen you grow so much more confident in who you are and it's made me so Happy, I remember I was literally talking to you and the other members of the iconic pack it up group verse when I suddenly decided that at half past midnight it was time to come out. I woke my mum up and came out to her because in the time I had talked to you seeing you be open to me about who you were made me feel confident in who I was. And I know I talk about this in every letter I write but it's such a big moment of my life and I'm so happy that I shared it with you in that way.

Of course though this letter is different to all the other ones I've written, cause we've seen each other in person now. I couldn't find a letter to see if I wrote one back in December but I'm sure I did and I'm sure I went way too in depth about how much it meant to meet you in person, but it really was so amazing. I still remember it pretty clearly and I'm almost positive that if I was dropped out in your neck of the woods I would be able to find my way around what you showed me and get at least the general area of the street you live on right. That may not be much of an achievement considering how small the area is but I don't care. I remember it took so long for me to tell my mum I had made friends online and she had been so nervous about it because everyone's so worried about old men pretending to be teenagers online to lure people in but then she ended up driving to the middle of nowhere basically in a country she didn't know shit about so I could see you and she was happy to mess around doing basically nothing for an hour while we hung out and it just meant a lot to me. We were both pretty quiet and awkward face to face but I was just processing the fact that you were actually right there (and also your stories about just finding snakes everywhere was in my mind that's why I was constantly looking at the ground I was just a little terrified there would be snakes).