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Harrow wouldn't read yaoi because the notions of romance and sex are almost as disgusting to her as the concept of men. However, if she had to pick, she would read yaoi over yuri, because the most she would feel towards yaoi is disdain, while yuri would vaporize her on the spot.

i have been fortunate enough to live a life in the arts, creating things and following hallowed footsteps. its something many buckaroos dream of, and as someone who has done it, THE MOST IMPORTANT THINGS i received are the moments in between. if you generate with AI, THAT is what you rob yourself of

anyone who has done theater will know this, because it lives in the energy backstage. anyone who has played in a band will know this, because it lives in the late night diner afterwards. anyone who has written a book will know this, because it lives the coffee shop where your plot point locked in

in other words IT IS NOT THE PRODUCT. yes, it is cool to see your name on a marquee or your book in a store or your face on a poster, but the REASON this is cool is because it tethers you to the BETWEEN TIMES. the between times are everything. the PROCESS of creation is a gift to yourself

i think this is REALLY difficult for these ai goofballs to understand, and why the things they make dont resonate. anything you create without the in between is just a hollow shell, a movie poster without small talk at crafty or an album without eating burritos on the studio rooftop

we have ALWAYS had the ability to NOT make something and pretend that we did. the difference now is theres an algorithm built for convincing people whove never stepped outside the theater door for a smoke break on opening night that they actually have. they have not. there is no ai for that.

She answers in the past tense, which goes largely unnoticed because Harrow did ask the question in the past tense. But here she's being so unbelievably honest with the reason why she first became a Lyctor. She didn't want to die. But dying, to her, is apparently so much more preferable to Lyctorhood now. She's looking at Gideon here, someone who just threw herself into a soul-siphoning trial for her necromancer pretty much without hesitation, and sees just the kind of cavalier that will die a painful death to sustain a Lyctor. Exactly like Loveday.

Cyth dragged the Ninth into that trial in the first place to make Gideon did not want to be Harrow's battery ever again. ("Don’t give yourself away. Do you know, it’s not worth it … none of this is worth it, at all. It’s cruel. It’s so cruel. You are so young—and vital—and alive. Gideon, you’re all right … remember this, and don’t let anyone do it to you ever again. I’m sorry. We take so much. I’m so sorry.”) But the pair comes out more codependent than ever and she knows she knows she knows she's watching another tragedy.