Melancholy Manor

I feel sad really, I mean noticeably there has been no physical change in my weight but I know I lost a few inches off my stomach area. I had to stop working out because I hurt my abdomen doing crunches in a awkward position. Besides it doesn't help that lately I've just felt so God Damn weak. Even walking just to do chours is proving to be exhausting this sucks.

Anyways I over ate about 80 calories because I had to eat an apple. I'm hypoglycemic and I didn't really have any sugar intake and my head was splitting in two, I just feel like crying because I failed my diet.

My first workout so far had me in a bucket of sweat and not being able to breath, but I stuck through it and I finished them. I have a lot of issues in my lower back due to a fall I had recently so any situps and core ab workouts I'm doing on my bed. Its just much easier on my back and I can actually move without feeling chronic pain.

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Just to get the gist of it out, i monitor several gothic subculture based group chats on another platform and I'm typically inactive as of recent. Another individual who I just cannot get along with also just so happens to also be an admin of this forum. I have blocked this individual because I found it frivolous to even have a logical conversation with, anyhow since the particular group had some new clearly non goth or individuals who are just thirty, i ban these people without giving them a reason and from time to time I would ask any random new member if and why they are apart of the gothic community.

As it is many of the new members get offended or upset at me for asking this very much needed question. The one admin I mentioned earlier recently typed someone in the chat as a new member joined just to ask "why is this chat so dead?". As she is blocked for me I was So curious to know here response as she almost quite literally never ever posts in the chat unless it's to mock or let others know how she feels about me, which I find so childish which is why I kept her blocked.

Well due to my stupid curiosity I briefly unblocked her to see what kind of a stupid bullshit she wrote this time around, and I don't know why o was surprised that her response to the completely new individual to the group was and I quote " the chat is dead because she believes I am only on there to argue, ban and cause other drama in the chat". This person is actually the p most pathetic individual I've had the misfortune of having to even remotely socialiZe with.

Well so may it be, I have officially learnt my lesson, if I have someone blocked never unblock them nothing good can ever come from it.