Thinking about men old enough to be my father jerking off over my body makes me so squirmy

*is cute and perfect but also unstable, violent and self-destructive*

90% of my day is me being nervous

I want to make you feel violent. I want you to want to ruin me. To feel the urge hurt me every time you look at me. I want to hear the need to destroy me in your voice. See the desire to break me in your eyes. I need the aggression to feel wanted.

She thinks it’s “affection” when I do this. Either she convinces herself that my violence is a misplaced outlet of emotion (she’d be wrong) or she knows this is the closest she’ll ever get, so she might as well call a spade a lawnmower. I don’t really care. It’s just funny to watch her convince herself that I care.

You are so mean ´•︵•` please marry me?