When BIGBANG has feelings for you *Chapter 20*
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*You rush out of the bathroom in a panic. Jiyong is getting in Seunghyun’s face, but Seunghyun doesn’t respond*
[GD] do you think you can just fuck my girlfriend? *his eyes are watering*
*Seunghyun stands there silent*
[GD] why won’t you answer!? *He screams through his tears*
*Seunghyun remains silent. Jiyong loses his temper and throws a punch, hitting Seunghyun on the jaw.*
[Y/N] Jiyong! *You shout and pull him away*
*Jiyong pushes you away and walks off without another word*
[Y/N] Jiyong… *You call down the corridor*
*You turn back to Seunghyun and gently touch his Jaw*
[Y/N] are you hurt? *you ask quietly*
*You pull him into a hug and you cry into his shoulder*
[Y/N] I’m sorry Seunghyun… I’ve ruined everything… it’s okay if you hate me…
*Seunghyun pulls you in front of him and holds you at arms length*
[TOP] I don’t hate you… I don’t think that’s possible…
*You manage to control your crying and you look up at him*
[TOP] …I still love you Y/N …I think I probably always will… but you need to go to Jiyong… he’s hurting more than me *he touches his jaw tentatively*
[Y/N] Seunghyun… *You whisper*
*And then you’re running outside… searching for Jiyong. You find him leaning against a wall. You walk up to him quietly*
*Jiyong starts talking before you can continue*
*You stand awkwardly in front of him*
[GD] i’m… angry… and sad…
*You try to speak but he hushes you*
[GD] but for some… strange reason… I still love you Y/N…
*You stand there speechless… you’d been expecting an argument*
[Y/N] Jiyong… I don’t deserve you… I don’t deserve either of you… *you say quietly*
[GD] that’s probably true… but I still want you Y/N… but I’m wondering if I have to give you up…
*Jiyong’s voice wobbles and he sighs*
[GD] Jagi… *he says quietly* I want this to work… but you’re going to have to choose…
*You feel a lump in your throat*
[GD] choose who you love more…
*You sit on a park bench, alone. You puff on the last few drags of your cigarette and you wipe away the tears staining your cheeks. It was cold but you didn’t care.*
[Y/N] How can I choose? *you mutter putting out the cigarette*
*How could you choose? Why did you have the right to choose? You sat there lost in your thoughts… lost in your memories. Seunghyun made you smile. He was thoughtful and madly in love with you. He could make you happy.*
*But you and Jiyong had a history. You’d spent a lot of time with him and for the majority of the time you’d been blissfully happy. You missed your late night phone calls. He had made you happy.*
*They were both so different. So beautiful. Seunghyun’s gentlemanly charm and mysterious aura had always intrigued you. And GOD… he was so handsome. Even his scent was addictive*
*Whereas Jiyong… Jiyong was sunshine. Just his smile could brighten your day.*
*You sat on the park bench with your heart ripped in two. Before all of this had happened… they had simply been your friends. Wouldn’t that be easier? Friendship? No… You couldn’t go back after this. You had to make a decision. How?*
[Y/N] I don’t deserve either of them…
*The day starts to grow dark and you’re still sat on the empty park bench. You stand up and start walking. This is the right decision… Your heart starts to beat quickly… were you excited? nervous? What if they had changed their mind…*
*You arrive outside an apartment block… you stand their contemplating your decision. You ring the doorbell… palms sweating… you look into the camera*
[Y/N] …it’s me …can i come up?
*the door buzzes open and you enter the building… you can already feel the tears building in your eyes. You knock on the front door gently. The door opens… you feel your heart skip a beat as you try to find the right words. He stands there looking at you, confused.*
[Y/N] I’m so sorry… *you start to break down*
*He reaches for your hand with a gentle smile*
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