Because of Natashaās past, seeing kids die when sheās on a mission hits her hard. She blames herself, and replays it over and over, reads the mission report extensively, and doesnāt sleep trying to figure out what went wrong and how to prevent it next time. If she canāt figure out how to stop it (which is most times, because itās very rarely something that could be avoided) she gets dangerously self-destructive.
After a few times of this happening, Clint and Maria can recognize by her face when thatās happened. Sheāll come back from a mission with the Look, and Clint and Maria will make sure one or both of them stays with her that night. Natasha insists sheās fine and wants to focus on the report by herself, but the night always ends with her crying in their arms and thanking them for staying.
