It's me

Oh boy, does anyone use this site anymore? I hope to god not because I'm about to make a lenghty post about life and such... 5 years ago I never thought that I would be where I'm at now Not necessarily a bad thing, but the people you gain and lose.. life is weird. I can remember so many memories from that time, such a different person, not a care in the world what came next.. Now here I am overthinking every thought and move. I'm happy, I am. I think that living a positive life is truly up to the person living it. Making the best of every bad moment. I try every single day to make that happen. Sometimes things dont go as planned, but that happens and that's okay. I think it's a weird thing that you can go from being so close to someone and then never speak to them in 5 years time. Everyone seems to move on and just forget. They seem content with that but I'm not. I like keeping those connections for a lifetime. I like building those friendships and being able to experience even a moment of that persons life is a blessing. I've seen so many people go through tough times and blossom and I hope I become that one day. I've accepted that there's no one else who is going to care to see that- but I do for myself. I owe it to me. There is such a short amount of time that we get to live this life and that seems insane to me. 23 years has already flown by... who says that the next what... 50-70 wont.. who says that I'll live another day? That's all up to the universe or god or life... whatever makes that happen. The world feels so small when you're a kid and then so overwhelmingly big when you're an adult. There are so many possibilities but such little time. The purpose really does puzzle me, as it does everyone I'm sure. I'm not content with living a boring life and I hope that five years from now I can look back and be proud of the person that I've become and I hope by then I'll blossom. All I know is that I hope in 5 years I still hold these friendships because they're what make me feel alive when I feek disconnected.