this blog is a mess im so sorry

i’ve been seeing a lot of people shitting on kendall for weaponizing roman’s and connor’s abuse to hurt logan. but i think a point that some people are missing is that kendall wouldn’t bring up his own abuse like EVER. he rarely talks about it. he can now acknowledge his dad is a monster to OTHERS. you see that throughout the seasons. in the earlier seasons, he would brush off abuse jokes about roman, but now takes them seriously. kendall realizes his dad is a monster mainly because what he does his siblings. but in terms of his own abuse and neglect from logan, kendall thinks he deserves how his dad treats him just like how roman thinks he deserves his and connor downplays his. so in that scene at the karaoke bar, kendall wouldn’t bring up his abuse because that’s not why he hates his dad. he hates his dad for the way he treats his siblings. kendall is a self-hating patricidal fuck. it’s always easier to acknowledge when there’s something wrong with how others are treated versus how you’re treated, especially when you don’t see anything redeeming about yourself. and honestly i think the only thing kendall doesn’t hate about himself is his connection to others, either that being his siblings or his kids. they are the only things he sees redeeming about his existence because he thinks they are all he has left. anyway, i don’t love what kendall and shiv did in the scene but ultimately everyone has different reactions to their abuser. and ken has never truly processed his. he has tried to BE better but still isn’t fully. and also this show’s recurring theme is unhealthy relationships and to be honest, the siblings are all sort of trauma bonded by the roy name.