My Tree House

There are always a time when you feel not belong to anywhere.

It's all seems so unfamiliar.

The photo took when we were highschool. I went to public school, then he at semi-military school at another town.

This pict was taken when he was on holiday and come home.

I have crushed with this unique creature. I thought that i have done about the crush, but then I felt it again. He's always that special for me, he has a tiny little space in my heart, which i couldn't tell you exactly.

I have ever cried over this man for several time. First is when he had continued his study at Groningen. I cried behind his back, after he left the departure gate.

Second, when he told me to stop having feeling for him because he didn't imagine to have a relationship. I cried a while, until i settle myself down.

Nope, I never told him that i love him as a man. I never told him that i have crushed for him. But he read me. After that i live a normal life, and not much talk to him. We were still friends, but I gave him space.

The third times, i've ever cried over him is just happened. I just heard that he'll go abroad (again) for his post graduate study. I can not explain why his absent on my life always be this painful. Mean while, i never have any intense communication when he is around. All i know he's just doing fine.

All the good prayers, i hope Allah SWT will guide him to reach anything he wants for long time.

24 Mei 2020

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