мария

i secretly want friendships to be mutually all-consuming it’s carnal to me i need us to be one

happy butch appreciation day if any butches want to be, um, appreciated i will be on my knees

Damn. This is something that I've felt but never really understood until seeing this post. I refuse to engage in negative talk about women's bodies, mine or other women's. And now that you mention it I realize that there's this moment after I don't engage that's like "why aren't you doing this too?!"

when elena ferrante said “there are people who leave and people who know how to be left” and when richard siken said “someone has to leave first. this is a very old story. there is no other version of this story.” and when sally rooney wrote “if i told you where my car is right now, i don’t think i’d be able to leave, i think i would have to stay here just in case you changed your mind about everything” and when mikko harvey said “the number of hours we have together is actually not so large. please linger near the door uncomfortably instead of just leaving. please forget your scarf in my life and come back later for it.”and when karese burrows wrote “i have never seen a door that doesn’t look like you leaving. look at me writing this poem. even here i don’t mean anything i say. except that I still want you. that whatever is in me still loves you deeply. it is a light i can’t turn off. i clap my hands and nothing happens.” and when margarita karapanou said “i never expected you to actually finish anything. you were always leaving. i always picture you with a suitcase in your hand.”

my love language is those posts that compile some obscure paintings and a bunch of quotes from books/poems/other posts etc. that all fit one very very specific vibe. where else are you gonna get that level of dedication. i romanticise things too much and let me tell you these posts are my fucking oxygen i need them to live