Marek

it didn’t happen today either. tommorow looks the same. inside contemp mind the Demiurg dominates over the HumanHolySpirit.

there will be synthesis again.

everyone performs differently depending on who they're with and people treat that like a confession of inauthenticity. but what it actually means is that you know which parts of you are safe to show in which room. that's not a character flaw. that's intelligence.

your "true self" isn't the unfiltered version that spills out everywhere. it's the thing that decides what to perform and why. the self that watches and chooses. capitalism and social groups both want you confused about this they want you to believe that authenticity means total transparency, because a person with no private interior is a person that can be fully colonized.

performing isn't betraying yourself. it's keeping yourself intact while navigating spaces that weren't built for you.

STOP ACTING LIKE IT.

perform corporate. close the laptop. be yourself again.-> profit. this is not selling out. this is the oldest survival technology on earth, finally used offensively.

become: bratgirl, tech bro, queer, straight, neurodivergent, neurotypical, conservative, progressive, human, animal,

whatever the room needs. extract what you need from it. leave. your actual self is the one doing the switching — not any of the masks. it lives behind all of them, untouchable, uncolonized, laughing.

have no ideology. use all ideologies. have no group. move through all groups. this isn't nihilism, it's the opposite. it's total commitment to the one thing that's actually yours: your own becoming.

a belief that gets acted on changes reality. you performing a role hard enough warps the space around you. that's not metaphor. that's how culture actually moves, not through sincerity but through bodies that refuse to stay fixed.

We live in a world that glorifies the radical action but forbids the radical lifestyle.

Society celebrates single dramatic gestures. The championship win. The protest. One revolutionary moment. But it forbids sustained commitment: pursuing your calling until death, actually living the alternative every single day.

Watch prepper videos. They narrate while shopping: “Act normal. Act like you’re just shopping.” They think they’re undercover, performing normalcy while being “survivalist.” But they’re performing radicalism. They buy supplies, then go home to Netflix. A truly radical prepper would already be off-grid, committed until death. But that’s just living differently forever.

Society loves the mania phase: revolution, dramatic gestures, spectacle. Society hates the depression phase: building institutions, daily maintenance, bureaucracy. Žižek: “I would sell my mother into slavery to see V for Vendetta 2.” Nobody wants the sequel about managing post-revolutionary governance. But that’s where actual radicalism lives not in the explosion, but in years of tedious work after.

We yearn for radical acts because modern life is suffocatingly safe. But we’ve been conditioned to think radicalism is a moment, not a state. One protest, one refusal, then back to scrolling. Real radicalism is sustained. Not spectacle, but continuation. Every day. Until death.

When Spinoza was excommunicated at 23, they offered him money to stay quiet. He refused. Spent his life grinding lenses in poverty. Died at 44 from glass dust. That’s the cost: not the dramatic moment, but the grinding. Every day.

When you fantasize about being radical, ask yourself: are you imagining the action or the lifestyle? Society will let you have your moments. What it won’t let you do is actually live it.

I think we dont use the word ergonomics enough. It is more than just science that is used in interior design. It observes the horizontal thinker, the living human and phrases it into science terms.

Ergonomics observes horizontal thinking: the way we lounge, drift, reach, and move through space in a home. This is the domain of the lived home: sprawling, lateral, flexible. The furniture, the floors, the clutter — all respond to bodies that move in the space and time.

Life itself resides in horizontality.

Vertical ergonomics is different. It is the logic of the office, the desk, the alignment. It measures, it orders, it optimizes. The body is compressed, the gaze directed, the environment codified. Where horizontal space houses presence, vertical space houses function.

We should start using word ergonomics much more in daily life, because that is the science that steals and optimises the living experience, slowly draining the geist of life out of the lived experience.

In the postmodern condition, philosopher Jean Baudrillard introduced the idea of simulacra: representations that no longer refer to any original reality, but instead to other signs and copies. These images and signs begin to feel more real than the real — a state he called hyperreality. In such a world, experience is replaced by simulation, and we begin to mistake the representation for the thing itself.

But to be real is not to contain the most “essence” of something. In fact, the most intense, stylized, or image-rich version of an experience is often the least real. Reality is not about perfection — it’s about presence. It’s the vibe, the aura, the irreproducible now of a moment. To be real is to be situated in time, to carry weight that can’t be repeated or exported. The real is defined by its inability to be captured.

This is where Baudrillard’s concept can be reinterpreted. While he framed simulacra as false and disconnected, they might also be seen as compressed experiences — symbolic reductions of lived reality. A simulacrum isn’t necessarily fake; it’s a distilled, flattened version of something once real. A memory turned into a short video. A feeling reduced to a symbol. These aren’t lies — but they lack breath. They lack the slowness, the context, and the depth that make something truly felt.

A simulacrum is essence without atmosphere.

It gestures toward reality, but it doesn’t confront you. It doesn’t stare back.

This distinction becomes clearest when we think about darkness. The digital world is full of “dark” aesthetics: horror movies, creepypasta, algorithmic doomscrolling. These forms simulate fear, but only as entertainment. They give you controlled dread — loud, edited, and curated. They don’t threaten your worldview. They don’t demand anything from you.

True darkness is different. It is existential, not aesthetic. It’s not scary because of blood or shadows, but because it questions the foundations of meaning itself. Nietzsche wrote, “When you stare into the abyss, the abyss also stares into you.” That abyss cannot be simulated. It does not live in digital space. It lives in the confrontation with uncertainty, mortality, and the possibility that nothing matters. This kind of darkness cannot be replaced with genre or mood. It does not entertain — it undoes.

In a world of hyperreality, we risk mistaking simulation for experience. We accept compressed, consumable versions of memory, fear, and emotion in place of their messy, real counterparts. But the real is not the most intense — it’s the most present. The most honest. It’s what stays with us when the screen turns off.

I had to reframe my terms so this is new terminology on the same ideas. Certain community teached me how insensitive are the original words that i used.

(horizontal–vertical thinking & harmonies)

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Vertical Thinking

= fixation, structure, order

• Desire focuses on a single object, creating loyalty, stability, and continuity.

• Sexual energy is often channeled into structured pursuits such as intellectual work, science, or long-term goals.

• Prefers monogamous or highly defined relationships with clear roles.

• Energetically aligned with discipline, hierarchy, and long-term focus.

• Cognitive style: logical, systematic, and structured.

• Associated with a need for control, clarity, and boundaries.

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Horizontal Thinking

= dispersion, flow, chaos

• Desire moves fluidly between objects, seeking novelty, symbolism, and transformation.

• Sexual energy is expressive, exploratory, and often spiritual or ritualistic.

• Relationships tend to be open, experimental, symbolic, or non-traditional.

• Energetically aligned with creativity, ambiguity, and dissolution of boundaries.

• Cognitive style: associative, poetic, nonlinear.

• Associated with freedom, intensity, and collapse of fixed identity.

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Positive Harmony

= conscious synthesis between vertical and horizontal thought

• The mind can shift fluidly between fixation and openness, between structure and experimentation.

• Both tendencies are used strategically, not suppressed.

• Cognitive style is integrative, paradoxical, highly adaptable.

• Sexuality becomes ultra-expressive – capable of depth, stability, and transformation.

• Ideal for those navigating art, philosophy, mysticism, love, and revolutionary politics.

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Negative Harmony

= neutral balance without depth or engagement

• The mind stays in the center, but out of detachment, not synthesis.

• Both directions are present only weakly, leading to flat, mechanical functioning.

• Desire is neither intense nor focused; symbolic connection is low.

• Relationships and sexuality tend to be pragmatic, habitual, or disengaged.

• Cognitive style: realistic, but uninspired – function over meaning.