tragedy isn’t an aesthetic

I don’t know how many regulars there are on my account but since it’s getting a lot more traction than I ever imagined I thought I’d put this out there.

I’m taking a break from all research and posting, the two posts I mentioned in my previous ask are still in the works but will be held off. The first one is a short Gary Ridgway biography, the second is Richard Ramirez victims and evidence, so you know what to expect when I come back. The third post that I haven’t started yet is one of my longer biography posts and it will be on Samual Little.

I’m leaving for a couple of months, I know I’ve been inactive but my life is kind of consumed with school and I’m dealing with a lot of heavy personal problems. If anybody remembers the now deleted post where I talked about having a medical emergency in May it relates to that. As it turns out I’m suffering from trauma and since beginning treatment for such and having every single event that I repressed for so long come back at once my mental state has declined rapidly. I’ve been in a very dark place for awhile. I lost a friend to suicide in July and that prompted the downward spiral afterwards. In October my family wanted me to go to an inpatient care facility although I didn’t end up going. All of this mental health stuff, along with the mental illness I already have and all of my school work. I’ll be graduating early and going into an honors program next year so preparing for that and working to be the best student I can be while still trying to do as much work as I put into this account to make posts in the past became too much for me to handle.

I’m so deeply sorry that I have been MIA and that my posting is sporadic and not consistent. I want this account to be the best account it can be but with my current state I can’t provide neither the quality nor the quantity I want to on here and I don’t want to half ass posts and not do what I know I’m capable of when my head is clear. Since my account is growing daily, which thank you so much for that it’s insane how far we’ve come, I don’t want to promise my followers things I can’t provide. I’ll be coming back probably around March to April, May at the absolute latest and my posting will be consistent in the sense that I plan to post once per week. Until then feel free to leave requests for posts you wish to see as always and have a great few months. I’m sorry once again.

Suicide hotline: 1-800-237-8255

Domestic violence hotline: 1-800-799-7233

What disgusts me the most about serial killers is how glorified they are and how only some of them get attention, especially in this age where people are starting to talk about them more. Bundy and Dahmer are the most commonly known names and maybe Gacy who is the only exception to the rule since he was a clown (however I took a forensics class and the entire class was clueless as to who Gacy was. Even the girl who claimed to be “obsessed with true crime” who turned out to only like Jeffery Dahmer.. because he was cute.. I’m beyond sickened. Her friend when I was giving a presentation on Richard Ramirez cut me off by saying “he’s so hot!” And walking off. I got through ‘this is Richard Ramirez. He was born in El Paso Texas as the last of five children-‘ which by the way Ramirez wasn’t good looking in his natural state. He had horrible teeth, horrible hygiene and probably smelled like sweat and cup noodles since all he ate was packaged food and drugs oh and let’s not forget he raped around 30 people and killed 14? He also laughed in court, bragged about what he did and was still a gross creep from behind bars. Somebody this far gone is attractive how exactly?)

The problem is although everybody knows their names and faces it stops there. They don’t look into the cases at all. So when I confront these people (mostly edgy teenagers who think they’re cool for disrespecting and dehumanizing victims of heinous crimes) who talk about these men I don’t use their names. I use the victims names, I tell the victims stories and give details about what happened then and afterwards. I show them videos of victims who were brave enough to step forward and you’ll see how suddenly they change. Most of them will try to hide it and act like they don’t care but especially with Dahmer’s case all I have to say is

“Konerak Sinthasomphone was only 14 when he came into contact with his killer. The man who kidnapped him would rape him multiple times, horrificly attack and mutilate him to the point of him laying completely naked, screaming, bloodied and begging for life on his killer’s doorstep. The police arrived on scene and the horrible man told them that the child was his boyfriend and they were having a ‘domestic dispute’ rather than taking Konerak to safety due to domestic violence or similar charges which would’ve broken the case then and there the police ignored. They left the child with his rapist. He would die later that day, suffering. What if that was your brother? Your friend? God forbid your own child?” Then suddenly it’s just silence. When you give the voice to the victim to these people they get uncomfortable because they know damn well that what they’re doing is immoral and stupid.

Another thing that boils my blood is how people think they’re smarter than they are. It’s the same story different topic, it’s being ignorant to what actually happened. Ted Bundy wasn’t the “master of disguise” he showed up to one of his kill sights and introduced himself by his first name in broad daylight on a beach when he was already a suspect, is that a smart move? No. He wasn’t “so smart he escaped twice” the first time he was left by himself in a library with windows when he was already being accused of murdering and raping multiple people. That’s police error and negligence. The second time there was a broken light in his room with a hole. He started dropping weight instantly and the inmate in the cell next to him told the guards that he heard noises in the ceiling at night. The guards did nothing, he used the hole as an escape. People always also bring up that he went to law school but fail to mention that he was horrible in it. He constantly skipped and failed classes. His grade was embarrassing for the university because it was one of the lowest they’d ever seen. How is he smart? His only disguise was moving to another state, doing dirty work at night and growing his hair and beard out. He wasn’t some genuis and if people actually knew more about his case than “pretty boy kill people” they’d know this. It’s so beyond frustrating and it bleeds into the true crime community.

Dorothea Puente’s motivation for killing was collecting social security checks from the patients that would die in her care.

When she was found out however she claimed that she had never killed anybody and her lawyer followed that up by stating that she never reported their deaths in fear that her unlicensed boarding home she ran would be shut down.

Dorothea had also been apprehended beforehand for robbing the elderly, and she had problems with using drugs in later years.

Mrs. Puente’s victims

Mrs Puente’s home/boarding home

Victims: 9-13

Ruth Monroe (61)

Everson Gillmouth (77)

Alvaro Montoya (51)

Dorothy Miller (64)

Benjamin Fink (55)

Betty Palmer (78)

Leona Carpenter (78)

James Gallop (62)

Vera Faye Martin (64)

Mother: Trudy Mae Yates

Father: Jesse James Gray

Spouse(s): Pedro Montalvo, Roberto Puente, Fred McFaul, Axel Johanson

Cause of death: natural

Method: rat poison

The 21 year old rapper had possession of around 70 pounds of marijuana on the private jet he flew in to Chicago on.

He was also seen taking multiple pills before leaving the plane.

The rapper, famously known for the songs Bandit and Lucid Dreams died early this morning in the Chicago Midway Airport. The cause of death was a seizure though it’s not clear what caused the seizure to begin with.

When a stressful situation occurs where it is perceived that there is danger the body instantly reacts, but what exactly happens?

Now we all know the term “fight or flight” but it’s actually much more complex. There are plenty more F-words that happen when this system goes off. The system that is responsible for the reaction is the sympathetic nervous system (or in simpler terms the involuntary parts of our bodies such as pupil dilation and heartbeat part of us) goes on full blast. When this takes place the prefrontal cortex (the decision making, rational thinking etc etc) part is completely shut off. Meaning you aren’t thinking clearly or at all, instead it’s your body doing what it needs to do. Your muscles will contract, digestive system shuts off also, heart beat picks up, pupils dilate. Really anything that could help you run or fight immediately goes on.

1: Tara The Android

Tara The Android was originally created and produced by Joe Bergeron in the early 2000s. She was meant to be a singing robot project with songs such as “I Feel Fantastic” however her strange face and automated voice drove the creepy pasta community wild and many people wrote completely false stories about who she was and how she was made. Some going as far as saying the clothes she was wearing were from homicide victims and a shot of a backyard (that had been added in nonetheless) was where the victims were buried. There was no homicide, she was an innocent project.

2: Red Rooms

The idea of a Red Room was that on the dark web videos and live-streams existed where people would be tortured and kill while commenters gave suggestions as to what should happen to the victims next. As it turns out it was a complete urban legend and the only true Red Room to exist only showed a man with a cover on his head, once another man coming in but no such torture. However the dark web does have many horrific things on it such as a site to buy and sell illegal drugs and weapons

3: Barbie AVI

This video was a low quality recording of an interview with a young female who’s missing half of one of her arms. Halfway through the recording a small title pops up on the bottom of the screen reading, “BIID” which stands for body identity integrity disorder. Which is a disorder that has been debated whether it be neurological or psychological. Essentially what happens during this is the brain doesn’t recognize a limb as it’s own even if it’s a healthy and functioning limb. The patient will have extreme discomfort with the limb and seek to remove it.

However Barbie AVI did not in fact have BIID. As it turns out the female in the video was named Tammy. She had a washing machine accident at 14 that costed her an arm.

4: Agamemnon Counterpart

A creepy, very choppy video of an animated figure went viral for it’s strangeness. Many people speculated on what it could mean or how they should interpret it, believing it had hidden messages. Once again a disappointing let down when the internet came to find the video was uploaded by two film students: Micheal Robinson and Jason Kavoc who were going to turn it in as a project.

5: Sitting and Smiling

Constant uploads of 5+ hour videos of a man sitting on the floor and staring directly into the camera surfaced. Not once did he move or react to anything around him. He had urinated on himself in one video, somebody even at one point broke into his home but he never once broke. The internet went wild. Yet these videos were not sinister or harmful. Created by Benjamin Bennett this was all an endurance act. He has since done public speaking and interviews on his performance

Before I begin I can’t show any photos, I’ve tried to in the past and both posts including skin were banned so I apologize for the inconvenience and I’ll try my best to describe the stages in immense detail.

Also these are only the biggest changes, the most noticeable, with each category there’s subchanges such as a waxy appearance within the first stage of decomposing and the blueish purple tint when blood firsts settles.

FIRST CHANGE

Livor mortis: after death blood settles. Mostly it will be dragged down to the lowest part of the body, causing the areas closer to the ground to be a dark purple, blue. However the higher parts of the body will still have blood that settles in the arteries and veins, giving the skin a light red color. With this being said any skin touching something will have a lighter, almost yellow appearance. So say the cadaver is laying on their bacuk. Any part of the back touching the ground will have a yellow/orange tint while everything around that area will have the dark purple/blue appearance. If they’re wearing a tight belt the detailing of the belt that was pressed into the skin will be the yellow/orange while everything else is red/pink.

SECOND CHANGE

bloating stage: During the bloating stage the skin will turn green (as we’ve talked about before) it’s a sort of forest, dark green with splotches of black mixed in. This is due to the body releasing gas. It fills inside the cavities of the bodies and comes up onto the skin as fluid-filled blisters. The gases react with hemoglobin (a substance in red blood cells) that cause the veins to turn green which causes the tinting of the skin. This stage is also sometimes referred to as the “marbling”

THIRD CHANGE:

skin detachment: in the very late stages of decomposition after most has already departed the skin will turn into a jet black color and become extremely frail and easy to tear away. At this point the skin is no longer attached to the body.

FOURTH CHANGE:

Since we’ve last spoke about this on my page Little had only been linked to 9 other cases and my number of confessions was “90+”

Present day he’s confessed to 93, been convicted of 8, meaning 5 more have been confirmed that the killer was him and 61 more cases have been linked to him.

Some of his confirmed victims are

Mary Jo Peyton

Rose Evans

Little, although having killed these women decades ago, has drawn accurate portraits of their faces and gave gruesome details of the events that took place. One quote being, “I killed her right there.”

(Rant section)

Hara’s abuser (Choi Jong Bum)

Injuries inflicted by Mr. Bum, posted by Hara

Recently K-pop star Goo Hara was found dead in her home in Seoul, South Korea at only 28 years old.

Earlier in the year, around May Hara attempted suicide but surived.

It’s highly suspected that the attempt is related to Choi Jung Bum, her ex boyfriend. Bum had abused Hara sexually, mentally and physically. Injuries inflicted in photo above. He had also threatened to release a sex tape of the two; which is what people believe caused her to attempt suicide.

Along with this she had multiple live streams crying, however I don’t understand Korean so I’m not sure what the livestream was about. I deeply apologize.

It’s not yet confirmed whether the death was a suicide or not but that is what her fans are assuming it was.

Since the tragedy fans have created multiple hashtags (#justiceforhara) because her abuser is still not in prison for the crimes he committed against her. The investigation is still ongoing it seems.