anandamide supplement (anaquell qr): this was like.... moderately helpful for my anxiety and executive function but not so helpful that i can discount the idea that it was just 100% placebo. took without adding the triple omega for like two days before getting impatient lol. can't recommend in good faith.

omegas 3, 6, and 9 (nature made triple omega): i took my first dose motzei shabbos & when i woke up on sunday my fibro symptoms were more or less gone. like, GONE gone. i didn't stop taking the anaquell until today but it seems like the triple omega alone is what's doing it. my anxiety/overreactivity issues are nearly gone, my cognitive function has improved immensely, and i'm only fatigued when there's something identifiably wrong with my body. on that last note, interoception is WAY up.... and there is, in fact, so much specifically identifiably wrong with my body all the time. i already knew that my joints are hypermobile and that i need a ton of water and electrolytes or i will die, but now 1) i'm experiencing these as isolated problems that i can reliably identify and 2) these have become much more serious issues as i now have enough physical and cognitive energy to do things all day! so i'm basically adjusting to actually managing conditions that i considered minor/background problems in the past. and also presumably my muscles are going to take a while to catch up to all this too, if it lasts.

i'm actually really REALLY frustrated i didn't try this earlier bc i had a similarly immediate and extraordinary response to fish oil supplements all the way back in high school, but then my body stopped tolerating it and i just.... gave up? (this one is olive, flaxseed, and safflower oil.) i guess at the time the adults watching this happen didn't really believe me that i was basically better from a single supplement and didn't encourage me to find other sources of omega 3 or whatever instead of pushing more unhelpful psych meds, and i guess at a certain point i figured it was some weird fluke anyway. but it's hard not to kick myself for not trying it again sooner. but i'm trying not to dwell on it & instead go have fun with my friends instead, bc i can do that now & it's so fun!