a million contradictions.

Me: *looks up from the book and immediately gets zapped into reality*

He starts off as a literal heartless person. Everything is a game to him. Nothing really matters. It's all fun and games. No matter how twisted they are.

He gave up his heart for immortality. Period. He lived centuries of nothingness and passing fancies. He wasn't capable of even loving his own brother. His own brother who loved him so much, he was willing to stay by his side through it all. Even fully being aware that his own brother could not love him back.

Julian is the ultimate brother mvp. He believed in Legend when no one else did. He believed in the goodness of his brother that was always there.

Legend never planned to change his selfish behavior, until he met Tella. Until that fateful day he received a letter from her. A girl so desperate for passion, adventure, and escape from her abusive father. He wasn't fully aware of why he entertained her, or why he was drawn to her.

By the fates, he fought and fought but he ended up falling in love with Tella. Not his previous twisted version of love. Not the twisted version of the fates.

True love.

And in falling in love he knew. He knew what he'd lose. All the power, all the riches, all of it. Legend loved Tella so much that by the end, he sacrificed his power for true love. Legend loved Tella, and that was that. He wanted to live a life of adventure with her. Legend could no longer see a life where Tella wasn't there by his side, and that is beautiful.

THE PROBLEM WITH WANTING

Eric didn’t allow two psychopathic V-addicts to beat the shit out of Sookie so he could pretend to be a hero and use the situation to drug her with his blood and manipulate her into falling in love with him. Bill did.

Eric didn’t spend 3 seasons gaslighting Sookie into believing that he was a wonderful boyfriend who would protect her. Bill did.

Eric wasn’t the one who consistently kept secrets from Sookie for self-serving reasons and then tried to pretend he was doing it to protect her. Bill did.

Eric wasn’t the one who tried to force himself on Sookie in a graveyard days after he had her beaten to death and put her under the influence of his blood. That was all Bill.

Eric isn’t the one who tried to start a civil war between vampires and humans for extremely selfish reasons. Bill did.

Eric isn’t the one who cared about getting credit for saving the vampires from the concentration camps in season 6. Bill did, and even wrote a book about it because he had to have the limelight on him.

Bill is the one who tried to target Jason (Sookie’s brother) on several different occasions, including bullying Jessica into trying to turn Jason into a vampire without his consent, and later siccing the Authority guards on Jason to kill him. By contrast, Eric helped save Jason’s life on THREE different occasions, and two of those were AFTER Sookie broke up with him.

Bill is the one who has to convince everyone that he’s a wonderful person. Eric doesn’t care how he’s perceived.

Bill always has to find someone or something to blame for how he acts. Eric is able to own up to his behavior without having to justify it.

Bill is the one who left Tara to be raped to death by Franklin at Russell’s mansion despite having an opportunity to save her. Eric is the one who told Nora to treat Tara like she’s family.

Bill is the one who kept murdering people as he climbed the ladder of power. Eric was content with just being sheriff, and looked at the Authority and AVL with contempt.

Eric is the one who actually listened to Sookie and let her make her own decisions. Bill is the one who kept insisting he knew what was best for Sookie, and that attitude did not change by the end of the show.

Eric had integrity. Bill did not.

“He was spring, golden and bright. Envious Death would drink his blood, and grow young again” The Song of Achilles

The Song of Achilles Playlist

"I would know him in death, at the end of the world."

achilles come down - gang of youths; work song - hozier; young god - halsey; what a heavenly way to die - troye sivan; fine line - harry styles; sunlight - hozier; iris - the goo goo dolls; the lakes - the long pond studio sessions - taylor swift; oblivion - bastille; would that i - hozier; sky full of song - florence + the machine; hold back the river - james bay; good old-fashioned lover boy - queen; august - taylor swift; high hopes - kodaline; greek tragedy - the wombats; me and my husband - mitski; somewhere only we know - keane; yellow - coldplay; liability - lorde; love of my life - queen; as the world caves in - matt maltese