I don't think I'm unlovable or anything stupid like that but I do think that basically no one who doesn't know me pretty well would take a chance on me which functionally makes me unlovable given the way my life works

Can't sleep so I'm just reading old messages to remember what it felt like to feel like I was important to someone and it's kind of making me die inside

I want to be a real person so badly

I'm so insanely behind on core experiences I'm actually just a fucking alien

We cringe on tho

Isolation has definitely done some psychological damage and the extent of which I think means that even if anyone did want me I wouldn't be able to hold anything down

I think I may now actually be undatable