Careful Creatures

The last few weeks i’ve felt like shit abotu myself. I go to school and enjoy most of my classes but i’m struggling and i just dont feel like i care but i should bc its my future and i’m paying or this and i’m putting it all to waste. I’m waste full with food and items and money and i just feel like a selfish person and i just havent been happy with myself recently. i cry so much now, i never used to cry. i keep hurting people i keep hurting my parents and bosses and sometimes my friends bc i dont follow through or i lie i hate lying to my parents and bosses but it alwasy happens and it makes me feel like garbage. i just feel like a piece of shit and i feel bad for jason bc he has to deal with all my shit and i can see it affecting him sometimes and i shouldnt be makin ghim anything but happy and sometimes i dont think he knows how to make me feel better bc i dont know how to make me feel better. i havent been sleeping right or taking care of myself as i probably should, i dont know man i just kinda hate myself, ya know

So I guess I have a thing for old towels bc I went to use one to find my parents had thrown it out made me.. Sad? It's just a towel so idk

I just need someone to go get ice cream with I like doing that

I've been having crazy dreams and I hope they continue tonight