♡ Une Belle Âme ♡

Beyond even that, the edges of the universe is nearer than the edges of your beauty - eUe

"My head is like a circus, I can't find my way out.. I am going insane and I'm afraid to look down. I'm afraid that I'll hit the water and you will leave me to drown.. we all float down here except me, so says pennywise the clown."

This is not who I want to be. What happened to the real me. Am I hidden away, Under lock and key, Or am I just going crazy.

Looking in the mirror all I see, Is a stranger staring at me. Speaking with my lips, Using my hands; fully in control. Doesn’t anyone hear me calling out.

Why can’t you see the lost little girl, Watching her life be over run, From behind the scenes. Oh won’t anyone see through my eyes, Way down deep, To the very center of my being.

To discover that I’m trapped, Trapped inside my own head. I try to scream, But my life on the big screen Is louder than it seems.

Searching for a way out, But I’ve been here for too many years. I have no friends, no family, They’re all just in a hazy stream, Flowing by without noticing me.

Why did I lock myself in here, All alone and oh so cold, I never should have thrown that key Down that fiery hole, I could have carried it’s toll.

Wishing for change, Doesn’t make it so, But oh I can’t do this, Not all on my own, But how could anyone help, If they don’t even know.

So many voices yelling at me, Each trying to be louder than the rest, Each cooing for my attention, For me to listen to them instead, The voices each tugging me into a different direction, Slowly but surely, Ripping me apart Piece by piece.

Always searching for reasons to be angry, For reasons to keep going like this, Avoiding the escape I so desperately crave. Arguing and picking fights Trying to push away the ones I love, Seeking the comfort of strangers Who could disappear at any time.

This is not who I want to be. This isn’t the real me. Locked away and crazy, I can’t even recognize my own face And I don’t even know my own name, My memories Are fading faster by the day. New ones don’t even bother to take there place, I’m just an empty shell. Don’t attempt to look, You’ll find nothing there.

This is not who I want to be. What happened to the real me. Am I hidden away, Under lock and key, Or am I just going crazy.

Looking in the mirror all I see, Is a stranger staring at me. Speaking with my lips, Using my hands; fully in control. Doesn’t anyone hear me calling out.

Why can’t you see the lost little girl, Watching her life be over run, From behind the scenes. Oh won’t anyone see through my eyes, Way down deep, To the very center of my being.

To discover that I’m trapped, Trapped inside my own head. I try to scream, But my life on the big screen Is louder than it seems.

Searching for a way out, But I’ve been here for too many years. I have no friends, no family, They’re all just in a hazy stream, Flowing by without noticing me.

Why did I lock myself in here, All alone and oh so cold, I never should have thrown that key Down that fiery hole, I could have carried it’s toll.

Wishing for change, Doesn’t make it so, But oh I can’t do this, Not all on my own, But how could anyone help, If they don’t even know.

So many voices yelling at me, Each trying to be louder than the rest, Each cooing for my attention, For me to listen to them instead, The voices each tugging me into a different direction, Slowly but surely, Ripping me apart Piece by piece.

Always searching for reasons to be angry, For reasons to keep going like this, Avoiding the escape I so desperately crave. Arguing and picking fights Trying to push away the ones I love, Seeking the comfort of strangers Who could disappear at any time.

This is not who I want to be. This isn’t the real me. Locked away and crazy, I can’t even recognize my own face And I don’t even know my own name, My memories Are fading faster by the day. New ones don’t even bother to take there place, I’m just an empty shell. Don’t attempt to look, You’ll find nothing there.

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