I know you can't answer back but I want to vent to you. I can't help but feel like I am drowning. I am drowning in everything that people expect me to be and have done. I am drowning in the constant talk about me behind my back. I am drowning in the self hate I have for myself for letting this get to me. For letting myself overthink everything. For wanting to cut people out of my life but then turning around and wanting to know why they don't like me. For caring why people don't like me. For always wanting to please everyone and not just be my fucking self. I am suffocating in the stress. I just want to stay in my room all day. I have no motivation to do anything anymore. I am so behind in school because I literally cannot concentrate on anything right now. I think that I have everything under control and then turn around and have something else pop up. I literally cry myself to sleep all the time and I hate it. I hate being this person. I hate that I have lost myself and I don't know how to get her back. Sooo sorry for venting.
