Folly

im so fucking done i still had fever yesterday and my moms forcing me to go to school today and she kept coming in my room next to me yelling when my head was hurting so I yelled back stop yelling after asking ehr not to like three times and she came and hit me im so fucking done bro. I wanted to drop out last year and I dodnr bc I didnt wanna disappoint her but im burnt out andnim failing and im probably not gonna pass and im just done. Then she said she'd come into my room and throw out everything because ive literly been to depressed and burntnout to clean.. but no your just a high-schooler in your last year of high-school you have nothing to be burnt out about or stressed its totally not loek your aunt died infornt of you 4 years ago and you havent had enough free time to process it while she got 8 fucking months off work. I just wanna die atp there nothing for me in this life.

Yk like 90% of what I do is bc im scared of death and pain, being forgotten and not existing, im nice to people because I dont wanna be forgotten and left alone, and I want to make the world a better place so il be written doen in the history book snd never forgotten yk? Who i am what I did and my essentially was care about other but the darkest depths of that was the fear of being left out, I dont feel like i fit in anywhere im just an oddball in a puzzle I cant even partially fit in and I want to die but im scared of the pain and I want to die because of the pain so why would i cause myself more pain and I dont want anyone else to go through what I went though and feel how i feel so I should fix the world for them right? Yeah I shojld but jve done so much thing others deemed bad what if I get hated on when I go out and try fk fix the world snd then I jsur get shut down snd turned into an evil villain I guess j should stay low and not do anything then right? But then others will feel like me and ugh idk, and now I need to get my grades better so I can actually pass and do good snd stuff and keep moving forward but there's two months left and jm failing 3 classes and my heads gonna explode by why is there so much iwan of due but I cant even do anything bc im so over wheeled at the thiugh of even going to school

Silly cat I drew bc my friend said I could draw better then them (its a stuffie not a dead and stitched cat TvT)

Mbb I ve been gone hope your doing better

Hi, mb for replying to this so much later ive barly been on here, fyi this was sent in February-, ive kinda been dead on the inside cause of school and burnt out hut i am here