Feature Story: Endless: Is there really a thing called FOREVER?
My Feature Story for CvSU-B The Gateway! :)
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“Why of all people, did it have to be you? Why can loving a person be so painful?” one of those famous dialogue from someone who has undergone a break up. Hashtag moving on. I’ve used famous lines from Laida Magtalas even Ginny Gonzales’ lines but nothing seems possible just to keep the fire burning. My friends were happy celebrating their anniversaries, monthsaries, some are getting married and I, I was watching “One More Chance” and feeling sorry for Basha’s decisions.
I thought I had recovered from the meltdowns I had months ago, and it’s now time again for Valentine’s Day. It’s amazing that there would be no fancy date, movie bonding, flowers, chocolates nor harana on that day. That’s why I turned back and ask; “may forever nga ka kaya?” Is there really a forever? There are different answers, for someone who has been dumped, cheated and hurt. I think there is none and for those who were in love, I think there is. But what is the truth about that forever? Is it just for relationship towards the opposite sex? Or do I just really have that wrong perception of what forever is?
They say that if it’s meant to be, it will be. If he’s destined for you, he will come back to you. But why do I feel this way? I feel like I am dying, I can’t help but to feel bad and sorry for myself. I’ve invested a lot--- my time, my effort, my love, everything. I planned about everything; I’ve organized things, put things in order, I expected a lot but in the end I walk away with just empty spaces and memories.
I remember I asked God to heal me. But after several months of not being healed, I changed my prayer. “Lord, if this is what you want and if this feeling will draw me closer to you, then challenge accepted. Your will be done! I have accepted it, finally! No more pity moments and praning moments! From then, I’ve realized that God works in mysterious ways, we cannot change His ways nor His decisions cause we have to accept it. Now I can say, there is really forever. I’ve grown stronger. I met people. I appreciated little things and know who are there for me; those people who will never left me hanging. I’ve realized that forever is not just about love towards opposite sex and relationships; but it is about your own perception and definition. It doesn’t matter how much you’ve been hurt or what happened in your past.
Forever is a word; forever is something that doesn’t end, it is always possible to have forever. Forever in love: for your family, friends and God. Forever is something what you have to keep, you have to take care of, something that you need to give time, give importance with no limits and boundaries. Simply forever is found in yourself and in your heart. Never stop loving and never stop learning. There is really forever as long as you believe that there is. So be happy and find forever! Now I know, what forever is and I won’t give up finding it... And to you, who’s reading this be better, not bitter! Find forever in your own way and means! Spread the love! Happy Valentines to you!
sa nagsabing "Somehow, Someday!" Thank you po! hihintayin ko yan! and thanks din to those people na naging inspiration ko sa pag sulat neto. Alam niyo na yan! (Cathy, Poleng, Shann, Ping, JB, PMM, JW, KOA M2, Sa mga kasama ko sa bahay, aso namin at pusa) apir sainyong lahat!
