「 ✦ Aleix ✦ 」

˚˖𓍢ִ໋❀ Aleix — 16, sacrificial lamb, he/him, mlm

₊‧°𐐪♡𐑂°‧₊ tw sh/ed/sa/tc content

ᯓᡣ𐭩 just a lil guy with issues

At a point where i audibly go STOP whenever somebody texts me bc i am so irritated and just want to ve left alone

So traumatized that a person telling me they have "a funny secret" is enough for mh heart to go 120bpm and for me to have a panic attack

This is so random but ehatever

I just...i really want a family one day

Like a husband, kids, a dog, a white picket fence, that whole shebang you know

Like for years i thought i was so above the whole...family fantasy, but ive been wanting it so bad

Like having a little kid call me dad, getting to watch them grow up, getting to be there for them through it all, getting to send them off to school each morning, put them to bed at night, kissing scraped knees better, teaching them everything i know

That whole thing

Ive been having dreams of having a family and then i always end up crying when i wake up and realize it was a dream

Like...i used to always insist that i would never have a husband, never have kids

And now im sitting here and realizing that i really, really want that

I want someone who is mine, who wears a ring on their finger that promises they will stay, who said their vows to me at the altar

Idk

Chat do we think i have. Apriblem if ive been drunk 14 times in 14 days

Drunk and angsty, p3rfect foe somebdou to hurt me

I hate how he thinks he knows everything

Leave me alone, you have no fucking clue

You dont see into my brain, you dont fucking know me, leave me alone

"I know youre not telling me everything"

BECAUSE YOU COULDN'T FUCKING HANDLE IT AND I DONT WANT YOU TO KNOW

I hate this

I hate myself

I hate myself so bad. Why can't someone just love me? I want to be loved so bad

I feel obnoxiously empty inside

I always need to listen to sad music or read angst to feel like I'm allowed to cry

Otherwise the tears just refuse to come