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marauders fanfic and oc-related content (-> I took a sprinkle of canon and ran with it, and by canon I mostly mean names)

Original Character: Belshazzar Crouch (masterlist under the cut)

ao3 | currently working on:

The Sin That Binds Us All

My Dearest Enemy

microfics under the tag multa paucis

minors proceed at your own risk.

Evan Rosier

overstimulation: Overstimulation places Evan in a dissociative state similar to non-existence. An overstimulated mind is limited to only its most basic function: survival. In a way, this disconnection from his own wants and needs is a callback to how he has been raised: less than a ghost in his home with no room for his own desires. Evan finds comfort in the familiarity of non-existence and liberation in the reduction to nothing but the functions of survival. The toeing the line between life and death is the inherent source of his pleasure, which is a recurring theme when it comes to Evan not only as a character, but also in Evan and his kinks. Freedom is the one thing he values most, and death or the act of dying is, in his opinion, the highest form of freedom a person can ever achieve.

cum/breeding: Growing up, he had nothing to his name. All his clothes, books, and toys first belonged to Pandora. His twin sister aside, no one cared for him either. He was never asked his opinions or questioned his ideals. His dreams and desires did not matter. Therefore, being seen and acknowledged speaks to him in ways hardly anything else can. Signs and physical tokens of appreciation and belonging are quite important to him, since it is his proof that he is, in fact, more than just an obscure presence; that he, too, matters. Cum, in this context, does count as such a token of belonging, and it is one in the most intimate way possible. It is a piece of someone else offered out to him as a keepsake, even if only temporarily; something no one else gets to have, albeit only for the moment of the act itself. Pregnancy follows a similar logic, but due to the dysphoria this alone would cause, Evan only gets off to the idea of it. He would never willingly allow anyone to get him pregnant.

medical/scientifical: As stated before, Evan, too, has sadistic tendencies, even if they appear to be more subtle than Barty's. Medical play is the kink in which the physical side of his sadism is most pronounced. It requires both precision and anatomical or medical understanding to perform such acts without causing lasting damage, and Evan is a man of both precision and science. Amongst other things, the former is visible in his style of combat. His scientific nature is neither as ambitious nor as prominent as it is in Pandora, yet he still harbours a certain fascination. He, too, wants to test limits: how much a body is able to endure, the cause and effect of action and sensation, and the general interplay of muscle, nerve, and flesh. This is closely tied to his obsession with one's own mortality. His sadism is satisfied with this kink, because it comes with a certain display of power: his opposite is surrendering themselves to his care, and the trust in his abilities. One wrong move, and it could be over. Once again, the line between life and death, existence and non-existence, is being toed. There are risks, and therefore thrill and tension. In the meantime, the medical setting provides a clean and sterile environment that allows Evan to fully detach from his emotions (which, in turn, provides him with a certain kind of liberty and freedom) and lean into a sort of pseudo-professionalism while his opposite is fully dependent on him. This dependence, and the imbalance of power it involves, is also confirmation of his existence and the impact of such; another token, essentially.

punishment/edging: Even though he can find enjoyment in the infliction of physical pain on others, Evan is more of an emotional sadist overall; he loves the idea of people courting his favour, proving how much he means to them, especially if the people in question are his (ex-)boyfriends, and then watching them beg and writhe when he denies them. Since his sadism is less physical (although he is not above physical violence, as mentioned), his punishments are often dealt out in the form of edging or other kinds of deprivation. Once again, his partners are dependent on him and his benevolence.

breathplay: This is another manifestation of being tethered to the edge of death as Evan's inherent source of pleasure. Whether or not he is the one at the giving or receiving end of the kink does not particularly matter to him. Being stillborn at first, Evan grew up with the taste of death in his mouth, which he has been chasing ever since. Keeping in mind his curious and scientific nature, he is obsessed with noting and observing the effects in others, while he, as the receiver, is being transported back to his very beginning. Albeit subconsciously, this is what he, as a character, always reverts to: death and freedom, which can be mimicked by a ghost-like, non-existent state.

I'm going to start off this list by once again saying that rosekiller's kink list is far longer than their non-kink list. There is nothing they haven't already tried or are above trying. Yes, this goes for feet and toe sucking, too, but since I'd rather die than ever write that, we won't discuss it further. The kinks I am about to name are the kinks I'd consider their primary ones (in no particular order).

Barty Crouch Jnr

roleplay: Barty is an extraordinary liar, an excellent actor, and, above all, a master manipulator. He's constantly slipping into different roles to gain an advantage for himself, so, naturally, he's a prodigy in pretending to be someone he isn't. What gets him off about this is the position of power this lands him in. He can lead people, exploit the fantasy they have made of him, all the while turning around and mocking them behind their backs. Obviously, he doesn't need to pretend with Evan — he knows him too well for that. Still, the initial kicker of pretence remains, which is why roleplay is one of Barty's primary kinks.

sensory deprivation (bondage/muzzle): He's a thrill chaser. Everything he does, he does with a sort of recklessness and carelessness for his own life and those of others. Having to give up one of his senses — may it be sight, smell, touch, hearing, a combination of some or all — is linked to exactly that: thrill. It leaves him uncertain, disoriented, alert, and not knowing what to expect. This kind of helplessness and vulnerability excites and arouses him, especially keeping in mind Evan's sadistic tendencies. He could either be mean and violent or soft and gentle. The possibilities are endless and not calculable. Being gagged, bound, and muzzled also reduces Barty to nothing but something primal and simple: an animal, or, more specifically, a dog. Like that, he has no other choice but to hand over the reins. He's surrendering himself to Evan, which goes hand in hand with Barty's inward desires to be controlled and cared for: a holdover from the emotional neglect he had faced in his past.

primal: This, too, has its roots in Barty's violent and animalistic nature. Contrary to sensory deprivation, he is not surrendering, but fully leaning into those destructive urges which would get him shunned and abhorred under different circumstances. Naturally, he never intended to be the law-abiding citizen — he'd see no use in that — but there is, nonetheless, a limit to how much he can test and challenge the framework of societal rules before it ends in death. The primal kink gives Barty room to be his most authentic self without having to bend himself to societal norms and/or structures. With Evan, he not only found someone accepting those violent urges, but an equal who matches his violence and thrill for the hunt.

cnc/free use: The reasoning behind this one is the same as with his primal kink, but with the additional focus on Barty's hypersexuality. Sex is, in a sense, one of his outlets. Denied the opportunity, he'll be unbearable and a threat to everyone around him, which is why free use and cnc (primarily in the form of consensual somnophilia) is the easiest and cheapest way to get his fix without causing additional harm to others.