Virgin Sacrifice

[desperately horny voice] haha yeah did you know that studies have shown that vocal expressions of pain actually increase your pain tolerance? yeah, even if it's volitional, you should really be making lots of loud noises while you're in pain. please. if you want we can even practice right now.

being trained is so unbelievably hot. When I get a little conscious of the fact that I didn’t necessarily choose to do that behavior, when I realize I did it without even really remembering, when I realize that you’re firmly in my head piloting me… I can’t even finish the thought tis too much

(me flirting) are you thinking of hurting yourself or others?

I lied I don't have Netflix we're pressing on each other's bruises until someone taps out

last year i got dismembered badly and they hid all of my limbs from me and i’m slowly finding them one by one

I think the hottest part of "free use" type stuff to me isn't really the CNC aspects of it so much as the objectification aspects of it, and towards that, I think a particular dynamic within it that I really enjoy is the "interrupting someone talking in order to use their mouth". The idea that the subject's mouth is more valuable for gratification than it is for communication. It's demeaning in a way I really enjoy. The specific moment of it. I like the nonchalance you can work into it. Casual, not even special. Simply an expressed preference. A choice of priority. One need over another. Anyway I haven't fingered someone's mouth while rambling about kink to them in like a month and it's beginning to get to me.

It'd be really cool if I could do the whole 'challenge you to a game to learn what kind of person you are' bit. But in my experience people usually enter a pretty different mindspace when playing games. Some people have strong enough senses of identity to be consistent even in gameplay, but you don't really need gameplay to scope them out. I mean, you can use the gameplay to check exactly how strong that sense of identity is. If someone will sacrifice talent for cohesion is useful. But mostly when you play games with someone, you just see how they play games. Worse, you see whoever taught them the games. You see past mentors and past contexts and past conflicts. You see disheartening experiences, secondhand hyperfixations, and how well they deal with boredom. Which is all useful if you want to compile a complete profile on someone, which I usually do. But it's not good for if you're just getting to meet them. It's a pretty bad early impression, at least for me. Which sucks because "care to play a game during which I'll learn essential truths about you from your gameplay" is really quite hot.

I mean, not *all* pain arouses me. Just like, either pain that I directly caused. Or pain that's sufficiently artistic. Or pain with interesting reactions. But yeah it does make me kinda happy to know you got hurt, when you put it like that, sorry.