exceptional ✧

15: Do you believe in the phrase “age is just a number”?

I really do. I strongly believe that if two person connect romantically and emotionally and share mutual interests and goals, I don’t think age should stop them. Let’s clarify things here, I am not saying that being a 12 year old teenager and a 70 year old man is acceptable. I’m just saying that if it is realistic for two people to connect and love each other without authority, without any bad intentions, they should go for it!

21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?

I might be the worst example for this, because I am not friends with people I dated. However, I do think that it might be possible in the case the partners just crossed the lines too quickly and realized they’re better as friends or maybe people who dated for a very long time and built a friendship that happens to be stronger than the couple they were.

23: How many relationships have you had?

I’ve had two relationships with people I met through Internet.

This was taken from the list of VALENTINE’S DAY asks. Thank you, anon!

Numbers: 8, 28, 38, 48 & 2, 3, 5, 17 & 13, 19, 50, 32 were already asked, for your information!

13: What’s one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?

Forcing my help on my partner to try and have them get better without them wanting to help themselves. Let me explain: I really wanted my ex to feel better, but I tried not to believe that if she did not want to help herself. I tried so hard to open her eyes and make her realize she only deserved good things, but she clearly was not understanding any of this. I regret doing this. I wasted my time and her time so much just by wanting her to be in a better state of mind instead of giving her time to heal on her own. 

19: How do you know it’s time to end a relationship?

When you have to read everything you write to them, or think of the choice of words you use because every single word has so much meaning, that you never know if they will understand it correctly or think you’re insulting them. Also, when you get anxious whenever you get a text from them, knowing you don’t have enough strength to get in a feud again. 

50: If you’re single, why do you think you are?

I am not stable mentally at the moment. I switch from anger to anxiety in a matter of second and this is the worst thing to put someone through. And even if a person would come to me saying that they know their limits and would be able to deal with my issues, I don’t think I am ready to trust someone so deeply again. Things have been rough, lately, and I do feel like opening up to someone is not the right thing. 

32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?

I would say... Maybe? Not abusive in the sense that there was violence (verbally or physically), but abusive in a way in which the atmosphere between them and me was not healthy. My first relationship ended because of lies and because my partner found someone else and only came back to me when they needed some more comfort and the other one was just... Not healthy. There were a lot of bad communication, threaths and fights. I don’t know enough about abusive relationships to claim mines have been so. But I know enough about my experience to say it was not optimal. 

This was taken from the list of VALENTINE’S DAY asks. Thank you for sending those, anon’! 

2: Have you ever been deeply in love?

I think I have. I have loved a person very much to the point I did not even care about my own mental health just to make sure this person would feel better. This love has definitely been deep, but I hope I will be lucky enough to experience something even deeper, better and healthier. 

3: Longest relationship you’ve ever been in?

11 months. 

5: How is your relationship with your ex?

If someone is reading this and has been following my blog for a couple of months, you might remember the hateful asks I received? Well, this is your answer. 

17: Do you believe it’s possible to fall in love on the internet?

I do. I have fallen in love twice and I do believe that it is possible to find someone you connect on a different level than the people you are surrounded with. Unfortunately, both of my experiences have ended badly, but I still believe that life is not always easy. I mean, it won’t always put the person you’re meant to be right in front of you, or else everything would just be too easy breezy. And someitmes, this ideal partner sadly lives in another country. 

8:Would you date someone who’s well known for cheating?

I don’t really know, but immediately, I would say no. If they are known for cheating, maybe it is true that they are afraid of committement and I would need someone to stay by my sides, not dump me at the first occasion for someone better only to crawl back in my arms while crying fake apologies. However, if this person proves that they can be faithful and that the past is in the past, well my opinion might change!

28:Do you think long distance relationships can work?

Sincerely? Yes. I do believe that they can work if the two partners are committed and believe in their relationship and have trust for one another. Distance can become an issue, but if you manage to take care of your couple and your partner, I think it can only be successful!

38:Do you enjoy love films?

I would say that I do, but it depends on the movie. If the whole script is more than about forcing two characters together without any plot around of minor storylines to support the main idea, in this case I’m out.

48:What’s your favorite love song?

I almost psychoanalyzed myself to find the appropriate love song. This is almost fun! No jokes, I think I would go with One, by U2. I absolutely love this song and my father told me he used to sing this a lot to my mother, so it just brings out a lot of love memories. Of course, if you put A Thousand Times by Christina Perri, I will sing my heart out, but those are minor details.

Thank you so much for sending these, darling! 

1: Do you have a crush at the moment?

2: Have you ever been deeply in love?

3: Longest relationship you've ever been in?

4: Have you ever changed for someone?

5: How is your relationship with your ex?

6: Have you ever been cheated on?

7: Have you ever cheated?

8: Would you date someone who's well known for cheating?

9: What's the most important part of a relationship?

10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?

11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on "breaks"?

12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?

13: What's one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?

14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?

15: Do you believe in the phrase "age is just a number"?

16: Do you believe in "love at first sight"?

17: Do you believe it's possible to fall in love on the internet?

18: What do you consider a deal breaker?

19: How do you know it's time to end a relationship?

20: Are you currently in a relationship?

21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?

22: Do you think people should date their friends?

23: How many relationships have you had?

24: Do you think love can last forever?

25: Do you believe love can conquer all things?

26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn't approve of?

27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?

28: Do you think long distance relationships can work?

29: What do you notice first about another person?

30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?

31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?

32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?

33: Do you want to get married one day?

34: What do you think about getting your partner's name tattooed?

35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?

36: Are you still a virgin?

37: What's more important: Looks or personality?

38: Do you enjoy love films?

39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses?

40: Have you ever had a valentine?

41: What's your imagination of a "perfect date"?

42: Have you ever read "Romeo & Juliet"?

43: What's more important: Your partner or your friends?

44: Would you consider yourself "romantic"?

45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?

46: Have you ever been "friendzoned"?

47: Which "famous couple" is your favorite?

48: What's your favorite love song?

49: Have you ever broken someone's heart?

50: If you're single, why do you think you are?

51: Would you rather date someone who's rich but a douchebag or someone who's poor but a nice guy?

52: Are you good at giving other people advices regarding dating/ relationships?

53: Are you jealous of couples when you're single?

54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on facebook)?

55: Would you consider yourself "clingy", "overly attached" or "jealous"?

56: Have you ever "destroyed" a relationship?

57: Do you think it's silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?

58: Are you the "dominant" or the "submissive" part in a relationship?

59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner's birthday or your anniversary?

60: What's your opinion on open relationships?

61: Who's more important: Your partner or your family?

62: How do you define "cheating"?

63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?

64: Do you think Valentine's Day is overrated?

[Text] I'm sorry, okay? An apology is what you wanted, right?

[Text] This is going to sound a little strange, but what's the best way to get blood stains out of clothes?

[Text] We need to talk. Call me.

[Text] Can you come pick me up? May have been drinking and may have also punched out a guy for talking shit.

[Text] I know it's late. Come meet me at the beach.

[Text] Where do you hide your spare key?

[Text] Are you seriously standing me up or are you really that late?

[Text] Help, I'm alone in a crowd and trying to look cool by texting you.

[Text] Wanna go on a coffee run for me?

[Text] I am never drinking that much again.

[Text] I'm pretty sure I left my underwear at your place.

[Text] I... think you sent that to the wrong person.

[Text] Shit, don't open that. I sent that to the wrong person.

[Text] Give me one more chance.

[Text] Come get Taco Bell with me. No, I don't care that it's three in the morning, I'm already outside your place.

[Text] Where are you? And why do you never tell me where you're going?

[Text] Saw VII or Paranormal Activity 4?

[Text] Report to my bedroom immediately for snuggles.

I am sort of proud of the challenges I am facing lately. I will host two study groups for a history class, deal with tutoring and the final class of my program as well as doing a conference/lecture in front of my entire program alongside my teammates in six weeks. And I might finally apply for university to be one step closer to what I have always dreamed of doing. It is the hardest moment I have experienced, with the confusion, questioning and anxiety, but maybe there is light at the end of the tunnel? I say this, but watch out for tomorrow. I will feel like dying again. Fun!

adenoidal: if someone’s voice is adenoidal, some of the sound seems to come through their nose

appealing: an appealing look, voice etc shows that you want help, approval, or agreement

breathy: with loud breathing noises

brittle: if you speak in a brittle voice, you sound as if you are about to cry

croaky: if someone’s voice sounds croaky, they speak in a low rough voice that sounds as if they have a sore throat

dead: if someone’s eyes are dead, or if their voice is dead, they feel or show no emotion

disembodied: a disembodied voice comes from someone who you cannot see

flat: spoken in a voice that does not go up and down. This word is often used for describing the speech of people from a particular region.

fruity: a fruity voice or laugh is deep and strong in a pleasant way

grating: a grating voice, laugh, or sound is unpleasant and annoying

gravelly: a gravelly voice sounds low and rough

gruff: a gruff voice has a rough low sound

guttural: a guttural sound is deep and made at the back of your throat

high-pitched: a high-pitched voice or sound is very high

hoarse: someone who is hoarse or has a hoarse voice speaks in a low rough voice, usually because their throat is sore

honeyed: honeyed words or a honeyed voice sound very nice but you cannot trust the person who is speaking

husky: a husky voice is deep and sounds hoarse (=as if you have a sore throat), often in an attractive way

low adjective: a low voice or sound is quiet and difficult to hear

low adverb: in a deep voice, or with a deep sound

matter-of-fact: used about someone’s behaviour or voice

modulated: a modulated voice is controlled and pleasant to listen to

monotonous: a monotonous sound or voice is boring and unpleasant because it does not change in loudness or become higher or lower

nasal: someone with a nasal voice sounds as if they are speaking through their nose

orotund: an orotund voice is loud and clear

penetrating: a penetrating voice or sound is so high or loud that it makes you slightly uncomfortable

plummy: a plummy voice or way of speaking is considered to be typical of an English person of a high social class. This word shows that you dislike people who speak like this.

quietly: in a quiet voice

raucous: a raucous voice or noise is loud and sounds rough

ringing: a ringing sound or voice is very loud and clear

rough: a rough voice is not soft and is unpleasant to listen to

shrill: a shrill noise or voice is very loud, high, and unpleasant

silvery: a silvery voice or sound is clear, light, and pleasant

singsong: if you speak in a singsong voice, your voice rises and falls in a musical way

small: a small voice or sound is quiet

smoky: a smoky voice or smoky eyes are sexually attractive in a slightly mysterious way

softly spoken: someone who is softly spoken has a quiet gentle voice

sotto voce adjective, adverb: in a very quiet voice

stentorian: a stentorian voice sounds very loud and severe

strangled: a strangled sound is one that someone stops before they finish making it

strangulated: strangled

strident: a strident voice or sound is loud and unpleasant

taut: used about something such as a voice or expression that shows someone is nervous or angry

thick: if your voice is thick with an emotion, it sounds less clear than usual because of the emotion

thickly: with a low voice that comes mostly from your throat

thin: a thin voice or sound is high and unpleasant to listen to

throaty: a throaty sound is low and seems to come from deep in your throat

tight: a tight voice or expression shows that you are nervous or annoyed

toneless: a toneless voice does not express any emotion

tremulous: if something such as your voice or smile is tremulous, it is not steady, for example because you are afraid or excited

wheezy: a wheezy noise sounds as if it is made by someone who has difficulty breathing

I am guilty of thinking I was somehow protected by the reputation of a peaceful province, even country. But it happened close, to a college I considered applying to. Hate is everywhere and this is sadder than I could ever possible imagine.