pep secret

was about to tell a group of friends that my cat was doing better but she’s had a shitty day again. been on the edge about her health every day for the last at least 60 days with being told by everyone that she would die a few weeks ago but she’s been doing okay and i can’t and won’t do anything drastic because i need to take care of her but on top of all my other shit there are few times if any of my life so far that i’ve been so stressed make it stop make it stop make it stop make it stop make it stop make it stop make it sgop

i just want my cat to be slightly fat and always demanding food again and not needing to make her swallow meds every 8 hours but it will never be the same and she might not even be here anymore next week

i think tonight is my last night with my sweet kitty. i thought we were going to be together for at least another 8 years. i thought we had so much more time.

hearing the nye fireworks going off while my 8 year old cat is dying in hospital is the clearest sign that i’m living in hell

i never made it to see another relative in time before they died so add another casualty to my shattered confidence and personal failures

cops care soooo much about how your rego expired 45 mins ago when they’re not distracted by beating up aboriginal kids and ignoring sexual assault reports

there was a singular ant running around my desk for the last couple days and i think it can’t find its way back to its colony and ive been feeling deeply sad and guilty about my relationship with my family and that has been the thing that pushed my emotions over the edge about it

something fucking weird happened today