sunghoon is deeply, undoubtedly, soul-crushingly, and hopelessly in love with you. he figured once he posered his way into your alternative friend group it'd be smooth sailing, but instead you're tangled up with a frat boy whose embarrassed of the very thing sunghoon faked to court you. as sunghoon has realized, he's now forced to snap you out of your jake-shaped daze and make you really, truly see him as an option.
alternatively, the one where sunghoon wants a goth baddie and has to homewreck to get her
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➛ being a loyalty tester for random men is only helpful when you're texting the right person ;p or in which after being single for years Jake finally sees ray of hope when he receives text from an unknown number.
➛ being a loyalty tester for random men is only helpful when you're texting the right person ;p or in which after being single for years Jake finally sees ray of hope when he receives text from an unknown number.
synopsis: desperate to move on after a harsh break up, you move into a new apartment on the other side of the city. the only issue? you’ll have three male roommates. the other even bigger issue? you’re falling for the one who can’t seem to stand you.
warnings: (one sided) enemies to lovers, based off new girl, heeseung is nonchalant and sometimes mean for no reason, bad attempts at comedy im sorry, opposites attract, past trauma, yeonjun, soobin (txt), yunjin (le sserafim), jake, sunghoon, sunoo, and jungwon (enhypen)
playlist: green light - lorde // actually romantic - taylor swift // house tour - sabrina carpenter // needy - ariana grande
mysterious stranger in my phone -how to pull an idol (a series)
idol!martin x reader
⋆ ִֶָ˖·˳˖When you let a random stranger rant for a whole ten minutes, you not only gain a new favorite band but also a devestating crush. ݁‧₊˚⋆ִֶָ
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.𖥔 ݁ SYNOPSIS . after getting publicly broken up with because of a misspread rumor, you move away to "heal" and "start over". when you come back after months and see your ex and said person—who spread those rumors about you—getting closer each day, you realize maybe you shouldn't have ever come back. and it definitely doesn't help when your ex starts giving you mixed signals about everything.
PAIRING ex!jake x fem!reader
FEATURING aespa ningning, riize shotaro, nct haechan, le sserafim yunjin +enhypen
✎ wc 2.1k
TAGS smau (+written) ; crack ; university au ; lots of miscommunication ; dumbass jake ; cringey moments ; cliche 𝓦 none that I can think of other than suggestive comments?
When you stepped out of your building, with your glasses and with your hair all over your face, you realized that maybe you should’ve cleaned yourself a little bit before walking out. Jay was wearing a jacket with a dark blue hoodie under, clearly freezing his ass off but acting like he wasn’t. His lips trembling said otherwise.
“The weather’s so nice.” You started the conversation as you hit his arm with the rest of your long sleeve, making him chuckle.
“You’re insane.”
You gave him a playful smile, standing beside him. “So…what are you doing here? Not that I’m complaining. When I said you genuinely saved me, you genuinely saved me.” You laughed.
Jay smiled, looking around as he took out his hand from his pocket to scratch his eyebrow. “I’m glad. Your roommate is a bit…no offense, but really unkind. I’m surprised they paired you with her.” He commented, “you’re like, the opposite.”
“It is what it is, isn’t it?” You asked.
He nodded, stepping off on the stairs to start walking. You followed slightly behind, seeing as you had shorter legs than him, and stepped into the actual campus.
“Is it weird living on campus?” Jay asked.
You frowned for a second in thought, then shook your head. “Not really, I only come here to sleep. Most of my time I spent it at work or the library. Or with you, at least recently.” You let out a giggle, making him shyly smile.
“So you hate living on campus?"
“Not necessarily. Just who I’m rooming with, I guess. Which is why I’m definitely taking on that offer about looking at apartments with you as soon as possible.”
Jay hummed in understatement, looking down at how your feet walked in synchronization. “Hey, what if—what if you move into my apartment?” You side-eyed him, making him chuckle shyly. “Not permanently. Just—you know, I have a spare room that my mom uses whenever she comes to visit or when someone needs it, you know? You wouldn’t have to worry about rent or anything.” He suggested, his hands waving in the air nervously.
You smiled at him. “Actually?”
“Yeah, why not? Unless you’re not comfortable. I understand that completely.” He nodded with a flat smile. “Just a suggestion.” He said, giving you a playful shoulder nudge.
“I can’t. You’re already helping me apartment hunting…”
“Well, that’s what good friends are for.” He shrugged casually. “You’re just more special than the others, I guess.” He added with a laugh.
“Special, huh?” You raised an eyebrow teasingly, making him roll his eyes.
“Of course you are.” He said in a much serious tone, making you bite your bottom lip and nod, looking away as the air blew on your face softly. “Anyway, it’s just so you don’t have to deal with your roommate. You can say ‘no’. I can accept rejection.” You snorted a laugh, making him smile. “Damn, didn’t think you’d laugh in my face, though.”
You covered your mouth with your left hand, playfully pushing him away with the right one, making him laugh along as the two of you walked around the corner right outside campus.
Before Jay could speak, his phone buzzed, making him quickly take out his phone from his pocket to glance at it.
“Important?” You asked, sneaking a glance as well but barely seeing anything.
He shook his head, putting the phone back in his back pocket. “Nah.”
You nodded, looking ahead as Jay pointed at the convenience store on the corner street, “Let’s go eat something. My treat.”
“You’re giving me lots of treats lately.” He snorted a laugh, “by next week, I might owe you a total of one million dollars.” You joked.
Jay shook his head as he started walking, looking ahead. “Nonsense. You don’t owe me anything.”
“I beg to differ.”
“All I’m doing is helping you out a little. Don’t think about repaying me or anything, please.” You stared at him, a sigh escaping your lips but no words coming out, making Jay glance at you. “Is something wrong?”
You shook your head, waving your hand in the air as if to say “I’m cool”. “I’m just wondering how come you don’t have a girlfriend. Not that it’s a bad thing, I just–you’re a gentleman, you know?” You said, tilting your head to the side in confusion.
He nodded, looking away with a shy smile on his lips. “I–trust me, I don’t know either. I guess I just haven’t been looking for anyone.” He shrugged. Jay was lying through his teeth.
You pouted, then smiled as a question popped in your head. “Not even a crush?”
You.
He chuckled, shaking his head after you appeared in his mind.
Of course he wouldn’t say that to you. He didn’t even consider you a crush, per se. You were more than that, you were something to him, but not just a crush. A crush was someone you admired from afar because of the idea you planted of said person. But Jay knew you, the type of person you are, what you like, what you dislike, your favorite movies, the way you reacted to stuff and what you would say after it. That’s not something just a “crush” does to you.
So, he didn’t have a crush. He wasn’t technically lying to you. Was he?
A beautiful gasp echoed in his ears, causing him to startle himself. He smiled when he saw you pointing your index finger in his face.
“What?”
“You thought of someone, didn’t you?” You asked with excitement, thinking she cracked the code.
“No, I didn’t.”
You giggled, “Yeah, you did!”
Jay stared at you with squinted eyes then looked away, making you smile proudly. “You don’t have to tell me who it is. Whoever it is though…they are really lucky.”
“You think so?” You nodded. He looked down at you and gave you a flat smile, giving you a pat in the head to which you pushed him off, making him laugh. “She’s a much better person than me. If anything, I’m the lucky one.” He added.
You dramatically covered your mouth. “If that is true, then that’s amazing. Do you plan on talking to her? Make a move?” You asked with a smile. That precious smile that first made Jay lie eyes on you back in high school.
“Uh, we talk–normal, like friends.” He stumbled across his words, making you look at him attentively, as if to say “relax, take your time”, an expression he always admired. “It’s complicated. She’s going through a lot of things and I don’t want to be a burden.” He shook his head.
You stopped in front of the convenience store, turning to Jay, you placed your hand on his shoulder. “You’re everything but a burden, Jay. I hate that you say you are. If this person is as kind as you say they are…they’d think the same. And I’m sure they’d be more than happy to have you as company.”
Jay stared down at you for a second, his eyes leaving yours to look at where your hand was. “Thanks, Y/n. T–that means a lot coming from you.”
Letting your hand fall back on your body, you smiled. “Anyone would be lucky to be close to you, Jongseong.”
“Aaaand you ruined the moment.”
You snorted a laugh, quickly patting his head before stepping into the store.
For a second there, Jay stood in the same place, wondering what the hell he saved in his past life to have someone like you, to have you say something that made him believe there was no one else that could ever make him feel the way he did with you.
And fuck, he hated the fact that he knew he would never make a move on you, even if you said he should give it a try.
He couldn’t do that to Jake, or to you, for that matter.
Jakey boy: yo
Jakey boy: can i talk to you?
Jay sighed as the messages came through, quickly glancing at you. You were at the register, talking to the lady behind it with a smile. He scratched his eyebrow and opened his friend’s messages.
Jay: I'm out right now, is it important?
Jakey boy: u getting laid? 😛
Jay: just eating with a friend, i’ll call u when im back home
Jakey boy: it’s ok
Jakey boy: i just wanted an opinion
Jay: on?
Jakey boy: y/n
Jakey boy: I’m going to apologize to her
Jay swallowed nervously, sending a forced reaction emoji to his last message before he turned his phone off. He turned to look at you once again, your smile infecting the register lady as you paid for a sweet treat. He ran his fingers through his hair, looking away before it could infect you.
He waited patiently, although his foot tapping on the end of the chair said otherwise.
“I can’t believe I never forced you to try these.” You said, handing one of the popsicles to Jay as you sat back down. “They’re the best popsicles ever.”
Jay smiled subconsciously as he tore the package off with you, "you've always been obsessed with banana flavored treats.” He chuckled.
You smiled widely, taking a delicious bite, making a sound that made Jay’s stomach flutter. He shook his head before taking a bite, the same size as you. He wasn’t the biggest fan of banana flavored treats, but for you? The man would try anything.
At his unfamiliar expression, you furrowed your eyebrows. “You hate it, don't you?” Before he could respond, you sighed. “It’s okay, I can eat another one by myself.” You added as you reached for his popsicle.
Jay threw his head back, shaking it as he ate the popsicle peacefully before opening his mouth to speak. “It’s surprisingly very good.”
You sat back and cheered, making the guy chuckle. “Actually?”
He nodded.
As you opened your mouth to speak with excitement, a buzz came through your phone, making you mumble a small sorry before taking it.
A single text from Jake.
Jaeyun: can we talk?
You stared at it blankly, making Jay frown slightly at your reaction.
“Did something happen?” He asked after a second.
You put your phone down, shaking your head with a small laugh. “It’s nothing,” You took your popsicle back in your mouth to stop talking.
“Are you sure?”
You glanced at him and nodded, gathering the garbage in a pile to put it inside the plastic back. “Yeah, sorry. It’s just Jake.”
“Oh.”
You chuckled. “Yeah, oh.”
Jay let out a sigh, “Wanna talk about it?”
He did not want to talk about it.
“Thanks, but no. I feel like such a burden bringing the same topic over and over ever since I came back.” You chuckled awkwardly.
Jay reached for your hand, the hand that was moving from plastic to plastic just to do something. “You could never be a burden, Y/n.” He looked into your eyes with an expression you hadn't noticed before, making you blow air into your cheeks, making him smile a little bit. “Sure. I’m tired of hearing about Jake being an asshole, but coming from you? Nothing is a burden.”
You nodded slowly, giving him a saddened smile. “Jake is an asshole.”
He snorted a laugh, rolling his eyes playfully. “Such an asshole.”
You both smiled at each other, a real smile–innocent, even. And Jay wished you two could stay here forever, but he also knew that wasn’t possible. So again, like the coward he thought he was, he let go of your hand and instead patted your head. “Now let’s finish this thing so I can walk you back to your dorm and rest that pretty head of yours.” He teased.
You scoffed, hitting his shoulder playfully. “Just give me the damn popsicle back. What do you mean by this thing, you hater?”
All Jay could do was smile at you, going unnoticed by the way both of your expressions turned light again by the smallest teasing joke.
mars yap actually kill me bc I hate writing how I want my future husband to be GET ME A JAY NOW.
btw sorry for the week abandonment...promise I'll try my best updating ok :((((
⋆. ̊ — such a funny way | 005: are we talking about billy badass??
synopsis: desperate to move on after a harsh break up, you move into a new apartment on the other side of the city. the only issue? you’ll have three male roommates. the other even bigger issue? you’re falling for the one who can’t seem to stand you.
warnings: (one sided) enemies to lovers, based off new girl, heeseung is nonchalant and sometimes mean for no reason, bad attempts at comedy im sorry, opposites attract, past trauma, yeonjun, soobin (txt), yunjin (le sserafim), jake, sunghoon, sunoo, and jungwon (enhypen)
roses thoughts: i've seen people ask why the chapters are so short, and to that i have to say it's because my computer is way too old. in order to upload pics onto it it takes literal hoursss. otherwise i wouldn't mind making them longer. sorry guys!
playlist: green light - lorde // actually romantic - taylor swift // house tour - sabrina carpenter // needy - ariana grande
synopsis: desperate to move on after a harsh break up, you move into a new apartment on the other side of the city. the only issue? you’ll have three male roommates. the other even bigger issue? you’re falling for the one who can’t seem to stand you.
warnings: (one sided) enemies to lovers, based off new girl, heeseung is nonchalant and sometimes mean for no reason, bad attempts at comedy im sorry, opposites attract, past trauma, yeonjun, soobin (txt), yunjin (le sserafim), jake, sunghoon, sunoo, and jungwon (enhypen)
roses thoughts: ok we're getting to some actual plot now hello....
playlist: green light - lorde // actually romantic - taylor swift // house tour - sabrina carpenter // needy - ariana grande
SUMMARY a feminist podcast roasts a boyband live on air, and Keonho makes the mistake of getting intrigued by the one girl who refuses to be impressed.
PAIRING idol Keonho x podcaster Yn / female reader
FEATURING CORTIS, ILLIT Wonhee, NewJeans Hyein, H2H Ian, mentions of other idols
GENRE social media au with written parts, romance, crack, fluff (tba)
WARNINGS umm lots of jokes? swearing, complete roasting of the male kind (= hopecore), kys/kym, tba
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◡ a/n : we can all agree that piwon shares a netflix account right... and perhaps a spotify account too... ps i am hyperaware that the pacing is cheeks imsosorry i got unreasonably excited about this idea </3
𐔌 : The cold, distant, and impossible to read, Kim Sunoo never lets anyone get close. That is, until a fake relationship with Nishimura Riki, a boy who hides warmth beneath sharp edges, begins to let a little sunlight in and starts to feel all too real.
warnings: swearing
01 | sunlight in the quiet dark | 03
𑣲 : PLEASE give me opinions on this. anyway, second chapter !! lets hope i dont randomly lose motivation and quit. lol this is so bad i actually hate this
𐔌 : The cold, distant, and impossible to read, Kim Sunoo never lets anyone get close. That is, until a fake relationship with Nishimura Riki, a boy who hides warmth beneath sharp edges, begins to let a little sunlight in and starts to feel all too real.
warnings: swearing (?)
previous | sunlight in the quiet dark | 02
𑣲 : hii! first ever smau, kind of scared. these first few parts are boring and not very good but i hope you'll still read! i promise it gets better :( i hate hate hate this chapter.
.𖥔 ݁ SYNOPSIS . after getting publicly broken up with because of a misspread rumor, you move away to "heal" and "start over". when you come back after months and see your ex and said person—who spread those rumors about you—getting closer each day, you realize maybe you shouldn't have ever come back. and it definitely doesn't help when your ex starts giving you mixed signals about everything.
TAGS smau (+written) ; crack ; university au ; lots of miscommunication ; dumbass jake ; cringey moments ; cliche 𝓦 none that I can think of other than suggestive comments?
masterlist / 01 / 02 / 03 / 04 / 05 / 06 / 07
mars yap me when I'm locked in okurrr if you don't know morat let me put you on really gooooood songs like omfjvihiefrljcfwid
bsf!jungwon × fem!reader.⠀⠀⠀ ⋆✴︎˚｡⋆⠀⠀⠀you're jungwon's favorite headache—a fact that he can't bring himself to admit, and you can't bring your dense self to realize.
MASTERLIST. ┆ CONTAINS ➤ SMAU. college!au. to be loved is to be known type shi. ACTS-OF-SERVICE!WON!!!!! he's a lil dry and nonchalant but still pathetic and down BADDDD. reader's a bit oblivious and dumb. slowburn. fluff. angst. two idiots in love. profanity. miscommunication. comedy, maybe. petnames (princess, baby, etc.) ignore timestamps & typos. ✮ cameos from enhypen's ni-ki, riize's anton, &team's maki, illit, and other idols.
𝘳𝘦𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘨.ᐟ ⊹ ࣪ ˖ 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘥𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥 ♡
RUIN THE FRIENDSHIP┆𝗣𝗥𝗘𝗩𝗜𝗢𝗨𝗦 ─ 𝗡𝗘𝗫𝗧
FROM YAN 🐰 ➤ early update for the 2.5k milestone !! < 3 anyw, can we get some Ws in the chat for the ultimate goat nishimura riki. as usual, please lmk what u guys think. i < 3 talking to y'all in the replies bc u guys crack me the Fuckkkk up 😭🙏
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bsf!jungwon × fem!reader.⠀⠀⠀ ⋆✴︎˚｡⋆⠀⠀⠀you're jungwon's favorite headache—a fact that he can't bring himself to admit, and you can't bring your dense self to realize.
MASTERLIST. ┆ CONTAINS ➤ SMAU. college!au. to be loved is to be known type shi. ACTS-OF-SERVICE!WON!!!!! he's a lil dry and nonchalant but still pathetic and down BADDDD. reader's a bit oblivious and dumb. slowburn. fluff. angst. two idiots in love. profanity. miscommunication. comedy, maybe. petnames (princess, baby, etc.) ignore timestamps & typos. ✮ cameos from enhypen's ni-ki, riize's anton, &team's maki, illit, and other idols.
𝘳𝘦𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘨.ᐟ ⊹ ࣪ ˖ 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘥𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥
RUIN THE FRIENDSHIP┆𝗣𝗥𝗘𝗩𝗜𝗢𝗨𝗦 ─ 𝗡𝗘𝗫𝗧
FROM YAN 🐰 ➤ shit tonne of typos mistakes here . pls bare w ur stupid author LASDAKLSDJA also they're both starting to gain consciousness... y'all know what that means!! 😝😝😝 also if ur in the taglists pls lmk if its working on ur end :( ty!!
The stream starts with “Cherry Flavoured” by The Neighbourhood playing softly in the background. The screen shows a dimly blue-lit room with Evan sitting in his gaming chair, the mic positioned in front of his face, though his features aren’t actually visible due to the lighting.
*taps mic softly*
“...okay, I think we’re live.”
“Alright… hello to all the insomniacs, night owls, emotionally unstable people, and whoever accidentally stumbled in here.” *softly laughs*
The chat immediately starts flooding with comments.
User89: WELCOME BACK EVANNN
Meowmeow00: GOOD EVENING TO MY FAVORITE MAN EVER
Hillshaveeyes: EVANNNNN
certifiedloser: HES HERE
imnotcool: bro is late again
“First of all, I’m not late.”
“It’s literally 3:17.”
*checks phone*
“Okay, maybe 3:19, but that’s still close enough.”
user2467: LIARRRR
yajsdk: LIARR LIARR PANTS ON FIREEE
“You guys are so dramatic.”
*chair creaks slightly as he leans back*
“How’s everyone doing tonight?”
riodeleo: i failed my chemistry exam today btw
“...RIP to your chemistry grade.”
guccigng67: my roommate is fighting her situationship at 3am
“...oh no. Enjoy the tea… I guess?”
emonkeymon: i have school in 4 hours btw
“Then why are YOU here?”
*quiet laugh*
“Actually, never mind. I’m here too.”
lelomeloman: my situationship blocked me
“Don’t worry, you’ll find someone better.”
heeman: evan i just ate dry ramen
“This one genuinely concerns me.”
“Please drink water at least.”
“Wow.”
“Everybody here is genuinely living terrible lives.”
*laughs softly*
*reading chat*
acest: evan how was ur day?
“Uh… pretty normal.”
“Went to class. Took a nap that accidentally lasted six hours. Regretted it immediately.”
“And then spent the last hour setting this up because my mic randomly stopped working.”
“And now we’re here.”
*The chat starts spamming “skill issue.”*
“Okay, relax.”
“One day I’m ending this stream permanently and you guys are gonna miss me.”
monsterhighenthusiast: NO WE WONT
lilibily: yes we will actually ☹️
hewomeow: evan dont piss me off
“See? This is why we’re a family.”
user345: this man’s sleep schedule is cooked
“My sleep schedule has actually been horrible lately.”
“But that’s kind of the brand here.”
lilgng: GO TO BED EVAN
bunnyhun: this stream is his bedtime story
“Stop bullying me, y’all. I can literally end the stream right now.”
user902: no u cant
poofpoof: he needs us
hellybelly: parasocialism wins again
“…I hate all of you equally.”
*quiet laughter from him*
“Anyway. Welcome back to MidnightFM.”
“For anyone new here, this is basically a live late-night podcast where strangers on the internet send me anonymous confessions, and then we all sit here at unreasonable hours of the night pretending this is healthier than therapy.”
teletubbi56: therapy but worse
goofypoofy: group counseling session
certifiedloser: this stream heals me lowkey
“Alright.”
*scrolling sounds*
“We got a LOT of submissions tonight.”
“Some of you seriously need journals.”
*reading chat*
myloveevan: evan u ARE the journal
milo: exactly
bluntyfunty: u signed up for this btw
“…unfortunately true.”
“Okay, first submission.”
*clears throat dramatically*
#1 i accidentally told my professor “love you” instead of “thank you” today and i genuinely think transferring universities is my only option now.
*immediately starts laughing*
“No because what would ever make you confuse ‘love you’ and ‘thank you’ together?”
“Why would you ever say that? You cannot convince me otherwise that you don’t have a crush on that professor. That was definitely a Freudian slip.” *laughs even harder* “This is so funny, I’m sorry.”
user480: DROP OUT
hiltonmill: CHANGE UR NAME
harleyquinn: MOVE COUNTRIES
batman: THIS IS INSANE
“Exactly.”
“There’s genuinely no recovering from that.”
*reading another comment*
qwertdjs: maybe the professor needed to hear it
“See, now you guys are just enabling delusion.”
“Which is MY job here.”
*The chat floods with crying emojis.*
“I’m sorry, but you need a new identity now.”
“Maybe try online classes.”
*still laughing quietly*
“Okay, next one.”
*scrolling sounds*
#2 my roommate keeps stealing my clothes and then gaslighting me into thinking they were hers first. what legal action can i take.
“Oh, this one’s personal.”
melryho: STEAL HER STUFF BACK
user4320: small claims court
certifiedloser: fight her.
“See? The people have spoken.”
“Honestly, I think you should start stealing HER clothes and gaslighting her back.”
“Psychological warfare.”
iloveevan: EVAN YOU’RE MAKING IT WORSE
user35: he supports women’s wrongs
“Exactly. I support women’s rights and especially their wrongs.”
*laughs*
nonofy: evan supports toxic behavior confirmed
“I support standing up for yourself.”
“Alright… next submission.”
*voice softens slightly*
#3 do u guys think soulmates exist or is everyone just emotionally attached to people who gave them attention at the wrong time.
“…okay damn.”
“That got serious really fast.”
*The chat instantly slows down.*
iloveevan: oh.
ayeshai: wait this one kinda hit
user339203: 3am got serious fast
myshoeisblue: OH?
blueyismychild: this stream just shifted vibes
certifiedloser: damn
*leans back in chair*
“I don’t know if soulmates exist.”
“I think sometimes people just meet each other at the wrong point in their lives and spend years wondering what would’ve happened if the timing had been different.”
*The chat slows down even more.*
“Like… maybe some people are meant to find each other.”
“But not necessarily meant to keep each other.”
*brief silence*
“Wow. This stream got depressing.”
debbeb: damn.. who hurt this man
imnotcool: evan are YOU okay
meowmeow67: this got personal real fast
“I’m always okay.”
*The chat immediately bursts into laughter emojis.*
iloveevan: LIAR
imokay: nobody awake at 3am is okay
meowmeow67: be serious
“…fair enough.”
*small tired laugh*
“But I do think some people stay with you longer than others.”
“Even after everything ends.”
“Like certain people permanently change the way you think or act or exist.”
“And I don’t think you ever fully undo that.”
*quiet laugh*
“Okay… last one for tonight.”
*keyboard clicking*
“…oh.”
*pause*
*The chat immediately catches it.*
user5214: WHY DID HE SAY OH LIKE THAT
404notfound: hello???
evanly: bro recognized the lore
“No, it’s just…”
*he pauses briefly*
“…never mind.”
*reads quieter this time*
#4 sometimes i still reach for the left side of the bed even though nobody’s slept there in months. i think muscle memory is genuinely one of the cruelest things ever invented. also whoever said “time heals everything” was a liar btw.
*The chat noticeably slows.*
nellyintheparty: oh
charlie: wait this one hurts
bluebooty: that’s actually devastating
“…yeah.”
“That’s a very specific type of pain.”
*scrolling again*
“There’s more.”
there’s this one song i physically cannot listen to anymore because it reminds me too much of him. which is annoying because he was the one who introduced me to it in the first place.
*brief pause*
it’s A Little Death by The Neighbourhood.
*Complete silence for a second.*
“…that’s a good song.”
*The chat moves slower again.*
evanly: why does he sound affected
mellowbellow: EVAN U GOOD???
user99: bro got flashbacks
“I’m fine.”
*too fast.*
“But yeah… I think music is one of the worst things to attach memories to.”
“Because it catches you off guard.”
“One random shuffle and suddenly your entire mood is ruined for the rest of the night.”
*reading chat*
reyrey: the left side of the bed line is crazy.
“Yeah.”
“I think muscle memory is cruel in general.”
“You get so used to somebody existing in your life that your body remembers them even after your brain tries to move on.”
*The chat is almost completely calm now.*
iloveevan: oh this got TOO real
meowmeow67: im never recovering from this stream
evanly: somebody hug him
“And time doesn’t really erase that.”
“I think it just teaches you how to carry it differently.”
*brief silence*
“…anyway.”
*small awkward laugh*
“Before this turns into me oversharing to thousands of people at 4 in the morning.”
*The chat moves slowly now.*
bobbylobby: this stream feels different tonight
“…does it?”
*quiet static from the mic*
“I think everybody just gets a little more honest after 3 a.m.”
*reads another chat message*
miley857: do u think the person who sent that still loves him?
*Heeseung pauses.*
“…I think you don’t write things like that unless a part of you still does.”
*The chat immediately starts losing it again.*
mariaaaahh: OH????
usernameno5: HELLO???
evanly: that was INSANE actually
“Relax.”
*small laugh*
“But missing someone is weird.”
“Sometimes you can move on with your life and still miss them in random moments.”
“And I don’t think that always means you want them back.”
“Sometimes it just means they mattered.”
*brief silence*
“And honestly… I think that’s okay.”
*He glances back at the submission again.*
“Anyway.”
“It’s almost 4:30 in the morning and some of you unfortunately have responsibilities tomorrow.”
*The chat starts spamming “NOOO.”*
“Yes, including me.”
“Thank you for hanging out with me tonight.”
“As always, submissions stay open after the stream ends.”
