Maeioun✩

My body, my love What have you done? Grown the extra love handle And expanded the tum'?

My body, my love Where have you gone? From snatched waist to rolls And more curves down your spine?

My body, my love How long will it be? Before the weight of these changes Cuts deep into me?

My body, my love How do I learn? To love all that was And is and is to come?

My body, my fire Do the flames hurt? As the whips and the lashes Come flying all at once?

My body, my warrior How can it be? That you carry the scars Of my mistakes from the past

My body, my vessel Teach me how to care To nourish and feed you So there’s no more despair

My body, my temple Teach me to worship The soft curves and bulges That have settled on your skin

My body, my love Teach me to be thankful For carrying my worries My fears and anxieties

My body, my love Teach me to pray For my mind that still wanders In the depths of dismay

My body, my lover Maybe one day I will Be in love with you forever Until the day we part

My body, my survivor Thank you for carrying me Through the torture of the raging sickness And all the wrongs and the rights

It has not been and it never will be. Weight gain is absolutely a symptom, and a lot of people are uncomfortable with that, but being thin does not magically fix your hormone levels or vanish the cysts from your internal organs.

can’t quite suck it in

body hair

love handles

innie/outie belly button

abs

scars

uneven breasts

tattoos

moles

visible ribs

chest/back acne

stretch marks

tan lines

stoma/stoma bag

belly button height

wrinkles/dimples

bloating

scoliosis

body jewelry

“V” line

i am healthy.

i am confident.

i love my body.

i am strong.

i attract love.

When this is over, I’m throwing the biggest pancake party this town has ever seen. An anonymous fear submitted to Deep Dark Fears - thanks!

Take a couple deep breaths… and let go of the worries. Say good-bye to them. 

Sometimes the only way to figure out what our feelings are the root of is to just let ourselves feel and get it wrong a couple times. It takes time and patience and a lot of time to work through complicated feelings like these. If, right now, identifying as nonbinary helps you feel more comfortable, then do that! That’s the right choice for you.

Identifying one way now doesn’t mean you have to identify that way forever. But maybe identifying as nonbinary will help you be more comfortable coming to grips with your relationship with sex/sexualization. Or maybe after identifying this way for a way will help you realize that yes, you really are nonbinary.

Take chances. Let yourself make mistakes and misidentify and explore and experiment. This doesn’t make your journey or identity invalid or wrong or fake. It just makes you human. So take a chance. Take a chance on yourself. We gotta grow somehow, and honestly taking a wrong turn can help us out so much more than refusing to take any turns.

(Also, it’s cool to make this confused, unable-to-separate-it area your home. I know there’s arogender (x), where your aromanticsm and gender are inextricably linked, so I’m sure there’s acegender where you feel the same about your asexuality and your gender.)

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