Tiredlesbian

That one line about remembering things reminds me a LOT of rumination.

Thinking abt something like a memory over and over until it's incomprehensible except for the fear and what one believes to be the gist of what they were thinking of...

It's. A lot like ruminating.

YESS OMG.

When Clark said that line about remembering over and over again, it really is like rumination.

AND- dare I say the haunted distortion of everything, how the backrooms are memories just remembered a little wrong is very much like ocd. Clark lived in memories that weren’t true, they were recycled like copies of copies and that’s just like rumination, and his inability to change really solidifies that.

Clark was also so obsessed with the backrooms when he found them, mapping them, spending all his free time in them, he was aware of how crazy it all sounded and yet he couldn’t help but go deeper, getting to the point where he dragged Kat and Bobby into his obsession and ultimately getting them killed. This is such an ocd thing, being aware of your own dissent into a false reality while also being unwilling to stray from the delusion. You know it’s crazy, but, what if…

spoilers because I'm gonna ramble:

I just gotta start by saying right off the bat that this fic did such a beautiful job painting this want between the two, like there is something so innocent and also heartwarming about two people wanting each other and wanting success -- like the two don't have to cancel one another out.

the part about Nietzsche and how history repeats itself, that everything is an impression of another-- BUT-- Lando and Oscar make it, and a person can see this as them "breaking" the cycle, but I like to think of it as though they were never like Mark and Seb to begin with, that the impressions of the past they were walking though belonged to someone else, they belonged to others who also loved so deeply, loved their career with obsessive insanity, and also loved another with the same fire that burned through their lungs on the track.

Also, shout out to the lines "Winning is also this: wearing a crinkled white shirt to have dinner with the family of the person you're so in love with it physically hurts" RIGHT AFTER OSCAR HAS A CALL WITH HIS SISTER WHERE SHE SAID WINNING ISN'T EVERYTHING OOOHHHH MY GOD MY HEART CAN'T ACTUALLY TAKE IT.

Oscar realizing that none of it actually matters, winning or losing, the media, the PR, it's a full circle moment, he's who he was in the beginning, an awkward, dry humored Australian racer who couldn't care less about interviews and public image.

Sometimes winning is losing, and still having everything you love right next to you.

Thinking abt f1 rivals zolu, thinking about them always neck and neck for p1.

Thinking about Luffy jumping Zoro, pissed, fists swinging after a race in front of everyone, because Zoro had the chance to overtake and he didn’t do it, having Luffy take P1.

Luffy is furious and no one really understands his logic, he won, he’s leading the wdc championship now, why is he so angry? He calls Zoro a coward, says the win is undeserved because it wasn’t properly fought.

Zoro is confused, did he miss the chance at an overtake? Usopp would’ve radioed him, but, maybe, for a second, he hesitated. No, it wasn’t hesitation, it was…what was it?

“Why did you go easy on me? Why didn’t you fight me for it?”

Luffy asks him this on the podium, turning back to the crowd like it never happened, leaving Zoro listless, scrambling for answers. Did he go easy on his rival? He scrapes his memory, looking for clues, any suggestion that he, Roronoa Zoro gave up pole position to the man he is currently fighting neck and neck with in the WDC championship.

Zoro looks to luffy, east blue anthem ringing loud and it hits him.

Zolu F1 au and they're bascially Lestappen

Zoro has the same personality as Verstappen- comes off as blunt, stand offish, claims to be all business, but when with Luffy suddenly he's the most giggly guy.

Luffy is the "King of the paddock" he could walk into any paddock of any team and make himself at home just talking to any race engineer, no malintent, just vibes. Luffy is like a less refined and poise Leclerc, he has the charm but it presents MUCH differently.

Zoro basically follows Luffy around everywhere he goes, looming in the back of interviews looking lost or extremely awkward as he waits for luffy to finish an interview, but Luffy doesn't pay it any mind, always smiling wide when he sees Zoro.

They call each other "rival" like there is no one else on the grid, always fighting for first place, and any time Zoro is second to Luffy, the press see him all callous and angsty, but when asked about the race and how it was competing with Luffy, he gets all smiley and excited as he rambles about trying to overtake Luffy in the last few laps.

Luffy is a rising star, achieving the unimaginable, and Zoro, in spite of being his competition, has this dog like devotion to Luffy. Zoro defends Luffy any chance he can get in a press conference or interview, always on the verge of fighting every reporter that dares to ask a question to Zoro that hints at Luffy in a poor light. Luffy always laughs at Zoro's reaction, telling him to calm down and he does instantly, and everyone is so confused.

Anyways, will be drawing this soon

also:

Shanks is Luffy's Team leader

Started watching drive to survive

Had to make an F1 oc (and they’re a nb lesbian bc ofc they are)

Tomtord portraits in my style