dumpster fire

I downloaded the PDF to my hard drive and I open it again whenever I'm feeling too suicidal to do much else, but not enough to start booking a ride to the hospital. And every time without fail I only go up to a few pages before backing off and choosing to live another day just because suicide suddenly seems even more unbearable than whatever the hell upset me in the first place.

All the book really does is [I'm pulling a summary from GoodReads here as, again, I've read no more than 5 pages] "discusses the social aspects of suicide, the right to die, anger, loneliness, depression, stress, hopelessness, drug and alcohol abuse, the consequences of a suicide attempt, and how to get help."

But it also starts with the author kindly asking the reader to complete the book before going through with anything, and for some reason I'm compelled to really just try to read it all before finalizing everything. Despite not yet completing it (hopefully never will) I think I can safely say it's saved my life at least a few times now.

Atreus would find him in a secluded area of midgard. Sindri had set up his workshop, but it was clearly unorganized and unkempt. Surrounding it was dozens and dozens of beautiful armour, weapons, and even accessories. His remains would be in the middle of it all, lain against the anvil and hammer- Brok's hammer- still in his ungloved hand.

When Atreus finds his remains, he would soon realize that Sindri has been dead for years. After ragnarok and saying goodbye to Brok for one last time, he would set up the workshop somewhere no one would find him and work himself to death. He wanted to distract himself from the lost of his family- not only Brok, but Atreus and Kratos as well, and the guilt of essentially robbing Brok his afterlife- all because he didn't wanted to be alone.

And that's what exactly happened to him. Sindri quietly passed away, full of regret, hatred and guilt, and sadness. And Atreus would feel a portion of it, as Sindri's feelings were so strong that a part of it imprinted on his hammer.

and bunch of other gow sketches !!!!