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how am i supposed to believe you when you tell me you love me when you lie to me about meaningless shit

i literally had a fucking guy around austin jones’ age take advantage of me when i was 14. do not fucking think for a second that this isn’t a big deal. it still affects me years later, i can’t be friends with anyone with his name. i can’t hear his name without seeing his face in my head. i get nauseous thinking he got away with this (as well as with other girls). do not fucking defend this man. he should rot. he knew what he was doing. those girls were taken advantage of whether or not they are capable of understanding that right now. scum bag. period.

do you have any idea how sad it is that for a week, i am literally less than 45 minutes away from an internet friend that i've known for at least 4 years and never met and he doesn't even want to meet me???

i just wanna fucking feel right

i'm rly sad n i don't know what to do abt it !

y'all i'm honestly ashamed that a lot of feminists and blm supporters have gone fuckin silent over the 4 young black people who tortured this innocent white, disabled man. i'm ashamed that people can't get off their fucking high horse and admit the toxicity of some of the shit they preach. y'all seem to care more about the white guy who raped the disabled black woman when both of these things are equally fucked up. sure, this one got way more media coverage, causing the outrage we've all seen. but you have to realize that the judges and media are the issue here. those 4 people deserved to be charged with a hate crime. so did that white guy. fuck that judge. it's not the individual's fault for not hearing about the second crime. it's the media's. get your shit in perspective.

2020 until i can mark 3 years off my bucket list. i'm so fucking sad. it's all one day at a time.

i need someone to care about me. i need someone. i can't fucking be alone

i always fucking forget how much i hate christmas, it always reminds me of how i have no one that genuinely cares about me :-)

i want 2 die :-)

i just want someone who never will make me cry sad tears and will hold me when i do